lunaKM

A Slut-Wife Submissive Learning Domestic Slavehood

Yearly Archives: 2012

Lots to Do

I’ve been on a lot of errands lately with hardly any time to rest. I almost forgot to blog today which would have been a disaster since I’m supposed to. Can’t forget the rules!

The other day I got a mani/pedi and loved the attention. I also go my eyebrows waxed in preparation for the event this weekend. I need to shave really well yet on Friday and Master has requested that I curl my hair with my hot rollers on Saturday.

I’m so excited for the event, there is so much I enjoy about these things from the people and the costumes/ fetish wear to the presentations and the play. It just feels so adrenaline-pumping good fun.

Master just came up to me while I was writing and waved his cock in my face so we had a good fuck over the edge of the couch and I had a great moaning good time. I love it when spur of the moment fun happens. *grin*

Tomorrow I have a lot of preparation work to do and packing. I’m going to try my best to stay home tomorrow so that I can get that stuff done.

–lunaKM

Got in Trouble

Have you missed me?

I got in trouble. I let the house get really messy and Master had had enough. I’m lax in my cleaning and it’s a primary duty of mine. I hate cleaning but it was something I agreed to do when he pulled me from the workforce so I had to keep up my end of the bargin.

I didn’t so he took away all of my computers. I had my phone but that’s so limited. I didn’t get the computer back for a week. It was painful but I cleaned and cleaned and worked hard to get the house back to a maintainable level. It was that bad.

I’m getting better now, and if I slip up I know what I’m going to lose. It was hard since so much of what I do is online.

We are preparing to go to a BDSM convention this weekend, the three of us, froggy, Master and I. It will be a fun time and I can’t wait!

–lunaKM

Go see the Avengers!

Slowly digging myself out of the funk I’m in. Last night Master and I went to a 1am showing of The Avengers. It was awesome and we got home about 4am. Then we went back for a 2nd showing at 2:15pm! Heh. It is a great movie. We rarely go see it twice while it’s in the theatre but this was well worth it. OMG.

I’m quite tired now though from the late night.

Tomorrow is the munch. I’m leading the short topic on traveling with toys and then there is a medical play presentation. It should be a good day.

I promise there will be more to my life next week when I dust myself off and get back to myself.

–lunaKM

Getting Down to the Heart of the Matter

Yet again today Master mentioned that he’d like me to be in better spirits and that my frowns and moping around has to have a cause. I laid down in bed for a bit to try to figure out what could be causing it because I didn’t have anything that I considered depression worthy.

And then it hit me. Gluten Intolerance has shaken my whole world. I’m finally facing a silent enemy and it’s taking away an emotional friend that has been with me for years. Many of you may recall that I’ve had problems with bingeing and emotional eating. And now, because of a disease I have to say goodbye to some very delicious friends.

When I talked with Master about it I couldn’t help myself and I broke down and cried. We’d gotten to the heart of the matter. He assures me that he’ll stick with me (not that I doubted him) but also that I’ll get through this and adjust. I think he’s glad to finally have answers.

Even if that doesn’t mean an immediate end to my depression. At least it doesn’t feel very deep – it’s just jarring. You don’t think about eating really and it’s not important when it comes down to it, but then you can’t eat a lot of what you love any more it becomes something you have to think about all the time. Each and every time you eat you have to check labels, read ingredients and decide if it’s something your body will accept or reject.

It’s a  hard road.

On happier news, Mischief in May is only 2 weeks away! I’m really looking forward to it. There are over 100 people registered and everything is all set for a fantastic time. froggy will be there too! It feels so good when we are all together. I love it. She has a sexy fetish outfit picked out and my dress that I ordered arrived today. It’s not fetish at all, but it will be a wonderful comfortable convertible dress. Now to find shoes.

–lunaKM

Apathy

I guess I’m pretty apathetic lately. Master has been concerned with my disinterest with things and I can’t think of why. I mean I am spending a lot of time reading about gluten intolerance so that I can be more informed and what I’m reading is starting to sink in that I’m having to make a huge change.

It’s overwhelming.

My mood lifted a bit in the evening but I felt a huge sense of fatigue so I’m going to have to try to sleep in later tomorrow morning.

–lunaKM

Famous Dave’s Glutened Me

Master and I were out all of the afternoon and evening. Thursday we bought a Verizon mobile hotspot plan and since we don’t have 4G here yet (this summer they are saying) we drove to our other frequent haunt and tested it out there. Master says the speeds are great so he’s quite happy with the little gadget.

For dinner we met some friends, Kiva and Sissy Rachelle for dinner at Famous Daves. They have a very tiny gluten-free menu but can’t guarantee cross contamination since nothing is dedicated. Well I stuck with that menu but this morning I’m suffering. Something I ate had too much gluten in it for my newly adjusting body to handle. I’m guessing it was the cole slaw – listed on the menu but often in other places it has emulsifiers in it that are wheat based. I mentioned that I was surprised it was listed – I should have stuck with my gut instinct and skipped it.

This morning I spent some time looking at restaurant sites that are nearby so that I can be more educated. One of the restaurants that we’ve been to, that Master isn’t a huge fan of but will go has a giant menu and dedicated grill/fryers for gluten menu.

I even found a pizza place in the city we were in last night that makes a gluten free pizza. I just might have to try it.

It’s not that Master and I eat out a lot, because we don’t, but when we do I’d like to be able to enjoy the day after with Master and not the nearest bathroom. Ya know?

