Oh how empty my brain is when I’m bored. I can’t even think about what I have accomplished today but I know I was productive up until the headache came on. Oh yeah, I wrote a post for Kink Academy (it will show up here tomorrow).

I did some website work, some knitting and very little cleaning. Today has just sucked.

And I’m getting really bad at remembering Master’s coffee. He’ll ask for it and I’ll either start it and forget to make the cup or forget to start it all together. One of these days I’ll be in big trouble and it’s soon, very soon. I can feel it. I think I’m going to have to start parking my butt in the kitchen till the task is complete in order to get it done. Bad subbie.

When money is tight we seem to get on a road of not doing anything, afraid to go anywhere and just sitting about moping. Master has been depressed because of it. I’m trying to make due with what we have and stretch that grocery dollar. And then Master hollers that there is nothing to eat. Ugh.

I get to try my hand at homemade dishwasher detergent this week when my gel runs out. I hope it works well. It would save me about 6 bux a month. The recipe I found is just 1 Tbsp of borax and 1 Tbsp of washing soda per load. When I’m out of rinse agent I’ll be trying white vinegar. *cross fingers*

I bought the things I needed to make the cocoa mix I love. It tastes so much better than the commercial stuff and way cheaper too! Alton Brown made it on one of his chocolate episodes. Mmmm.

The knit afghan I’ve started I calculated I’m going to need like 150 squares to complete. So what I might do is make at least one really large square for the middle and build off of it. I’ll have to see that the longest circular needle I can get is. Maybe I can find a neat faire isle pattern to copy for the middle. Perhaps put some words on it. Who knows. I know it will take over a year to complete though!

Since I missed the gym yet again today due to my headache (yesterday because my back ached) I will be going to the gym tomorrow to make up a day. I’m going to be super luna when I’m able to really go for a whole hour 5 days a week. Way cool.

–lunaKM

The storm that has hit the midwest is just glancing Iowa right now. We have intense high winds and cold. Yesterday it even tried to rain. But that’s just a little taste of what the rest of the midwest is dealing with right now.

Our furnace went out last night. We spent a chilly night curled under the covers and I’ll be calling the landlord this morning (in about 40 mins). Hopefully he’ll be able to get it fixed today. Today isn’t going to be any warmer really. It’s quite chilly in here.

I’m thinking I might start some baking to offset the chill. Master has been wanting me to make the cake that I have a box mix for. Totally sounds good to me!

I’m really aching today as far as the workout. I only did 30 mins yesterday because I got a thunderclap headache. So that killed the rest of the workout. This morning I’m feeling the pain and I think I might ask Master for a skip day for the gym and hopefully recover.

And that’s pretty much it for right now.

–lunaKM

Yesterday we were back to blow job training. I am feeling well enough and Master just has a nagging cough so it was welcome back sex. Well, at least oral sex for him. I’m still waiting for my period to end. I had a great time and got to use more of the new techniques I’ve used. I’ll write a separate post about that soon.

I woke up this morning with a lot planned for the day. I needed to go grocery shopping, write a post for Submissive Guide, respond to emails, go to the gym for 1 hour (more on that in a bit) and then a relaxing evening in front of the tube.

I’ve accomplished all of it and am now relaxing while the TV is on. So, what’s with the 1 hour of exercise? Well the other evening I expressed to Master that I was tired of my body not being in a condition to do the things I want it to, that it wears out quick ly, I have a difficult to support body and some positions are just no go. So he said that he could make me go to the gym everyday. And of course that’s when it became a new training rule. He decided that an hour would be best, and that if I couldn’t do an hour straight I was to take a break there at the gym and get back to it when I could.

Did my first hour today. I’m feeling exhausted which I expected but I’m still supposed to be available for sex and other things so I’ll have to adjust to the workout relatively soon. I’m hoping in a week or so I’ll be less tired.

I asked Master today for what I want for my birthday. I want a fantasy slave day. Ya know, like the books and erotica many of us tend to read? The object sex, the strict training, positions, lots of waiting on the Dominant, etc. I have to write up a little  what I’d want or expect note for Master so that he knows what I’m thinking of for my fantasy and he’s willing to give it a go.  We’ll see how it works on Sunday!

It’s been a week since I first started getting sick and today I’m still not 100% but I’m getting there. Master seems to be getting better faster than I am thanks to his iron strong immune system. He tends to bounce back a lot faster from anything.  I’m hoping I feel well enough come Saturday when we are scheduled to go to my step-sister’s Halloween party. We went last year and it was lots of fun.

Other than that I’ve been trying to figure out what’s important for us to have for our elopement. I’m coming up with so very little. I’m glad that Master agreed to have it at the little chapel we had planned to have it at; that’s one less thing to worry about and it will seem so romantic without a lot of extra stuff. I’ve looked at casual romantic dresses that I can wear, and perhaps wear again and again. That is if he decides not to cut it off of me that night.

