Dad is Gone

I thought because I didn’t have a relationship with my dad, that I wouldn’t have a need to grieve. I was so wrong!

“… my dad was an asshole, too. But it didn’t make it any easier to bury him. ‘Cause I was also burying any chance that he might miraculously turn into a different person. ” – Jessica Jones S3:10

I’m grieving the father I wanted, the one I needed. The one he could never be. I’m wishing he had changed for the better, that in one of the many “last chances” I gave him, he showed me he had left behind the hateful, manipulative, abusive self and found someone I could get to know. But he didn’t. And so I’m left with a wound that never healed, that I tried to heal on my own for years.

I don’t know which direction my grief will take me, but I hope there is peace, in the end.

About lunaKM

I’m a full-time submissive in a D/s relationship. I am webslut to My Personal Blog, The Iron Gate, Submissive Guide, Submissive Journal Prompts, and help my Master KnyghtMare with Kink Network Sites. I started blogging when I was exploring D/s online in 2003. I needed advice, mentors and helping hands. Since then I’ve made it my mission to help novice submissives understand themselves and the services they wish to provide. Read more >>
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