Category Archives: Thoughts

The bulk of my thoughts go here. Life, something you can’t avoid.

Hopes and Fantasies

KnyghtMare and I are still in the consideration phase. I’m told I need to be showing him what kind of submissive I can be for him, complying with what I know his expectations are and as my displays of non-combative … Continue reading

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Allowing Myself to Feel

I’m back with my self-work, trying to get my head and my life straightened around so that I’m happy and healthy and in fulfilling, nurturing relationships. Today, I’m working on my feelings. For years now, I’ve made it a habit … Continue reading

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The Loss of Monogamy: A Many Year Grieving Process

I’m still working on me and here I am with another poignant thought in my healing process. I’m reading a book about co-dependency and tonight’s chapter was about grieving. Often, what causes co-dependents to act they way they do and … Continue reading

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Need to Worship

So the last time I wrote about my personal journey I had rediscovered my submission completely by accident and had one of my best days in a long time, only to realize that since I had no one to submit … Continue reading

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Something “Clicked” Today

I’ve been doing a lot of self work when I’m home on the weekends and this weekend was no different. I’ve been focusing my efforts on a few things that I know I need to work on but also trying … Continue reading

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Victim to Survivor

I’ve been living a lie. Since my early teens when my father would hit me and yell at me, and my mother would belittle me and tell me I’m worthless I’ve learned a lot of really bad behaviors. Things that … Continue reading

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New Year for a New You: Day 6 #yby2018

This took me a long time to think about, and then I forgot about it for a couple weeks. So, here it is about a month late :P 1. Create a specific goal for each of the five pillars of … Continue reading

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New Year for a New You: Day 5 #yby2018

This is day 5 of Lisa Jacobs Annual Review. You can find the details on her site, Marketing Creativity. 1. What are your main priorities in life (i.e., family, profession, marriage, personal wellbeing, etc.)? List them in order of importance. I … Continue reading

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