Fry an Egg on the Sidewalk

We are in a heat wave. This must be what hell feels like, if there is a hell. The heat wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t so darned humid! The warning lasts till Thursday evening. Ugh. We’ve been trying to stay cool, but since we already live naked. Can’t take any more clothing off. It’s also hindering the sex. It’s just too hot or sex.

Master and I slept horribly last night. The cats were running all over and then at 6:30am they started meowing at me to get up and feed them. I kicked them out at 7:30am and then slept ’til almost 10am. That’s insane for me. Then I took a nap.

Oh, but I needed that nap after Master got the Hitachi out and forced 5 orgasms from me. The first 2 were fantastic, the last 3 were intense sensations and painful yet hot. Very hot. I love when Master does that to me, even if by the time he relents and gives me mercy I’m exhausted, pussy drenched and throbbing and body aching from all the thrashing, my throat sore from all the screams and moans. It was definitely worth the nap I took.

I went to the cafe today and got a lot of work done. I have a ton more to do (as always) but I feel good with what I’ve accomplished today. I had been worried about not getting enough done and now I think I just might be ahead by the end of the week. That’s good news since I can tackle the things Master wants me to finish before I get a new laptop. And I want that new laptop badly. (And a ereader or tablet, but that’s not in the deal… yet.)

Book of Days for week 7-18-11

Outside my window… It’s hot, so hot that at 9:45pm it still says it’s 90 degrees out. Ick.
my thoughts… are on sex. I want sex, lots of sex.
i am thankful for… Master’s hard work so that we can afford the things we want in life.
From my service training… I can officially take off the nightly dishwashing from my training list. I’ve done great at it
From the kitchen… Steak kebabs, Curry/Stir fry, Tacos, Chicken Parmesean, Pizza w/ low carb cheese crust
i am wearing… my wedding rings and nothing else!
i am creating… nothing is on my needles right now, but I plan to get 2 more knit squares done this week for my afghan.
my adventures this week… the social security office to get my name changed on my card!
Becoming well read… Well I finished the book I was reading for review on Submissive Guide and I haven’t picked out the next one yet.
i manifest and co-create… feeling healthy and happy in my low carb lifestyle changes
Todays Melody… The theme song to “That 70′s Show” I’ve been watching it way too much lately!
One of my favorite things… The Hickory Park sides list has dill pickle slices. I whole bowl of pickles! That is so much better than french fries
further plans for this week… pay the bills, work on more low carb week menus and make cheese crisps, green bean fries

Training for this Week:

Make up routine better
Brush my teeth more than 3 times a week.
Use Master’s title when asking him a question or addressing him every single time.
Sweep the bathroom floor every day (new)

–lunaKM

Book of Days for Week 2/28/11

Outside my window… it’s a sunny day belying the fact that it’s cold. The illusion of spring on a cool winter day.
my thoughts… are jumbled and inconsistent. Staying focused today is requiring the kitchen timer and a lot of self-discipline.
i am thankful for… paid up bills and a positive outlook on the future.
From my service training… I’m going to try very hard to rejuvenate my sexual initiative. Master would appreciate a bit of myself offering to him rather than he doing all the asking. It’s time to give.
From the kitchen… Monday: Breakfast for Dinner (eggs, sausage, bacon, baked beans, toast), Tuesday: Chilidogs, Wednesday: Spaghetti, Rest of week not planned yet.
i am wearing… jeans and a sweat shirt; just enough to go up and down the stairs to fetch laundry
i am creating… homemade bread today, been taking a break for any other crafts/sewing.
my adventures this week… munch on Saturday otherwise I’m homebound this week.
Becoming well read… Going to start reading “Erotic Surrender” and I’m flipping through 21st Century Kinkycrafts. I might have to make a few things I think.
i manifest and co-create… fitness. I want to work hard on my exercise levels this week and reaffirm that eating healthy doesn’t have to cost an arm and a leg.
Todays Melody… the radio is on, but I don’t know what song it is. I don’t recognize it. I like dancy tunes when I’m cleaning which I am doing today.
One of my favorite things… Pandora One. I’m so grateful for Master’s gift of a paid access to the internet radio. No ads and less interruptions. I use the radio A LOT!
further plans for this week… Make sure I’m not annoying Master by inactivity. I’m going to work on working according to schedule. I also want to make tortillas for the freezer.