If the kink in my neck is gone tomorrow I can go back to blow job training. I know we will both enjoy that. I have those new tricks I’ve picked up to get used to and then later this week I hope to watch and try the more advanced techniques from Kink Academy.  Then I can move on to other videos. I’m already looking at a few from Graydancer!

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I see as the differences between submissive and slave and why I hesitate to call myself a slave. I still hit the same wall, so I guess I’m not quite ready to move there yet. I may never become a slave but I know that a lot of what I do is considered slave behavior (whatever that means). I try so hard to be a role model on Submissive Guide and yet show that I am also fallible because it just wouldn’t be right to be constantly good and perfect. We all know that I am not!

–lunaKM

Master is having a miserable day. He’s still pretty sick and has spent the day today in bed.  I’m feeling a bit better today and hopefully will continue to recover. If I feel even better tomorrow I’m going to get some cleaning done.

I can’t wait for Master to get better, I have some blow job practice to do! I’m also freaking horny and want sex so bad. It’s been 5 days since we’ve had sex. There is at least 4 more before sex is an option ( I just started my period) so once he’s better I’ll be sucking his dick.

I’ve been spending a lot of time on FetLife lately and I need to learn not to. The reason I’ve been on there is to find topic ideas for Submissive Guide, it’s a wealth of novice questions and idiot advice so I can usually find a ton of ideas there. We’ll I’ve been there and voicing my opinions. They don’t…. mesh well for all the crazy people on there.

As far as wedding goes, I asked Master if we could keep the chapel and the date we had already planned. At first he said that it wasn’t necessary, but when I expressed that I’d really like to keep it he agreed. So right now, I need to contact the chapel and change the plans from a wedding to an elopement. I’m guessing that the time reserved will be smaller. I’m looking at simple dresses I can wear that will make me feel pretty and I want a small veil. The elopement means changing the vision but keeping the romance. I’m not sure what to do about photography yet. Maybe we’ll just bring our camera and have people take turns taking pictures. And by people I mean the 2 people that know we are eloping.

I guess we’ll see.

–lunaKM

Master is sick, and cranky. It’s made for some tense moments today. Mainly because I’m cranky and sick myself. I would not want to be the kitties and they’ve been smart to hide most of the day.

We are dealing with a lot of stress lately and it makes for a difficult time right now. Being sick means we can’t release tension via sex. This has been a sex-less home for 4 days. That’s right ladies and gents, our longest time is 5 days. We need it, want it, crave it. And our stress level is insane without it.

Even with the wedding postponement and the decrease of money stress with that decision we are still about ready to blow our top; Master more than me because he’s working really hard and hasn’t seen a lot of money from it yet. Sucks to work on contract.

My birthday is coming up soon and I want to not acknowledge it. This might be the first year that I’d like to just let it pass.  We’ll see when the actual day occurs but right now I’m not ready.

–lunaKM

I’m sitting here again today with illness dragging me down. I’ve spent the bulk of this weekend with a sinus headache and today I felt like I was finally getting over it only to be smacked with it again. It’s really frustrating because there is so much I’d rather be doing.  The steam room I’m sitting in to try to loosen up my sinuses is my temporary home.

And Master takes such good care of me. I’ve learned to accept that when I’m ill he is like my nurse; constantly checking on me, almost waiting on me hand and foot making sure that I have everything I need to get better. Saturday night he even made chicken noodle soup at 1am because I was hungry and laid with me for some time while the headache was doing its worst.

I’ve had a lot of time to play one of my favorite strategy games – Pharaoh. I’m one of those players that likes to use graph paper and draw out the housing blocks in all different shapes to make sure they will be stable and maximize population. For me, that’s a lot of fun. I’m learning more and more about desirability points, entertainment and culture ratings and everything else I need to ‘enjoy’ the game. I’m in the final mission of very easy rating before I try my hand at Cleopatra campaigns. I’ve also started another game at the easy level. I plan on playing that one all the way through as well. And then normal, hard and very hard.

If you’ve been following my or Master’s twitter, you’ll know of our stresses with consistent internet speeds. Today we were informed of the ‘resolution’ to wait till the upgraded systems are installed in our area in 2 months. So, they’ve discounted our current package for 6 months and will call us in December to let us know when we should see a more reliable speed. This has, without a doubt, been the most stressful period for Master as his work relies on using the internet but also his recreation of online gaming. It has been hard on him. I am sure he sees this 2 month wait as forever and a day. I hope that when the upgrades occur it fixes our issues.

I’m still waiting for Author access into KinkAcademy so that I can start blogging about the learning I’m doing. I’ve watched my first 2 videos and plan to watch at least 2 more this week. With me being ill we haven’t gotten to practice the new skills as often as I’d like, but I’m sure that will change once I’m better. Perhaps the ones I watch should be academic instead of practical until I’m well. Either way, shortly you should see the first post I’ve written, already queued up here at the blog when I get into the writer’s dashboard on the site.

–lunaKM