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Why Do I Fight?
In a continuation of my previous post, whippedblade asked some very deep questions that I thought I really should try to answer to better understand myself. For those of you who think I should stop analyzing submission and just do it… this IS how I follow through. Anyways, she asks: If submission is what you [...]
Five More
I prepared for play as I always do; a shower, picking music and mental preparation. Play with Master is always an adventure into my own self whether it be from pain or pleasure or both. I don’t know what to expect this time as I enter the room. Master is there, dressed in tight blue [...]
Dealing with the Downs
I’m fighting myself to keep from crying. I feel really depressed. I know exactly why too. When I started being a stay at home submissive I had a lot of dreams. I still do. But one thing that knew I’d have to come to terms with is the feeling of value and satisfaction that I [...]
Service Progress
It’s been a month since I lost my job. I’ve been learning and growing as a stay-at-home submissive. The apartment is a lot cleaner than it ever was, but not as clean as I ultimately want to maintain it. I have worked to develop Submissive Guide and have plans for the future of it so [...]
Fucking Friday
I snuggled with Master this morning and announced that my sex drive was back. I rubbed my hands all over him, rocking my hips against him and he took me. Morning fucks are back on the menu. It’s been so long since we’ve done it that I forgot how wonderful it is. It’s more sensitive [...]
TMI Tuesday #177
There is a bigger, more thought-producing post coming later today, but in the meantime, here’s some fun. 1. Are you pro-marriage? Why or why not? I am personally pro-marriage, but that doesn’t mean that I want everyone in a committed relationship to end up getting married. I want to declare to the world one day [...]
Sugasm #160
The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #161? Submit a link to your best post of the week by emailing me directly at radicalvixenatgmaildotcom Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set. This [...]
Complying with Master’s Requests Without Question
Another thing that Master and I talked about this weekend was my need to question everything he asks of me. I ask him a lot of questions about the things he asks me to do and I really shouldn’t. I trust him, but for some reason I have a need to know his motives for [...]
Feeling Off Balance
I started crying last night and I don’t even know why. I’m over emotional lately. I’m arguing with Master, I’m defensive. I’ve gotten lazy, I’m not acting submissive. Something is off kilter. I really can’t explain what. It’s been going on for about 3 weeks from what I can tell. Master’s foot rubs are less [...]
Mediation Monday: Disagreements, Arguments and Fights
When I gave the BDSM presentation this fall to the Human Sexuality class, one of the questions asked was, ‘How do you make up from fights?” I actually had to pause because Master and I don’t fight. Really, I don’t just ignore that part of our life here on this blog; there really is none [...]
Slave Training Lesson #4: Self-Reflective Impulses
The following exercise is to help develop a self-reflective mindset. Write whatever comes to mind first, answers are not carved in stone, and will be analzyed later in training. For now just write. Exercise: Complete the following sentences. I imagine myself as a slave being able to…serve Master completely and peacefully with my heart and [...]
Restful Sleep
I’ve slept so much better since I started on the Synthroid and I’ve not had many naps to keep me going. I hope my energy is right behind because I still feel exhausted with the simplest exhersion. I go back to the Dr today and am very interested in what he has to say. I’m [...]
Protected: Letter to Master 11-16-08
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Birthday Events 3: Dinner, a Spanking and a Show
After the shopping we checked into the hotel. Master left the paddle in the car, which I thought was odd but didn’t think to hard about it. After entering the suite I wanted to relax for awhile before going out to dinner. This is where Master informed me that we weren’t going out to dinner [...]
Christmas Challenge: End of Week 2
I weighed in this week 5.5 lbs lighter! Yay, I’m well on my way to 20 lbs lost by Christmas. I’m so happy. I didn’t do a minute of extra exercise because of my back pain, but I did really good with the food intake and is shows. I know I can do this. Just [...]
So Grateful for Master’s Love
Our 4 year anniversary is coming up in just over a week. I can’t believe that 4 years ago I was meeting a man for the first time and he would never go home. It’s been a wild and wonderful ride, one that I hope never ends. Last night he asked me if I ever [...]
When Master is Too Lenient
Master is great. He’s pleased with what I’m learning, he praises my progress, never forgets (almost) to say thank you for something he has requested. I feel like I’m treated like a princess or an angel. And sometimes I feel like I’m a gently used submissive. Don’t get me wrong, I love how he makes [...]
Topping from the Bottom, again
You have to love it when someone has the guts to say something that really hits home for you. I’ve seen a lot of blogs out there with the submissive is pretty much whining that the Dom isn’t Dom enough and that they don’t give theme enough direction. Or the ones who say that they [...]
Protected: Letter to Master 5-18-08
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Master the Drill Sergeant
Last week I wrote about my issues with exercise and dieting in general. After that post Master spoke to me about how he doesn’t like the depression I get into when I don’t do well with my diet. It was a difficult discussion for me because I knew that if I asked him to take [...]
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