I’ve been busy today trying to get materials made for our munch group so that it’s more organized. Master and I had a talk about what the group really needs to make it successful and all sorts of other things. I feel very helpless about the way it’s going but since it’s run by a board and I’m on the board at least I have a voice.

This evening I got all cranky and I can’t explain why. So Master is staying away to let me work things out on my own. It might be the whole frustration with the community and how I want it to grow but the lack of volunteerism in the group. It’s like people just want things to magically happen. I guess it’s that way in a lot of communities.

I’ve been fighting with allergies or a cold. I can’t tell which right now. We have a frost warning so if my symptoms are lighter tomorrow then I know it’s allergies. It’s been really annoying.

Master has given me the weekend off from the gym. My lower back is aching pretty bad so I’ll love the break. Right back at it Monday though.

–lunaKM

I am making some lemon essential oil today in the crock pot. I also made a new recipe of dishwasher detergent that I’ll be trying tonight. The essential oil will be used in my cleaners so that they smell good. I hope it turns out. So far all I can tell is that the oil I’m using has darkened, hopefully from the lemon peel.

I got all excited to get some cleaning and cooking done and well…. petered out because it got really warm and my back started hurting. I had to take today off from the gym too. No fun.

So, since I know that it’s supposed to be cool and windy tomorrow I’m going to try to get bread made, mop the floors, vacuum and laundry.

Master has been playing the the BF3 beta and has been pretty difficult to talk to him. He had a terrible allergy attack yesterday which made him miserable so I’ve been avoiding him as much as possible. I love him but prefer him to be healthy and happy before I interact with him.

Not much else to really share today. Guess I’ll close for now.

–lunaKM

Yesterday was a great day. I became Master’s fuck slut completely. We finally had buttsex (it had been a long long time) in the morning and it was great. So good. The rest of the day we had even more sex and pleasure and fun. I was used this way and that. In every possible ways and it was so wonderful. I was exhausted by the end of the day but feel asleep feeling wonderful.

I’m sure I can live up to the slut part of who I am. I really enjoy being his slut. He makes me feel so very special, so desirable, so lovely.

This morning I woke up still horny but absolutely fatigued. There was no sex today.

Now I really don’t have a lot to say today because all I did was fuck him yesterday. And that’s great for memories but not for tales on this blog.

–lunaKM

I’ve had some amazing sex today. The orgasm I had left me feeling so very good that I’ve had issues concentrating this evening. Everyone should have sex like this at least once a week!

And that probably makes this post a bit rambling so I apologize in advance. I’m not sure where my head is going to be from one moment to the next.

Went to the gym today, second day in a row. I’m beginning to ache all over and I know tomorrow just means I’ll ache even more. I’m really ready to get into the habit of going to the gym in the morning. I’ve set my alarm and I get up and out the door in about 40 mins. Master has been mentioning more frequently how he misses sleeping in the same bed with me and I miss it too. My weight must come down.

It is possible that I could lose some weight before my Drs appt on the 10th. If that happens I’ll be thrilled. I have a 35 lbs goal for the end of the year which I could make if I push myself.

I’ve been working to have more low-carb snacks and food available. A lot of what I find means prepping it so that it’s ready when I’m hungry. That way I don’t reach for the bad foods. I’ve been wanting to make almond thins (wheat thin substitutes) and some cookies but never got around to it. Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow.

I made an awesome Asian pork and cabbage skillet for lunch. It tasted just like the insides of an egg roll. Mmmm.

I’m back on deep throat training and I asked Master if we could restart wearing the NJoy at night so there will be that as well.

–lunaKM

You know a good day when you see one and for me today has been a good day.

First, I have been productive. I made bread, flour tortillas and then Low Carb Oppsie Rolls for myself. I did a load of laundry and cleaned up the kitchen.

I also did some writing. I have some excellent candidates for writers on Submissive Guide so that’s great news as well.

I love the Sing-Off. I’ve been watching the groups several times of the course of today from Monday’s show. I can’t wait till next week’s episode and 8 new groups! Acapella is such a beautiful sound. It’s one of my favorites. I have a whole station on Pandora that is Acapella Bands. It’s not perfect but it gets better with each up vote I make. If anyone wants me to share it with them, let me know.

Other than being busy today I don’t have a whole lot of new things or newsworthy things going on. I still need to learn that working on subguide at home should be just as productive as when I’m at a cafe. I just feel more at ease with work when I’m in a cafe. Master says, and I agree, that I dabble at work when I’m here at home. Yup, a little here, a little there. That’s me. Definitely means I don’t get as much done.

Current and New Training:

• Go to gym every day.
• Brush teeth every day.
• Proposition Master every day.
• Eat lower carb and make better food choices.
• Practice silence.

I got up today all gung ho to get some things done.

I got the kitchen dishes done before Master got up when I realized that the dishwasher wasn’t working quite right. I don’t think it’s worked right for a long time. I stuck my hand in there during the wash cycle and the water was cool. Not warm, not tepid, definitely not hot. No wonder my dishes aren’t getting clean. So I called the landlord to put a service call in. Wiped down all the surfaces, swept the floor, fed the kitties.

