So, tomorrow Master comes home. I can’t wait. It’s been a long 3 days without him. Not that I’ve been bored. I’ve had a lot of Subguide work to keep me busy, far too much I think. I wanted to relax and enjoy my time, but I knew that I had to get my work done first. And I really never got it all done. It’s a game of finish one thing, and 2 more take its place.
I’ve watched a lot of TV, or rather, it’s been running in the background. I did stop everything to watch the series finale of Burn Notice. I’ve been a fan of Burn Notice since the beginning and it was a must to watch the end. I wasn’t let down. It was bittersweet and makes me want to start all over again from the beginning. I have the hots for Jeffrey Donovan that’s for sure. I could look at his face (and the rest of him) all day long.
I’ve done only the required chores. I had this fantasy that I would be getting some deep cleaning done, but Subguide is more of a priority so the deep cleaning didn’t happen. There is still a chance tomorrow morning before Master returns.
It’s amazing how lonely I’ve felt even though we are in constant contact. I’ve even cried once because I wish he were here. I know he’s having a wonderful time with froggyKM and I’m grateful for that. It’s just that we rarely are apart so it feels so very different when he’s not here.
I’ve fantasized a lot, things that we could add to our everyday to spice it up. Things that, right now, feel like I’m trying to establish an erotic novel here at home. And it’s not half bad. Master likes the ideas I’ve brought up to him – so I guess it’s on me to try and make them happen. I’m sure I’ll talk about them if and when they come to be here.
I’m feeling really guilty about the lack of diet and exercise push that I need so badly. The workout calendar on the fridge is practically empty. I now that he’s going to make me exercise if I can’t do it on my own volition. And I will hate it, but I know I need to be healthy, I know I’d like to lose weight, and I’d prefer to do it on my own time. But he’s given me so much time already; almost 5 years now. And I’ve not made any real progress other than to lose a lot of water weight when I went Gluten Free. Now that the Gluten Intolerance is known, I’m already healthier inside, I’ve got to make my body work harder to shape up the outside. I can do it. I’ve done it before. I just have to find the magic formula.
I can’t wait until I see Master again.