Monthly Archives: January 2012

Bliss

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Master and I are in a happy place right now. I’ve been connecting with my sexuality and showing him how much I want him. I’m flirty and lusty and he is gobbling it up! He and I have been smiling at each other a lot – it feels so good! I love knowing that I am pleasing him and the D/s is coming easier right now. Times like these are when I really get into my happy space and the submissive mindset gets going strong.

Master bought me my new laptop today and so I’m sitting here with my great big screen (17″) where I was using my netbook (10″) and it feels gigantic! I’m so thrilled and I’m making it mine by adding the software I want and someday I might get a laptop skin and personalize it somehow.  I told Master that it means I’ll be more productive for writing and god I hope so.

My back has been twinging lately so I’m sitting with a heating pad hoping that the muscles relax. I took some pain pills earlier and that seemed to help only a little. I’m just hoping I can prevent the incapacitated me and just live with a slower me for awhile. Master is taking good care of me.

We tried a new to us Indian restaurant in town and it was really good. Master kept saying how authentic the food was. I know we will be going back there often. I want to try as many things on the menu as I can.

Well, that’s about all I have to say today. I’m off to play Skyrim!

–lunaKM

A Bunch of Everything

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unexpectedbox-danaeIt’s getting near the end of the month and the only slutty stat that remains at 0 is anal sex. My ass is so unpredictable. I hope we can remedy that soon!

It also looks a little lopsided as far as orgasms are concerned but Master likes to remind me that on New Year’s Eve I had 8. Heh. I’m sure I’ll even out sooner or later. Most likely later. He tried to give me one this morning and I just wasn’t escalating so I let him know. No sense trying hard and nothing happening. He had fun though :)

This is the second week without a weigh in. I’m going to have to weigh the next time we go to the gym because we aren’t doing well about going on Wednesdays. I’d like to see a loss, that’s for sure.

Master mentioned missing bread in the house, since it was easy to grab and eat – but he has told me not to get any when I asked him. I guess we’ll have to figure out better snacks than what I currently have around.

I’m going to be on a Dom/sub/switch panel tomorrow for the university BDSM group. I’m not really sure how it will work, but I know it’s more of a definition and what does it entail sort of meeting. Should be interesting at least somewhat.

I’ve started re-reading “Different Loving” for the Submissive Guide book club. I forgot how clinical it reads. Kinda dry and I have to keep putting it down or I’m not going to be able to think critically and come up with discussion for it. It shouldn’t take me more than a day or two more to get through the first section.

Remember that 3 second rule that I’m supposed to have (wait 3 seconds to speak so that I don’t interrupt Master). Yeah, not doing so well. Master has escalated his warnings from a gentle reminder to a stern “3 seconds”! Next I imagine will be swats or spanks or something. I really got to get it in my head.  I don’t remember nearly as often as I should. Bad habits are so hard to break!

–lunaKM

More of the Same

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Today was so very productive! I got up on time and instead of sitting on my ass until Master went to work at 11am I started my housework at 9am. That’s the time I have scheduled to start my housework. I got it all done by 11:30!

Then I started in on my other to-do list that isn’t housework related. It’s more a general list of things I plan to get done. I’ve been able to get part of that done today too!

Oh and I lured Master into sex for his break and we went to the gym tonight. This is officially a pat on the back. Go me.

Now, as far as the gym is concerned I started whining and complaining about having to go at dinner time and didn’t stop once we got there! Master says I need a more positive outlook on it – that with exercise means less snoring which means, in turn, that we will be sleeping in the same bed again soon.

I waffle between being a pessimist and being an optimist. I guess I can never decide which side I want to be on for sure. At least if I made up my mind I’d be more predictable. But whatever.

Master has been planning out how we are going to spend this next paycheck when it arrives this week. Usually he doesn’t do that. Of course, the only thing he’s concentrating on are the bigger ticket things we’ve been wanting. I’ll worry about bills when it comes time for that.

I’m really looking forward to getting my new laptop. I’ve been shopping online trying to pick one out that I like. I’ve decided I definitely want to customize it with a cover or a cool color or both. It will be the first full sized laptop that wasn’t a second hand model. Perhaps that’s why it feels so special to me.

–lunaKM

 

G-Spot

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So I opened up my blog editor for today and mentioned to Master that I didn’t have a topic in mind and he says, “talk about the awesome sex you had yesterday.” Well sure I could talk about the sex but there’s one flaw in that. I’m terrible at the play by play remembrances. I can remember bits of it, but never in the right order. It was the experience that I love. And Master always leave my mind in a daze which doesn’t help with the memory recall!

What I can say is that Master has been working to get me to g-spot orgasm. He knows where my g-spot it and boy does it feel fantastic when he rubs and taps it just right but I don’t know how to go over that edge that I reach. Yesterday I just stayed there, right in that damn it’s good but never getting any further. At one point it felt like my pussy was swelling and that if he kept doing that it would swell shut! That’s the best way I can explain it.  We’ll keep working on it because I would like to know what it feels like to orgasm that way.