Master got up and I made his coffee and picked up the living room. While he was getting ready to go to work I got the living room picked up and then moved into the bathroom.

One of my kitties doesn’t like to squat to potty, so I’m constantly gifted lately with puddles. I have had enough. I mopped it up and then went off to find another solution. I found 55 L tub and cut a hole in the side. Their old box fits into this one perfectly and it gives it another 3 inches in height so if he needs to puddle it is still contained. I’m also hoping it will help with the smell. I’m a good kitty mommy, I swear! Swept and mopped up there.

Mom called and talked my ear off about cheap decorating ideas for my nephew’s basement bedroom, I got her sold on learning to make homemade laundry powder for Christmas presents and she wants me to make bread, more hot cocoa mix and lord knows what else. It’s going to be a homemade Christmas I think. Which is fine for me. I feel good when I give them things I’ve made and they enjoy it.

I did a load of laundry, took out 3 loads of trash and then went grocery shopping. I bought the flavorings for the homemade yogurt I will be trying soon. Next shopping trip I hope to get the canning jars. Then I just need milk and plain yogurt starter (yogurt with active cultures). With homemade yogurt we’ll be saving money and the planet. Yogurt is expensive, the plastic containers are waste and homemade yogurt lasts longer, can be made into greek yogurt or quark (a yogurt cheese).

I’ve been busy.

And after dinner I will try to go to the gym and get a decent night’s sleep.

Speaking of sleep…. Master and I both are tired of sleeping in separate beds. If you recall we do this because he’s a sensitive sleeper and I snore really bad. Not a good combination. The solution is to get my ass to the gym more often and lose weight. I need to keep my eye on the prize- sleeping with Master again.

Tomorrow I have a lot of kitchen food prep planned. I’m going to roast some root veggies (parsnip, rutabega, sweet potato, peppers and onions), cut all the onion and peppers I have and freeze them, saute my mushrooms and freeze them, cut up all the celery and carrots I have and freeze them or put them in the fridge for munches. Make deviled eggs for snacking, crock pot TVP “oatmeal”, sausage-pepper-mushroom breakfast cups for freezing, almond thins (like wheat thins for LC diets) and if I have time some no fruit fruit leather. Yeah. I hope I can get through all that.

I postponed my Dr’s visit to mid-October so that I have a bit more available cash until then. I’m not looking forward to interviewing a new Dr. I just hate it.

Master has been working hard on Kink Network things he wants to get Kinky-Blogging out of Beta soon and then he’ll work on Submissive Guide to get the community improvements there. We’d like to be profitable by the end of next year so a lot of work has to be done yet.

–lunaKM

I have a headache. I still have a cold too but I’ve been taking Cold-Eeze and it is dramatically better if I remember to take it than when I don’t. I’m also PMSing which has Master going nuts here. I’m so moody and I don’t catch it until it’s too late.

And then recently Master and I haven’t been on the same track as far as sex. He wants sex one way and I seem to want it another. So when we do come together it feels forced and uncomfortable and odd. I’m boring him. I’m not being slutty enough. He’s not excited by the sex any more. And of course with my moodiness I took it to mean that he wasn’t wanting to have sex with me anymore; not that something was disjointed.

It’s a big thing when you are as sexually focused as Master is. Hell, it’s a big thing period. Sex is how we connect and when it goes wrong our whole relationship suffers.

Sure the sex isn’t going to be passionate all the time and while I’m sick it is practically forced because I have no energy.

But I always have something going on. I’m either too tired, fatigued, aches and pains, sick, PMS, period something. He’s tired of it and frankly I am too. I want to just be normal. I am hoping that my visit to a new Dr next week helps with that… if he passes the interview. I don’t need a Dr telling me that I should have Gastric surgery or that frankly I’m too fat so that’s why I’m sick. I don’t want a Dr that sticks to numbers when I tell them that I still don’t feel right and think that perhaps my medication should be adjusted based on how I feel not what the numbers say. I don’t want to feel like he can’t do anything because I don’t have health insurance; I want him to give me all my options and let me decide. Hopefully this guy meets all this criteria or I’ll be looking for another.

I’ve not been following the low carb lifestyle lately and it’s showing. The clarity and energy I had is gone and I’m more sluggish and tired. I know how to eat low carb, at least the basics, I just have to decide to make better choices. And I need to eat more vegetables. I’m seriously lacking in that category.

This blog is beginning to get depressing again. I hope to stop focusing on all the negative and tell the positive stories too. My life as his slut in training it hard but it has its fantastic moments too.

I was kinda hoping for some play on Friday but maybe that’s not a good idea. If our sex is off will our play be any better?

–lunaKM

I’ve been trying to figure out all day if I have contracted a cold or if my scratchy sore throat and cough is from all the cigarette smoke I was around on Saturday. I’m hoping it was the later because that means I won’t be sick. I’ve been resting a lot today though just to be sure and since I slept poorly last night I really need to rest.

