lunaKM
Training
Personal training and behavior modification.
Seeking Pleasure
The most common struggle discussed on this blog is my issue with blow jobs. I don’t really like to give blowjobs all the time. Sometimes I do, really, but most of the time I’m just not willing. I don’t like the taste of semen or the funk of ball sack. I won’t get into it [...]
Marketplace Service
I’ve been re-reading the Marketplace series. Reading it always makes me want to improve my submission for Master. He suggested I make a list of the things I’d like to work on. I haven’t done that yet, but I will. Some of the things on the list will be better voice training, a couple basic [...]
Such a Slut Sometimes
Yesterday after a rocky start to the day Master and I reconnected. We reconnected a lot! Heh. During one of our hot steamy reconnections my mind kept screaming thoughts to him, things I wanted him to do to me. For the most part I tend to keep these things silent. Besides, if he’s playing with [...]
Brush it Off
The past 3 days have gone by painfully. I’m in a funk that makes me hard to talk to, I’m snippy and grumpy, withdrawn and unapproachable. Today I’ve cried for no reason and Master has noted my gloomy mood on more than one occasion. I don’t know why I feel this way. I can’t pinpoint [...]
Made Up
I feel ugly. I’ve felt unhappy with myself for several months. It’s been about that long since I got my eyebrows waxed. Something about that always makes me feel pretty. I have crappy makeup supplies and even worse talent in applying it. I want to feel pretty again. Part of Master’s rules has always been [...]
Huh?
Master has been working on my word use; especially the word ‘huh’. When I can’t hear him I have the habit of saying ‘huh?’ It drives him mad so he’s started to punish me when I say it. So far it’s happened the once, but I know that it’s going to be a long road [...]
Hot and Cold
One foot is now warm, the other is cold. I finished my first hand knit sock yesterday and I’m still celebrating. So much so that I’ve not started the companion to make it a pair. I promise pictures when I get it done. It took me 3 days (only about 10 hours) to knit which [...]
Service Without Restrictions
One of the big things I’m to work on with our new start is my setting restrictions on my service. Most of these are in the form of ‘I don’t feel like it, or I don’t want to’ but I know I’m also likely to put things off and that restricts my service too. I [...]
Starting Fresh
I’m back from bidding goodbye to my step mother. Thank you so much for all the kind words and thoughts. I’m quite lost for words with all the outpouring of love from you all. Today Master and I started fresh with our relationship. We renegotiated what had been put on hold while I mourned for [...]
Way and Manner of Obedience
I’ve been reading the book Slavecraft by a grateful slave to do a review for Submissive Guide. It is a collection of essays written by one slave about his exploration in deeper submission and servitude. I’m finding myself growing as a submissive in my own relationship and feel that I could develop further just by [...]
Obstacles
Today I worked on some crafts. I made a couple duct tape floggers to sell. If you are interested in one, head on over to my shop. I have the mono colored one listed so far, but I’ll get the duo color one up sometime tomorrow. I’m also working on a duct tape slapper that [...]
Sunday Service: Topping
Sometimes Master likes me to give him pain when we play, especially when I’m jacking him off or something. I’ve mentioned it here before but I can’t be bothered looking in the archives. At first I was startled by this request, but I guess there is a bit of a masochist in Master after all. [...]
Serving Coffee
So, as I’ve mentioned before, one of the new changes in service has been my addition of announcing the food or item that Master has asked for when I bring it to him. The start of the service was basic coffee service. Master loves coffee and drinks quite a bit of it some days. It [...]
Service Progress
It’s been a month since I lost my job. I’ve been learning and growing as a stay-at-home submissive. The apartment is a lot cleaner than it ever was, but not as clean as I ultimately want to maintain it. I have worked to develop Submissive Guide and have plans for the future of it so [...]
Slave Training #7: Obedience I, first steps toward mindfulness
This lesson is about obedience. Reading the lesson there are a few exercises to do throughout the week. The one is to begin practicing mediation. Here’s the description: Sit comfortably with your spine straight. You may choose to sit in a chair or cross-legged on teh floor, as long as you can maintain the position [...]
Miss Abernathy’s Next Lesson
I’ve been poked about not doing the lessons anymore. I know I’ve not done a lesson in a month. I swear I’ll get back into them. If you are following along with me, I hope to do the next one this week sometime. Stay tuned! –luna
Come Swallowing Again
Yesterday was a crummy day. Master decided that yesterday was the day he’d tell me everything that he is frustrated about or things I’m failing on, etc. I really wish he’s not wait till all of it piles up and then I feel like shit and not worth the collar I’m wearing. No where does [...]
Slave Training Lesson #6: Expectations, The Contract
This lesson is all about writing a training contract between you and your trainer. Since I am doing this alone, the book suggests writing a plan of action or purpose statement. I don’t intend to make it fancy or anything. In fact, I have an idea for a basic one. I, lunaKM, pledge to carry [...]
Slave Training Lesson #5: Assessing Risk: Your Relationships, Work and Health
In this lesson I get to learn all about the risks I bring with me into the training program. These are all a part or growth and development. First, relationships… Rate your responses to the following statements. Use a scale of 1-10 where 1 means ‘never’ or ‘absolutely not’ and 10 means ‘always’ or most [...]
Saying No
Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]
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