I love finger fucking, there’s just something about it that makes it so different from a dick and something I enjoy and could relax and take instead of fucking for sure. How’s that for a size queen? I’m okay with fingers? Heh.

When it comes to sex I’m not a soft and gentle kind of girl. I love it really hard and rough. Thankfully so does Master. He’s been “threatening” me with a pounding ever since we started going back to the gym and he delivered yesterday. My pussy just quivers thinking about it.

–lunaKM

Love

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I’ve been nostalgic today. I read through the old emails that I kept from Master when we were an online only couple and he was planning on moving over here.

I listened to love songs while working on Subguide work and feel my heart swell each time he smiles at me.

I’m so in love!

I’ve really enjoyed today. Not sure if it was the low level of chores I did or the fact that I got a lot done with writing done. Doesn’t matter though. I like when I’m in a good mood.

I am however, quite tired. I’ve not been sleeping well at all – restless and waking a lot. I don’t think I’m getting sufficient deep sleep. Master has noted that my snoring isn’t as bad all the time which I attribute to the exercise I’m getting.

Master is still playing a lot of Skyrim and I’m enjoying watching him. I kinda hate that I’m having problems understanding the controls so that my fighting isn’t as panicked as it is. Ah well.

Well, I’m really out of words right now. I guess I’ll call it done.

–lunaKM

Watching Skyrim

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Just got back from the gym. I looked forward to it today. My back hurt while walking the treadmill but I managed it just fine.

I’m hoping for another recorded loss on Wednesday when I weigh in again.  I have a lot of hopes that I’ll finally start losing weight. Master and I haven’t slept in the same bed because of my snoring for over a year. It’s lonely at night and I miss him. He misses me too.

It’s a long road until we are in the same bed but every pound lost helps me one step closer to Master’s bed.

I had blood drawn today for another thyroid test to see how the increase in medication is doing. I hope there is some change as I have noticed a decrease in my need to nap.

Master has been playing  a lot of Skyrim and I love watching him play. I’m terrible at coordinating combat so my game isn’t as fun to watch. I fumble and die a lot. I’ve always enjoyed watching others play games anyhow.

I had a bit of fun tonight tying Master up and getting him off. I love that he’s so kinky! *giggles* I like to tie his hands away so that he can’t touch himself (or push me away) and then have my fun teasing his cock till he’s struggling and moaning. If you are a guy and have never given yourself an orgasm with a Hitachi wand I strongly suggest it! It is so much fun!

–lunaKM

Sexy, Me? Move Along

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I mentioned to Master the other day that I was happy that the scale showed a loss for last week. He said he was happy too because I was at the highest weight that he can be attracted to. He’s told me before that if I gain any more that I’ll be moving out of the range that he enjoys and into just being fat. I know that it’s a limit but hearing it has reminding me just how disgusting I am.

I’m at his limit. Any more and he won’t like what he sees. I already have issues in the mirror but looking at me and expecting to be excited I guess is something else.

Sex has always been an important thing in our relationship. It’s how we communicate sometimes. It’s definitely how we have fun.

And it isn’t happening. I brought up to Master that I felt frustrated that he would come to me in the morning and “remind” me that he wanted sex today. So he stopped all interaction with me at all unless it had to do with food, coffee or to ask a question. Sure he’ll come out to the living room and sit with me, but talk is minimal. It’s all to show me how he has to live – waiting for me to feel interested in sex enough to approach him. And then when I do he acts just as I do, mediocre. I get it, I really do. I’m not showing him that I want him and desire him.

It makes for trying to express our passion like pulling teeth. I woke up today feeling miserable about the whole thing; that if we could just reconnect and have sex that we could start getting back to where we need to be to actually work on the problem instead of being negative. I’ve asked Master several time if he’s interested in sex, and that sex would cheer me up. He says yeah but looks at me like, “why would I want to fuck you?”

I know it’s because I’m depressed and mopey – but I keep hearing it as, “why would I want to fuck YOU?” as if I’m unattractive and distasteful. He stopped me last time I brought his coffee and said he wasn’t against having sex.

“You have a funny way of showing it.”

“Well look at you?!” (meaning – look at your all depressed and moping around)

I am looking, and that’s why I feel like shit. I just need to be shown I’m not shit. That even if I don’t act excited when he asks me for sex that I really do want to reconnect. This sucks.

I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t feel sexy and he wants me to look like I want to have sex when I ask or he brings it up.

Fuck, it’s my problem. I just need to get over this guilt trip and do something about it. I need to cheer up, look him in the eye and then suck his dick. That might make it better.

–lunaKM

EDIT: I just want everyone to know that the way I talk on this blog sometimes makes KM come off as an ass. He really isn’t! I swear!

