Wow I haven’t been here in awhile. Apparently when something becomes not a rule anymore I subconsciously decide to just never think about it. I enjoy blogging, I really do. I do a lot of it on other sites out there almost every day. But here is my internal monologue. Here I have to face demons, and disappointments. I reflect on myself and rarely do I let myself see the good things going on in my life.
And there is a lot of good going on. I don’t think I have to constantly say that I am madly in love with KnyghtMare and that he makes me the happiest person I’ve ever been. I feel safe, secure and loved when he’s around me. And the attention I get from him tells me, more than his words, that he’s still into me too.
The mandated exercise (micromanaged) is working. I hate it, but I do it. I will know on Wednesday if it’s made a difference in the scale, but that’s not just it. I know I’m feeling more energy and less tired on the days I don’t exercise. I know my body will adjust to the fact I’m moving more and I’ll be less tired all around.
And then maybe, just maybe I’ll go down a size in clothing. It’s a huge jump… 6 inches in my waist and 6 in my hips to get to the next size down since I’m at the top edge of the current size. I dream of reaching that by the end of the year. So I don’t have a defined weight goal right now, I have a dress size goal. Reach a 28W by the end of the year. God that would be great.
I’ve asked for an Elliptical machine for my birthday. I couldn’t think of anything else I wanted,but if I could pick one machine from the gym that I enjoyed using and would actually use it was an Elliptical. They aren’t cheap. Ones for my weight bracket that won’t break in a year are over $500 and closer to $1000. But he said yes if we can find one on sale or a second hand one that can deliver it to us.
Master and froggyKM got matching tattoos this weekend. They got the kanji for Obey. Master got it on his right shoulder and froggyKM got an anklet with swirls and the kanji in front. They are both really nice. I might share a picture if they let me.
Well that’s it for now. Thanks for listening.