Today, in just a few minutes Master’s other girl will be here for play and socializing. She wants to go to subspace this time which is something I tend to avoid. I don’t expect that it will be a fast play session and I’ll be out somewhere for awhile. Thankfully I have a ton of work to do!

I’m off, have a great weekend!

–lunaKM

Seven Things I’ve Learned about Submission from Dominants

This post is for the Submissive Guide Blog Hop. You can participate too!

7 Things You Have Learned From A Dominant About Submission

Can you think of 7 things you have learned about your submission or submission in general from a Dominant? Why is it important to look to Dominants for insights on ourselves? What makes learning from them different than learning from other submissives?

When I started learning about submission the people who I found first were Dominants. They wanted to talk about D/s or sex or things related to BDSM. Finding submissives to talk to was actually difficult. Listing seven things that I’ve learned from Dominants about my submission or submission in general might be easier if I think back to those first few cautious months.

Learning from Dominants about submission is valuable because they aren’t clouded with beliefs and opinions about their personal submission. They see what you may not be seeing because they are looking at you from the outside.

1. Complete submission is a rare thing. No one can be in complete service all the time. There are life issues and stress that cloud our judgement and can derail our submission. When we are on we are really on though so watch out!

2. Submission in the wrong hands can leave the submissive damaged and broken. I’ve seen this on only in my real life experiences but online as well. We are vulnerable as human beings and allowing someone so deeply into our lives and being mistreated can do tremendous damage.

3. The expectations of my service can change on any given day not just with different Dominants. Master can change his mind, he can demand more of me one day and less on another. It’s his whim I have to adjust to – not mine.

4. What I consider submission others may consider slavery and vise-versa. I’ve talked about how I don’t connect with the label ‘slave’ but that others consider me a slave. It’s that difference of opinion that makes us so wonderful and accepting of variations of submission.

5. I choose to submit every single day; it’s not a natural personality trait. That choice brings about so much joy in my life that it’s not even a question of if I will choose to submit that day but how.

6. Submissives have every ability to be leaders, mentors and persons of great respect. Dominants feel pride in their property. I am a leader in the community and hold great respect from those who know me. Master has admitted to feeling pride for his submissive because of that.

7. My submission is unique but I can still share my story, knowing that it has common threads with other submissives. I once thought that because there are so many submissives out there who would really want to hear my story. After 8 years of blogging I think I’ve proven to myself over and over again that people want to follow my life and progression in service.

Pride in the Pain

This weekend was a good one. Friday I asked Master if we could play; it had been such a long time. I told him what I was seeking as far as goals for play and he happily accepted the challenge.

We used the new breast vice, I asked for marks and to use a blindfold during the session. I took a lot of delicious pain. It was one of the best play sessions we have ever had.

I’m still dropping a bit from it. Today I asked Master for a little pick me up spanking to help me recover a bit. It did help and I was very happy to be able to connect what I needed with what I was feeling.

Master and froggy are connecting even stronger. I feel a sense of pride in Master, knowing that he is helping another submissive correct her happiness and joy in serving. I feel a connection with froggy as well. It is good for us that she is in our lives.

Master helped me pick out a new purse yesterday. I’m quite happy with it. I’m more happy with the time with Master that I get when it’s not spontaneous just hanging around the house. We went out to lunch too and I think he would have gone to a movie too if there was one we wanted to see.

I have a lot to try and accomplish this week. A lot of writing and research and preparation. I also hope to get some housework done. I have the submissive forum on Wednesday and froggy is coming up this weekend.

–lunaKM

Good Times

Wednesday was a busy day for us. We got up early and drove to Iowa City to see froggy. Master had a lot of new toys he wanted to try out that are things I can’t handle. It was also meant to be an intense play session for them. The drive is always the hardest part – it’s 2.5 hours each way.

While they were playing I was at Panera getting a lot of Submissive Guide and CIPEX work done. I’m pretty proud of all the work I accomplished actually. When Master called to ask if I wanted dinner, and why wouldn’t I, they came to pick me up and we went to a steakhouse.

The conversation was great the whole time. froggy asked me questions about how I feel about their relationship and what’s going on and I alleviated a lot of her fears I think. I’m really okay with it. The limits that I have asked Master to abide by are being respected and that makes me feel good about their relationship. I also know that Master considers me priority number one so if I had a problem he’d respect the relationship we have and not overstep boundaries.

He’s so wonderful about that. We both never considered that a poly sort of relationship would develop but while it has conditions to it, there is no doubt that Master has an intimate connection with froggy and I enjoy being around her.

Now, on to my diet change, which has been very positive. I’m not fighting it as hard as I thought I would and I know that cravings will get me but I will have to overcome them. My digestive system hasn’t been this quiet and normal in years and I’m so thankful for that.  It’s been a full week of no wheat products. I have to keep going because now I have no choice – I know it’s making me feel better. The low carb diet has been adjusted to allow some other carbs like occasional potatoes and rice since pasta, bread and wheat gluten products are no longer an option.

Thankfully the explosion of gluten free living as a fad diet has provided a lot of foods that I can explore like brown rice pasta, gluten free baking mix for pancakes, waffles, cakes and more and so many other things. I don’t see them as being staples to my diet any more than bread was in my low carb diet but they will be nice treats.

I’m making Master banana bread today. He loves the stuff. I’m okay with it and now well, it’s just for him :)

Things are going well on the sex front and we are planning to play tonight! There might even finally be some anal sex. I can’t wait!