We are supposed to be moving out tomorrow. Uhaul over booked their reservations by 135 trucks. They can’t guarantee a truck for us now….. we booked over 30 days ago, WTF! We are stressed, we have calls in to everyone, no luck they are all booked on the busiest moving day of the year.
Uhaul said they might be able to get us a giant 27 foot truck by 7pm tomorrow. I’m crossing my figures for something, anything.
–luna
There aren’t any wash cloths. I had 2 out for him to use for showering ( I use poufs) and he asks me today to get him one. There aren’t any, they are all packed I say. You can use one of the ones you’ve already been using. He needs a new one. I have no clue what box they are in. He gets to shower without it.
There is no food we want to eat. It’s all garbage so my stomach is pissed at me. All the cooking supplies are packed. So, when we get hungry we go through the same 3 things we have and then opt to eat out… or eat the crap we have and then deal with the crankiness we get.
And now Master is saying he’ll pack the media server soon; so no TV or movies on the RAID.
We are at that point in our packing that it’s inconveniencing us. I can’t wait till Saturday/Sunday.
–luna
I’m so nervous about moving I feel like I’m thinking in 4 different directions at the same time. It’s been such a long time since I’ve had a ‘normal’ move experience that I forgot what it was like.
The move before this one was from upstairs to down so we didn’t have that much packing to do, if any. We just moved via laundry baskets.
The move before that one I was all alone and used my car to make trips from the storage shed to the apartment. It took me 2 weeks.
The move before that was to put everything I was taking with me in the separation from my ex and putting it in a storage shed until school started; and living with my best friend.
So really it’s been almost 10 years since I’ve had the pack everything into a truck, say goodbye to the old place and hello to the new in anything that would be considered a normal move. I’m stressed.
And it shows. It’s the end of my period and normally I’m one raging hormone but I’m not really, well its there but it isn’t, ya know? Master asks why we haven’t had sex yet today and I have no excuse other than to say that I’m really stressed and will get to showering and cleaning myself out for him later. This has been done and now I’m watching him do some fancy stuff with Submissive Guide to make it run faster hopefully.
So yeah, I want sex. I want to feel him taking me over and over again. I want to be panting and sweating and sticky with juices but I just can’t wrap my head around it right now. Maybe a bit of ice cream will help.
–luna
This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.
Just 6 days until we move apartment. Eating has been really poor lately since I don’t want to have a lot in the fridge to try to transport. It’s crap food really, honestly. I think I can survive the week on this. Next week I’ll be buying yummy healthy foods.
We’ve not been to the gym on our regular schedule either. I feel bad about that but I know that the move is kinda overwhelming us right now. We’ll be able to transfer our gym membership to the new town and that’s good thing. …
We watched the movie Inception last night. It was slow to start but really good at the end. I’d recommend you go watch it! Took me a bit longer than usual to try and fall asleep after; my mind kept thinking there was someone in my dreams. Silly, I know.
I’m doing cleaning and packing today so that the next week thing will seem to finish. I’ll have practically everything packed. The massive cleaning list will be complete and I’ll be doing the list that the landlord gave me (which isn’t as specific). I’m so ready to move into the new place. I’m so freaking excited! I’ve been having some wonderful dreams about being in the new place. Time spent on the balcony in the morning. Working from my desk in the dining area, baking, cooking and cleaning in harmony.
Doubt it will be that easy right off the bat, but dreams are a wonderful thing. I know that Master has been dreaming of his office space and what he wants to have in there to make his sacred space.
Ya know, I think part of why I am really looking forward to it is that the new location will feel more like ours. I’ve been living in this town for 10 years, 3.5 of which was married. I’ve got memories here that crop up every now and then. I’d like to make the new town a place we have our own memories and I’m not clouded by ex thoughts. True, I have lived in the town before as well, and I was dating my ex then, but I lived there alone. He never lived there with me. So I feel a clean slate when I think of moving.
We’ll be able to start saving for the wedding again. Master said we can go dress shopping in the next few months so that’s a great thing. There are things we’ve put on hold with the move that I want to get back into doing; our wedding is only 10 months away now!
–luna
We are in the home stretch for moving day. All the final appointments have been made: oil change, veterinary appointment, massage planned, U-Haul truck reserved, visit to have car evaluated for tow dolly and new apartment check in. I have practically everything packed. Food is down to bare minimums so that I have less to pack in a cooler for the trip. I have the deep cleaning started and I’m sure that I’ll have it done by the time we get out of here so that I don’t have to do a lot on the day we move out.