Down 2

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I’m pooped. I just got back from the gym and did a good 30 minutes on the treadmill. The good news is that I was down 2 lbs. Who knows what I’ll be next week since I’ll be on my period but hey, 2 lbs is 2 lbs.

I’m feeling great about getting all my housework done :)

Other than that I really don’t have much to say.

–lunaKM

Not Feeling It

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Master is feeling under the weather today. He’s struggling with work and staying awake today. I feel for him and wish I could help him but he’s not needing anything from me yet. He’s laying abed right now.

He made me go to the gym without him. It was hard with my knees and I’m exhausted. Master said that I should try counting down the trips to the gym because each one puts me closer to sleeping in the same bed with him again. I’m looking forward to that so much.

Today I went to the store and bought the supplies I need to try to bake low carb. I’m making some chocolate chip muffins tomorrow. I made the chocolate chips tonight and they are freezing to set. I hope they taste good, I really do. Baked goods are the one thing that I’d desperately want when the sugar is purged from my system.

Another thing I was afraid of was  all the eggs I’d be eating if I didn’t make some muffins or pancakes. I’m even planning a stuffing on Sunday!

Blah, I don’t really feel like blogging tonight. It feels forced.

Good news though – I had my first orgasm of the year last night! Yay!

–lunaKM

Busy Energy

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KnitSexy thoughts at the start of the new year! Check out the slutty stats in the sidebar. We’ve been busy and it’s only the 6th . I can hope that it will continue to be just as much fun but we all know that there are lulls in any relationship. Let’s just keep them from coming on too fast!

I’m having a great time with Master and letting myself relax into being horny. For those of you who think that I should always be horny, well, I’m not so lucky. Ever since I stopped masturbating at all hours I’ve been hard pressed to feel horny. And I don’t even crave masturbation any more.

And really, it has nothing to do with my overall sexual health because I can get turned on just as soon as sexual activity starts, but if I’m the one that has to approach him when I’m horny then it may take a long time before that happens. I don’t know why it’s working that way. Frustrating to say the least.

Moving on, I have to have a follow up blood test for my thyroid and it’s going to cost $98! So, I have to save for it. I need it before my Dr appointment in February so that we have something to talk about. I’m also interested in knowing what my number is since I’ve had to nap less with the increased meds. While my mood, attention span and energy haven’t really gotten better the less napping is a good sign.

Not a whole lot of direct training is going on right now, but I think Master is letting me settle into a cleaning routine before he mixes it up. Or perhaps he’s content with my level of training right now. Doesn’t matter to me. I’m hoping to be in charge of my goals and push through with what I want to work on for awhile.

What am I working on? Cleaning, personal maintenance and increasing the number of hours I work on Submissive Guide. How am I doing? It’s too early to say for sure but the Submissive Guide work need a major increase yet.

–lunaKM

Around the Track

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Master and I finally made it to the gym after 2 false starts. We pay for a gym membership and we sure should be using it. Both of us got 30 minutes of cardio down and it felt good. Of course you look at us now and we are vegging out on the sofa resting our sore asses. Ha!

I also received some new cookbooks in the mail. I bought 2 of George Stella’s Low Carb cookbo0ks. I’m reading through them and going to mark which ones I want to try. So far a lot of them sound yummy.

Master isn’t going as low carb as I am, he’ll be eating instant rice and potatoes with his dinners. He still welcomes the healthy food changes though.

The pantry will slowly turn over to a lower carb pantry and we’ve already stopped buying/making bread. I’ve not purchased a potato in just as long.  I’ll use up the rice (except instant for Master). The fridge will start to be more full of fresh foods. I’m not sure if that means I’ll have to shop more than once a week. Whatever that means I’ll be healthier and I hope that I’ll start shrinking too.

The housework has been getting done which is a good thing and Master is very appreciative. I feel good that I’ve been doing it and I love looking around and not feeling depressed because I have stuff to do.  Domestic work is never done.

–lunaKM

Kick Start Me

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Joey NiceMaster is doing everything he can to tease me today. He’s flashing and wigging his hot bottom at me every single chance he gets. I’d be interested if I didn’t have a headache from hell.

Before the headache though I was able to get all my chores done and planned to get some writing done. I took a nap and then…. woke up with the headache. I’m so tired of feeling icky all the time.

When I go to the store this week I’ll be buying more low carb related foods so that we both can eat healthier. I, of course, have to really watch myself because I crave carbs when I’m depressed or tired.

I changed the title of my blog to lunaKM. I was getting several emails for advice on how to get their wives to be sluts and fuck other guys and whatnot – something I don’t have experience with. While I don’t mind giving advice, I prefer to stick to topics I know something about. Hopefully this helps cut that down.

If you check out the sidebar on my blog I added a few new stats areas. One is for my goal to be more sexually active so I’m counting all of the fun we’ll have this year. The other one is for being healthier so I have my stats and whatnot there as well. I’ll do my best to keep them up to date as best as I can. Should be an interesting experiment.

–lunaKM