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This isn’t happening.
It’s been an emotional roller coaster few days here. Master and I tested out the newly made toys last night. I wasn’t sure what to expect from them since it’s been a long time since we’ve done a stand alone pain scene. I knew that I’d have to really keep my body from wanting to [...]
Sexual Disinterest
Yesterday was a hard day for Master. I wasn’t interested in giving him a blow job, I just couldn’t find it in me to want to do it. He told me that he wanted one early on and when I got home from working on SubmissiveGuide he asked for one just as I came in [...]
Feeling Right with the World
Today was a pretty darned good day! I got a lot of cleaning done in the morning, spent a lazy afternoon reading a book and then Master and I went to Wally-world to get hair color for me! I’m now a burgundy brunette. It’s gorgeous sexy on me. Master loves it, I love it. Right [...]
TMI Tuesday #179
1. Ever Googled a date, a potential date or an ex? No. Never been that interested in it. I have googled myself though! 2. Do you gossip? I used to. I’m not allowed to anymore. It’s just bad behavior and not what Master wants to see out of me. 3. How many people do you [...]
Finding Feelings
I’d like to thank everyone for commenting on my venting post about a disagreement Master and I have had over and over again in our relationship. I really did take all of your thoughts to heart. After having the long difficult discussion with Master I went away and wrote in my physical journal. It’s private [...]
Round and Round
I’m annoyed. Master has grown tired of my lack of desire to do things when he’s asked. The pressure I have is that I have to be in the mood when he’s asking me. It’s like going from making coffee to a blow job without any warm up. Today Master wants me to give him [...]
Sex Work
I am a failure. Something that appears to come easy for someone else I am still spending so much time trying to find my way. I’m talking about pleasuring Master. Countless times I talk about my issues with blow jobs. But really it’s all pleasure that is for Master that I have something wrong. Master [...]
Come Swallowing Again
Yesterday was a crummy day. Master decided that yesterday was the day he’d tell me everything that he is frustrated about or things I’m failing on, etc. I really wish he’s not wait till all of it piles up and then I feel like shit and not worth the collar I’m wearing. No where does [...]
Separation of Sex and Sex
Since the start of our relationship, Master and I have had one huge road block that keeps coming up. Blow jobs. We go round and round about them. I don’t really enjoy giving them all the time. I would rather do them as a form of foreplay, and I hate the taste of come so [...]
Saying No
Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]
Returning to Strict
Master has begun to return to the strict man I know him to be. He told me last night during dinner that he’s been lenient since we moved in August. Now he is returning to how he prefers to be. I’m silently giddy that he will be correcting me frequently, tightening the reins and perhaps [...]
He Spit On Me
Master mentioned shortly after we started face slapping that he has had the urge during play or sex to spit on me. I am accepting of the fact that he would do it and I would have to accept it or discuss it later on. During our recent play with the new rabbit vibrator, Master [...]
When Master is Too Lenient
Master is great. He’s pleased with what I’m learning, he praises my progress, never forgets (almost) to say thank you for something he has requested. I feel like I’m treated like a princess or an angel. And sometimes I feel like I’m a gently used submissive. Don’t get me wrong, I love how he makes [...]
Weekend Update
This holiday weekend was pretty good overall. Friday and Saturday were great. I could have traded Sunday in for something better. First Master and I got to really go at each other sexually and I was hungry for it all. I did a striptease and blow job for him in the living room which he [...]
Considering the Idea of a Third
Recently Master has been bringing up scenarios that involve another submissive in our relationship on a purely part time level. We have tossed around the idea for awhile and I know we will continue to bring up the idea of a third. A lot of times I think it would be fantastic to have a [...]
Protected: Letter to Master 6-1-08
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Feeling a Bit Off
I’m not really sure why I feel this way today. I’m 5 days into my vacation and I’m feeling stir crazy, easily edgy and not submissive at all. Master has about had it. I gave him one of those half assed blow jobs and I know he wants a decent one soon. I’ve been neglecting [...]
Cock Worship
Master has a beautiful cock. I love just looking at it. He is generally okay with my analysis when I like to stroke the veins, play with the triangular patch of skin of his ball sack until it wrinkles and I love watching it grow and move. I could spend hours transfixed at his crotch [...]
Serving to Serve vs. Serving for Pleasure
Serving to serve is one form of service I provide my Master. Somehow I’ve compartmentalized it from service for pleasure. It could just be my way of providing more service to him in different ways. An example of service to serve is when I’m not in the mood for a blow job but I know [...]
The Impact of Stopping the Supplements
If you’ve been reading my blog you know that I St John’s Wart has been keeping my moods in check and balancing out the lows and highs so that I’m happier longer and less stressed with situations that I can’t change. I stopped taking them about 3 weeks ago without telling Master. Since then there [...]
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