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Book of Days: Week of 12/20/10

Outside my window… I’ve watched the hustle an bustle of cars all day outside my window. Everyone is in a rush to get the holiday started. It’s sad no one is taking the time to enjoy the moments.
my thoughts… are looking towards our elopement again. It was almost a silent moment since we postponed in October. Now I’m looking at dress ideas again and dreaming of the little chapel wedding we’ll have this summer.
Today’s Quote… “I heard the bells on Christmas Day; their old familiar carols play, and wild and sweet the word repeat of peace on earth, good-will to men!” – Henry Longfellow
i am thankful for… Alieve when my wrists are in a bad state like today and I insist on working anyway.
From my service training… continue to work my daily routine back into a semblance of order and get it all sorted on my Home Journal.
From the kitchen… Tuesday: Pizza, Wednesday: Spaghetti, Thursday: Chicken Fajitas, Friday: left overs, Saturday: Turkey and trimmings, Sunday: Christmas leftovers
i am wearing… Comfortable jeans and a pretty red bra
i am creating… my needles sit idle until my carpal tunnel flare up calms down.
my adventures this week… Christmas at Mom’s next Monday
Becoming well read… Problogger book: Secrets to blogging your way to a six-figure income, Conquer Me
i manifest and co-create… love and stress free days
Todays Melody… Christmas music on Pandora
One of my favorite things… my kitties bring me joy and comfort and I would hate to ever be without them.
further plans for this week… I’m always working on Submissive Guide, that doesn’t even have to be on the to do list anymore.

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Book of Days: Week 12/6/10

Outside my window… the sun is going down and streaking orange stripes on the store across the street.
my thoughts… are fuzzy. I’m not sleeping well and it’s impacting my days. Just got up from a failed attempt at a nap, where I just laid there waiting for sleep. So frustrating
Today’s Quote… If you can’t sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying. It’s the worry that gets you, not the lack of sleep. ~Dale Carnegie
i am thankful for… the new 50 Meg internet service. Master can play his games again and burn off some of that stress he’s had pent up for months.
From my service training… patience and memory focus, follow-through on to do list
From the kitchen… Use up the left overs and go to the store Wednesday. I’m going to make white chocolate dipped pretzels sometime this week too.
i am wearing… clothing. I plan to go out to work away from home later on.
i am creating… nothing this week if my carpal tunnel keeps up.
my adventures this week… I’m staying home and focusing on finding my 40 winks that I keep missing. Something is causing it…
Becoming well read… I’m still reading The Control Book by Peter Masters. I plan to have it done this week so that I can write a review on it for Submissive Guide.
i manifest and co-create… can I say restful sleep again? Anyone who has had insomnia probably knows what I’m going through.
Todays Melody… Christmas classics all day today
One of my favorite things… my new smart phone. It has so many bells and whistles that I’m quite entertained.
further plans for this week… figure out if I want to try to get a column at Fearless Press or not.

Book of Days: Week of 11/29/10

Outside my window… it’s dark and cold and rainy. Perfect fall evening for whatever goes on in the world. I’m all nice and warm inside reading and working.
my thoughts… are on the future or Submissive Guide today. I have dreams and plans, but not enough initiative to get where I need to…. yet.
Today’s Quote…
i am thankful for… the ability to tell Master whatever is bothering me, even if he’s heard it before, because I know he will take it sincerely.
From my service training… I ponder yet again that the domestic service that I provide is something that Master loves but what is next for my training? I sense a change coming soon.
From the kitchen… the smells of pot roast in the crock pot for tonight with simple fare planned for the rest of this week.
i am wearing… Jeans and a tee-shirt.
i am creating… an ebook for Submissive Guide that I hope people will find useful.
my adventures this week… Thursday I teach the college kinky students club how to make a braided cat out of duct tape and cotton clothesline. Saturday is the local munch where I will begin my liaison time with my first Board Members Meeting.
Becoming well read… The Control Book by Peter Masters and Kushiel’s Avatar by Jacqueline Carey
i manifest and co-create… trust in Master’s ability to manage the finances when all things seem dire and frustrating.
Todays Melody… Christmas radio; this morning on air, and now going over and over in my head. I can’t seem to shut it off.
One of my favorite things… Curling up in bed after a good fuck and knowing that I have it so good.
further plans for this week… work on a better refined schedule of my day and start following it. I have so much more I could be accomplishing.

