By lunaKM on December 9, 2009
In a continuation of my previous post, whippedblade asked some very deep questions that I thought I really should try to answer to better understand myself. For those of you who think I should stop analyzing submission and just do it… this IS how I follow through. Anyways, she asks:
If submission is what you want [...]
Posted in Submission | Tagged adoration, fight, neglect, relationship, struggle, Submission, Time, true love
By lunaKM on September 29, 2009
It’s been an emotional roller coaster few days here. Master and I tested out the newly made toys last night. I wasn’t sure what to expect from them since it’s been a long time since we’ve done a stand alone pain scene. I knew that I’d have to really keep my body from wanting to [...]
Posted in Role Dynamics | Tagged argument, blow job, Chaos, Desire, Emotions, Fear, love, pain, play, pleasure, Submission
By lunaKM on September 2, 2009
Here I am again. No new news on my dad. He hasn’t bothered to call me now that I know he’s been admitted to the hospital. He keeps calling my step sister instead of me; which is really starting to bother me. I haven’t gotten a call since this morning from him. Any new news [...]
Posted in Life, Submission | Tagged dad, identity, slavery, stress, struggle, Submission
By lunaKM on July 2, 2009
Last night Master and I had a huge discussion. I’ve had a very bad attitude this week and he said he is still mad at me for lying and is upset that I seem to show no remorse for it this week. He explained that last week was better and I was more submissive then. [...]
Posted in Submission | Tagged argument, depression, punishment, stress, Submission
By lunaKM on June 25, 2009
I’ve suffered a bout of headaches this week. Monday I had a massive migraine in the middle of the night that took hours to calm down to a level that I could sleep. The rest of this week has been a number of smaller headaches that I just can’t seem to make go away. Medication [...]
Posted in Life | Tagged depression, headache, punishment, Submission
By lunaKM on June 5, 2009
I’ve been reading the book Slavecraft by a grateful slave to do a review for Submissive Guide. It is a collection of essays written by one slave about his exploration in deeper submission and servitude. I’m finding myself growing as a submissive in my own relationship and feel that I could develop further just [...]
Posted in Mental Growth | Tagged growth, happiness, joyful service, manner, obedience, Submission
By lunaKM on June 4, 2009
Yesterday was a hard day for Master. I wasn’t interested in giving him a blow job, I just couldn’t find it in me to want to do it. He told me that he wanted one early on and when I got home from working on SubmissiveGuide he asked for one just as I came in [...]
Posted in Submission | Tagged blow job, disinterest, growth and development, Just Sex, Submission
By lunaKM on June 3, 2009
This week is going by relatively fast. I worked really hard on Submissive Guide yesterday and today I need to do a bit of housework. Master and I have been working through a few things as far as our dynamic goes. As I mentioned before, Master wants to be more consistent in his enforcement of [...]
Posted in Life | Tagged bdsm, Behavior, class, housework, journey, learning, Life, love, struggle, Submission, submissive guide, work
By lunaKM on June 1, 2009
Weigh In: 351
I’ve gained 3 pounds since last week. I’m pissed, depressed and annoyed. We may have only done 2 days of exercise last week, but I watched what I ate pretty well and increased my water intake by 1 liter. I’ve never been above 350. I feel humiliated and unhealthy. My knees are [...]
Posted in Skinny Thoughts | Tagged mood, munch, Submission, work
By lunaKM on May 30, 2009
We had a pretty good munch today. A class on Spanking and Impact play went really well I think. Master was nervous as always. He gets sweaty palms, it’s so cute. I love his little nerves. He’s so smart and knows what he needs to know. I know that with every class he gets more [...]
Posted in Submission | Tagged attitude, class, Just Sex, love, munch, play, slavery, Submission, submissive guide, Training, work
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