Our bed gives me back aches. We bought it last year when we moved here and it’s a super plush. I’ve never slept on anything that wasn’t a firm mattress and I’m wondering if it’s the plush that’s causing my back aches. I sleep so much better on the floor

Our AC doesn’t work again and lucky us the past 2 days have been in the 90′s. Thankfully tomorrow and the rest of this week the predictions are not above 80.  While I enjoy a lot of what this apartment offers, there are things that just drive me batty.  We may be looking for a new apartment sooner than we expected. I don’t look forward to saving up the money we’ll need to pay movers, the down payment and deposit, etc. It’s just so much work!

Friday Master and I are going to a play party. It looks like this one will have a lot of people at it. Hopefully it will be an enjoyable time. If I’m feeling well then Master wants me to try fireplay with someone who knows it better and that can test my limits to see if I have a primal fear that we can’t get over or if it was just novice fright for the almost disaster when we tried it a long while ago. I’m not sure how I’ll respond.

Interestingly I want to dress up but don’t really have fetish clothing so I got this idea to make a no-sew tutu sort of petticoat to wear with my corset that is 10 inches too small (It will likely have a 6 inch gap in the back (shrugs) for the party. I’ll have to see if I have the money to get the materials or not. I may have to just wear something else.

–lunaKM

Another week gone. I’m spending the whole day with my family tomorrow while Master spends it at home doing whatever it is he does. I’ve been looking forward to it for awhile so hopefully I’ll have a good time. We’ll be going to a nearby town for their city celebration and a steam engine train ride. I’m looking forward to the parade and Mom is looking forward to the train ride. There will be a craft fair too that should be enjoyable. The kids will want to ride the rides of course.

I need to restart my personal focused training that I was documenting here for a time and then stopped.  So, let’s get to that. This next week my goals are:

• Initiate sex with Master daily.
• Continue with deep throat training.
• Brush my teeth everyday.
• Choose silence; continue to work on not interrupting Master. This has gotten really bad.

I missed blogging yesterday but as I sit here I don’t have a whole lot to talk about today either. It happens that way sometimes.

With the changing seasons we’ve been able to have the windows open almost all the time. It’s been a wonderful feeling not to have the AC on, but it has been terrible with my allergies. I have constantly itchy eyes and sneezing fits. Gah. Meds make me drowsy so I don’t take more than I have to of those. I don’t think I’ve ever wished or a hard frost as much as I do right now.

We have been having really annoying internet problems here lately and to test things Master ordered DSL so at this very moment we have Cable, DSL and the free whatever the apartment provides coming into our home. I think we are set *smirks*. I’m hoping they have fixed the Cable internet as it is faster for Master’s gaming, but whatever he decides is what we’ll have.

Master and I are going to a play party next week. I want to make a no-sew long tutu/petticoat to wear with my corset. Not sure how it will look but it will be a cheap addition to my non-existent fetish wardrobe. We’ll have to see how it turns out.

Well, we’re off to the library!

–lunaKM

Labor Day is almost over and the only work I’ve done is some knitting. It’s been a nice day overall.

If you’ve been to a gym without your headphones I bet you can sympathize with me. This morning I forgot mine and so had to listen to whatever was playing through the house speakers. The time dragged forever and I was constantly watching the time counter on the Elliptical. I hope to never do that again.

I’m spending the entire day with Mom and family at a local carnival type thing. Mom is really excited. I’m looking forward to the steam engine train ride and the parade. It’s been a long time since I’ve watched a parade. The craft fair might be fun too. Hopefully I’ll remember allergy meds.

Allergy season has gripped me hard; which means occasionally I can’t breathe out of my nose. That’s a bad thing when you have to try to do deep throat training every day now.

Oh, I haven’t talked about that recently, have I… Master decided that I was to practice deep throating every day. That didn’t necessarily mean a full blow job, right now it’s just getting used to his big dick being further back in my mouth than I normally do. I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to get it all in my throat but we are going to try.

And to think 2 years ago I was complaining about having to do blow jobs at all. Man I’m a slow learner in some areas.

I’ve been considering Plasma donation as a way to make a bit of cash on the side. I’ve not talk to Master about it yet because I’m still on the fence. It could help us in tight situations and it’s relatively painless. Perhaps I’ll talk to him about what he thinks. I’ve done some research and I could bring home about $60 a week by donating.

I also must work on more paid products for Submissive Guide. I have a goal of finishing one this week yet. I hope I can do that.

–lunaKM

I was a hot muggy day today with periods of rain. I got caught with my windows down through a downpour and had to run out in it to roll them back up. That was not fun. Although, Master finds it funny. He knows how much I dislike rain. I can actually tolerate snow more than rain.

I completed my work and while my allergies are giving me a fight I think I got everything done that I had set out to accomplish. Tomorrow is cleaning day to catch up on what I’ve let go.

And now here is where I’m not sure what else to say. Oh.

Master wants to get back into deep throat training. This time he says it doesn’t have to be with an orgasm result but that I have to practice everyday – if not with him than with a dildo. I’d rather him because he’d probably pick the giant rubber one. Hopefully the allergies will remain at bay long enough to be able to do this for him as frequently as possible.

I’m hoping for anal sex soon too. Very soon.

Being a slut that is also a housewife is a touch job, but thank goodness I don’t have to do it with kids running about!

–lunaKM