Yet again today Master mentioned that he’d like me to be in better spirits and that my frowns and moping around has to have a cause. I laid down in bed for a bit to try to figure out what could be causing it because I didn’t have anything that I considered depression worthy.
And then it hit me. Gluten Intolerance has shaken my whole world. I’m finally facing a silent enemy and it’s taking away an emotional friend that has been with me for years. Many of you may recall that I’ve had problems with bingeing and emotional eating. And now, because of a disease I have to say goodbye to some very delicious friends.
When I talked with Master about it I couldn’t help myself and I broke down and cried. We’d gotten to the heart of the matter. He assures me that he’ll stick with me (not that I doubted him) but also that I’ll get through this and adjust. I think he’s glad to finally have answers.
Even if that doesn’t mean an immediate end to my depression. At least it doesn’t feel very deep – it’s just jarring. You don’t think about eating really and it’s not important when it comes down to it, but then you can’t eat a lot of what you love any more it becomes something you have to think about all the time. Each and every time you eat you have to check labels, read ingredients and decide if it’s something your body will accept or reject.
It’s a hard road.
On happier news, Mischief in May is only 2 weeks away! I’m really looking forward to it. There are over 100 people registered and everything is all set for a fantastic time. froggy will be there too! It feels so good when we are all together. I love it. She has a sexy fetish outfit picked out and my dress that I ordered arrived today. It’s not fetish at all, but it will be a wonderful comfortable convertible dress. Now to find shoes.