You know…. sometimes I wonder how seasonal depression sets in. Is it an amount of stress that makes it come to head? Or is it just the weather and the gloomy days instead of bright sunshine? I don’t know but I think I have it. And it sucks.
I did have a nicer day though in that Master let me go work outside of home for a few hours. I just feel rejuvenated when I do that. Master wants me to learn to work from home and I agree, but just once a week I love to be out and about. It’s a connection to other people and it feels good.
I’ve got plans for more organized way cleaning ideas. I’m just so frustrated with myself and my disorganized way of homecare. I keep thinking I have a good way to go about it, and then it gets abandoned. I know something has to work and so I need to find it. It’s unfortunate that cleaning isn’t a submissive sort of feeling task for me or I might be more motivated. It’s just more that I have to do it to earn my way here. It’s my job so I have to find a way to be happy and keep Master in a clean and happy home.
Is there ever a time that there is too much organizational tools or whatnot and it gets in the way of the actual tasks? Gosh, part of me just wants a binder and go through it but I’ve had something like it and never kept it up. Gah it’s hard.
I have a lot more thinking to do I think.