Book of Days 11/15/10

I’ve been seeing this on Service Savoir Faire for quite some time now and I think I’m ready to start doing it here. I hope that I can keep it up. We’ll see! If I don’t at least you’ll get a glimpse into this week.

Outside my window… The sun is shining, creating the allusion that it’s warm out there. It’s not, fall chill has arrived with clear skies and temps that make snuggling under a blanket inviting.

My thoughts… Constantly on the state of our finances right now. I’m looking forward to easing that tension soon or I shall burst!

Today’s Quote… Arousal is a miracle… Don’t try to hide it. [It is] an unsolicited endorsement, a standing ovation, a spontaneous demonstration — Playboy

I am thankful for… Master’s warm embrace when I need comfort and his patient eyes on me when I just can’t make up my mind.

From my service training… Still working on having the kitchen clean at all times. I went to bed without doing the dishes and feel dreadfully bad about it.

From the kitchen… Monday: Pork Meatballs in gravy over mashed potatoes, Tuesday: Airman Anderson’s Chicken, Wednesday: Beef Stew, Thursday: Pork chops, Friday: don’t know yet.

I am wearing… my birthday suit, it’s my favorite way to go about the day. Although I’d like an apron. I may have to work on that.

I am creating… afghan squares on the knitting needles, continuously moving towards my goal of a bedspread and Turkey Notes (a family tradition of writing rhymes and jokes and wrapping them Christmas Cracker style for everyone to read before the big dinner) to mail to Mom’s house.

My adventures this week… I’m off to my alma mater on Thursday to give the BDSM panel discussion to the Human Sexuality class. This is my 9th semester doing it and I love it. I’m bringing 6 other people with me this time.

Becoming well read… Kushiel’s Chosen by Jacqueline Carey and The Control Book by Peter Masters

I manifest and co-create… confidence, strength and compassion

Todays Melody… Dynamite – Taio Cruz sung acapella by Mike Tomkins [watch video on YouTube]

One of my favorite things… planning an intimate Thanksgiving with Master and I

Further plans for the week… Homemade Stuffing attempt yesterday was pitiful. It was too wet, the onions and celery were still to crunchy for my preference and didn’t brown on top. I’m going to keep researching recipes and finding one that I want to try again.

I love your site and read up on things often. You seem very knowledgable and I hope you can help me. I'm in a M/s relationship but do not have a collar yet. Can you describe what a collaring ceremony consists of? i'm a bit nervous about it.

A collaring ceremony doesn’t have a set script. You can google collaring ceremonies and get a wide range of variations. A typical ceremony isn’t that different from a wedding. You declare your intention to be committed to each other, you read and/or sign a contract, and you exchange a collar. Some people have a celebratory play party or a ritualistic scene that only the couple participate in.

Collaring ceremonies aren’t required. Master and I didn’t have one. He just wrapped the collar around my neck and said I was his. It was just as momentous and special.

Ask me Anything!

You only seem to want to submit in the bedroom. Other things are pushed aside with excuses of back aches, cramps and other such (according to your blog). why aren't your Master's wishes important enough to warrant follow through on your part?

First I’d like to say, I know I’m not perfect. I am not just a bedroom submissive. If all you have to go on is what I say on my blog you have to realize you are only getting whatever glimpse I feel like talking about. The main reason this blog exists is so that I can air my struggles and conflicts with my submission and our relationship. You aren’t getting the whole picture.

I’m not good at talking about the good things that happen, so they aren’t really part of my blog. I do try to write about them but hey, if it ain’t broke I don’t talk about it.

Now, on to the question. I’m a terrible bedroom submissive. You read my blog so you know that the bulk of my issues are actually sex-related. I do A LOT better outside the bedroom and serving Master in a day to day sort of way. Master’s wishes are important to me and I do fulfill them the majority of the time. Yes I have excuses and most of the time they are valid reasons I can’t do something. I struggle with my health and because of that I have a lot of bad days. I have carpal tunnel that gets in the way of hand jobs all the time. I have a bad back which makes it hard to do things sometimes and as I’ve written about for the past 6 years on this blog, I have an aversion to the taste of come so while I am working on that one; it gets in the way. And still, Master works with these restrictions and takes care of me. My health is really important to him and I’m honest with him in my struggles. We have a scale that he asks me about my pain levels and we work within that.

