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I’m Thankful
I’m thankful. It’s been a hectic year, but there are things that I’m grateful in my life. I’m going to share some here. I’m thankful … Master’s ability to be so very patient with me when my mood is frazzled and my temper flares. During these hard economic times I can stay at home and [...]
Weekend from Hell
This weekend was one that I’d like to forget. I was in such a horrible mood that it passed on to Master and we pretty much wanted to ignore each other all weekend. That didn’t help Master’s sexual frustration since he’s not likely to approach me at all when I look like I could bite [...]
All About A Diet
I’m going to do low carb again. I felt healthier than I ever have on it. It’s going to be a drastic change for my current eating, but worth it. I’ll fix my stomach problems and hopefully start losing weight. The next time I go shopping it will be with South Beach meal plans. That [...]
New Floggers and an Itch to Scratch
The kinky crafts was lots of fun. I got 2 floggers mostly done, the canes sanded and tips rounded. I need to stain and clear coat them before I can do handles on them. I remade the crop that Master stepped on over 4 years ago. I have 2 other floggers in the works. All [...]
A Dry Spell
Master was sick for much of September… so was I. This lead to a dry spell in our sexual lives. Now that we are both well my period is only days away. So why is it that I am not interested in sex? Master is quite frustrated about it and brings it up often enough. [...]
I’m Not Liking This New Size
Weigh In: 351 I’ve gained 3 pounds since last week. I’m pissed, depressed and annoyed. We may have only done 2 days of exercise last week, but I watched what I ate pretty well and increased my water intake by 1 liter. I’ve never been above 350. I feel humiliated and unhealthy. My knees are [...]
Take Me Anyway
I read a post on persephone’s blog today that really had me thinking about my own desires. She talks about consensual non-consent and a rape fantasy that her boyfriend and her did one night. Yes it was hot to read, but it also made me think about the times that Master takes me when I’m [...]
In a Funk
Master is dealing with me in a bad funk. I just don’t want to do anything, I am not sexual feeling at all and it’s grating on his nerves. He asked me to do his foot massage and I really don’t want to do it. That doesn’t mean I won’t do it, but my heart [...]
After the Drought
If you hadn’t noticed I was gone for a while. I went down to help our friend Areli move her old art studio from upstairs to downstairs. Let me tell you, there was so much in there that after about 3 1/2 hours we were pooped and only half done! We had a wonderful visit [...]
Sleeping Better
I’ve been forgetting to blog here, but not on purpose. So, what’s happened since Sunday? I’m divorced. It was painless. I went in, paid the decree fee and the clerk ran it up to the judge right away. He brought it down within 10 mins and it was signed, filed and I got my copy. [...]
What Attitude?
The attitude that I alluded to in my previous post is complex but I’ll try to explain. Before all of this happened (my being fired, turning to stay-at-home, watching my step-mom die) I was in a pretty good mood all the time, I loved serving Master in whatever fashion I could. I did my rules, [...]
Finding Feelings
I’d like to thank everyone for commenting on my venting post about a disagreement Master and I have had over and over again in our relationship. I really did take all of your thoughts to heart. After having the long difficult discussion with Master I went away and wrote in my physical journal. It’s private [...]
TMI Tuesday #176
1. Is there a sexual act/position/practice that you were sure in advance you would hate (or never try) and then discovered to your surprise you loved? Sensory deprivation. I thought I would totally freak out, but I really really love it. Even when there are small amounts of it instead of full deprivation it gets [...]
Round and Round
I’m annoyed. Master has grown tired of my lack of desire to do things when he’s asked. The pressure I have is that I have to be in the mood when he’s asking me. It’s like going from making coffee to a blow job without any warm up. Today Master wants me to give him [...]
A Case of the Downs
I’ve been pretty down this week. Most if it has had to do with money concerns; something I tend to obsess with anyhow. Even with our collar-versary on Tuesday I didn’t seem to cheer up much. Master is really concerned. He watched me barely eat anything last night. I’m just not in the mood to [...]
In a Mood
Boy was yesterday horrible for me mood-wise! I don’t know what got into me but I just couldn’t be anything but rude and obnoxious and emotionally sensitive with everyone – including Master. Yes it get me into a lot of trouble, for which I have to wait till next Tuesday to pay for, talk about [...]
Instruction Manual
From Submissive Journal Prompts: If you came with an instruction manual what would be in it? Well, this is a hard one. Let’s see… Bind tightly to keep in the mood. Tease endlessly even if not apparently in the mood. Stir quietly to a high frenzy. Accept that the mood of the submissive may not [...]
Creativity Spark
My creative streak came back again last night. I sat down with my box of materials and made 3 floggers, a slapper and have plans for another cat o nine to start later on. The floggers I made, one is out of Mariner’s twine, and so is very soft, the other two are nasty buggers. [...]
Saying No
Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]
Emotional Slave
After the most recent post, I’ve really been thinking about just how emotional I am. Not just sadness but I seem to get pretty attached to my emotional state. When Master makes me happy I feel high for a long time, almost like I can’t come down fast enough. When I’m down then I’m really [...]
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