I’ve never said I was perfect. I don’t compare myself with others. I’m very much a learned submissive but my heart craves and needs to serve. I’m getting better every day. Hopefully I’ll be able to express that better in my blog.

Ask me anything

Do you choose not to answer some questions you are asked? If so, why do you make that choice.

I do choose not to answer some questions. If they are blatantly sexual I tend to skip them. If they are confrontational or asking questions I feel are inappropriate or not for public consumption I don’t answer those either.
Honestly though, I’m mostly an open book. Master has the rule that personal sexual things (do I like to give rim jobs, for example) are just not necessary to share since he owns my sexuality but I can answer questions about general sexuality.

Ask me Anything!

Phat Submission

Here we are on a Monday where I might actually do a Mediation Monday. It’s been a long time so here’s what normally happens. I talk about something about my dynamic or relationship that might be interesting to others. I do try to get questions from people for these, but I’m going to have to wing it this week

I got up on time today but with a killer migraine. I’m still living with it right now, but it’s not nearly as bad as it was. I got all of my household chores done by noon and went off to the store. I really need to learn not to go hungry because everything looked so darn good! I stuck to my list though… mostly.

Part of my new service has been finding greener ways to live, and the first thing I did was buy the reusable bags for groceries. I feel so much better using those and by gosh I use half the number of bags this way! They are huge enough for 8 liters of water and more items on top! I just feel good about using them and can’t explain it. Now that I have that going for me I’m working on recycling. Milk jugs first since that’s easy and then perhaps I’ll do tin cans. They require some prep work before I can return those, but I think I can do it. Milk jugs was the big thing right now. I’ll turn in what I have this week sometime.

I have a roast in the oven, usually I roast something on Sunday, but we had a lazy day and had fast food. So, mmm, roast. I’m going to try turnips today for the first time ever in my mashed potatoes. If I like them I also read that I can make them in the roasted veggies I like (zucchini, yellow squash, peppers, onions, potatoes). I’m tempted to try parsnips next. Master already has informed me he doesn’t like turnips, parsnips or swede (rutabaga) so I’ll be eating these on my own if I find I like them.

Now on to Meditation Monday!

I thought I’d talk about my size today and how we’ve adjusted how it impacts my life with Master. If you haven’t figured out from the picture up top, and I know it’s hard to guess, I am morbidly obese. This means I am well over 100 lbs over the suggested weight I should be for my height. In fact I’m closer to 150 lbs overweight. I don’t want to stay this way forever, but until I can really go crazy with life changes and exercise I’m having to adjust my life as it is. I’ve always been fat. That’s not going to change.

So, one of the things that I’d love to do more of, but am limited is kneeling, sitting on the floor and crawling. All of these things hurt in different ways. I can kneel up for about 5 mins, but I can’t rest back on my heels, there’s just too much in the way. I can be on all fours for quite awhile though if I have support under my belly. I sit on the floor occasionally. We planned for weekly but that’s not a habit yet. I have a pillow or two that I sit on, but the pressure of my belly apron on my upper thighs (and the veins there) cause my legs to go to sleep. That’s just not comfortable. Master lets me shift and move when I need to though. Crawling is killer for me knees on the hard floors, but I can do it for awhile on carpets. He hasn’t really asked me to do this ever, but I have done it myself to tease him seductively!

Other things I’ve had to deal with are fetish clothing I can’t wear, the amount of rope has to use for anything decorative on me and shaving problems.

That’s right I said shaving problems. If you aren’t a little bit overweight you wouldn’t really now, but I’ve not seen my pussy directly in over 10 years. To shave is more a feel and scrape approach. It’s not perfect, I cut myself a lot and all those recommended methods that show up on submissive forums all the time, just don’t work. I can’t see what I’m doing! Oh well. Master can and he loves it just fine. I must do a decent job then.

–luna

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lunaKM

A Slut-Wife Submissive Learning Domestic Slavehood

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