I’m dreaming of living somewhere new. I want to explore new places, meet new people, make new friends. I think it will breathe new life into both of us. It’s possible our relationship will change a bit as our surroundings change. For the better I hope. In my head we hold an apartment warming party, but I don’t think Master would actually approve of one. I guess I’ll ask once everything is unpacked and the place is presentable.
The past couple days Master has had to wear a heavy mantle of patience. I’ve come down from the intense play on Saturday right into PMS. It’s a wonder that he doesn’t just laugh in my face sometimes with how insane I’ve been. I’m like a chameleon. One moment I’m happy, the next I’m irritated and now one can escape my agitation. Even the cats have seen my rapid mood swings. (Thankfully that has now subsided with the onset of my period.)
The marks I earned are fading to yellow. I figure I’ll have them for the next few days and then the bruises will remain over the weekend. Master caresses them and smiles. He likes that he’s taken me this far. I am looking forward to the next time, and the next.
–luna
This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.
I haven’t meant to neglect this place recently… although I haven’t made effort to be here either. Km and I haven’t gone to the gym very regularly. It’s one thing or another that is keeping us from going. He’s injured and I’ve been adjusting to new meds. Before that I was injured and he won’t go alone. So, getting back on the fitness wagon is our goal.
My eating has been hit and miss. Mainly because with us moving I’m shopping skimpy… ya know. Just what we need and they have to …
Master expressed interest in flogging me this weekend. I didn’t expect to play at the play party but there was a glimmer of hope when he mentioned bringing the toys with us.
Early into the party, Master requested I get out the Florentine floggers and the blind fold. Like most parties at this location they are slow to start, so I asked Master if he wanted to play now while it was still pretty quiet. He agreed and I undressed. We walked to a pole in the middle of the floor that had been wrapped in a blanket to make it softer. There was a narrow stool that I straddled and sat upon, wrapping my arms around the pole for support. He placed the blindfold on my and the world was between Master and I… in the dark.
The flogging started slow and tender. He struck my ass cheeks a bit but concentrated most of his strikes on my shoulders. It was startling at first because it’s been so long since we’ve played like this at all. I wanted to relax into it, allow it to absorb me into it. Become one with the pain, turning it to pleasure.
The pattern on my back went from one flogger to two with a gentle rhythm. It ebbed and flowed, some strikes were strong and sharp, others more like a caress. He checked in with me and I felt his heat close to me. Master asked me how I was doing and I asked for more. He mentioned that I was not making a lot of noise so he couldn’t tell how I was doing.
In the second round of flogging I was more in tune with the pain. I could feel my heart flutter and my eyes shifted as I sensed the endorphins in my system. Pain faded a step and as he increased his impact with one and then 2 floggers then back to one I was beginning to feel my sensations relax and I made more noise. I arched and curled against the pole.
He had me turn around and lean against the pole then, to flog and then squeeze my breasts. I raised my head out of the way and he wailed on them for awhile. He had me on tiptoes when he’d take my breast into his hand and squeeze and pull.
And then I did something I don’t think I’ve ever done. I asked him to slap my breasts the way I don’t like. I honestly can remember saying slap them in the way I don’t like; insane! Of course he had me ask correctly and say please. In no time my breasts were swinging like a pendulum and then he’d take break to grip them in his hands again and squeeze so hard. By that time I was feeling so very good and actually exclaimed that it felt so good.
He turned me around to punch and slap my back. I was totally into anything he wanted to do to me at that time. The punching; which we’ve never done was wonderful. It was deep and thuddy almost not painful and the slapping was very sharp and stingy.
I know that we ended when I started swaying a bit and he was flogging me really hard. I think I called Yellow once and he checked in. That was it for me. He took the blindfold off and that was the end. And the marks left from it are going to last a few days. That’s for sure.
There are pictures behind the cut if you are interested in the resulting marks!
–luna
I cleaned my oven today. It’s not been cleaned in a long time. It’s all sparkly! So, since we are moving soon I lined the bottom in foil to keep me from having to do a bigger job the day before we move. I’ve got a lot more cleaning to come yet.
Tomorrow Master and I are going to a single tail demo and play party. Should be interesting and hopefully enjoyable. Master expressed wanting to play but not sure if he wants to play in public. He’s craving some intimate play time. Maybe we can play on Sunday (of course this means digging out the toys).
I’m so ready to be done packing. Everywhere I go I find more that needs to be packed away in boxes. When I signed up for this whole domestic service thing I totally didn’t know I’d be agreeing to doing all the packing and cleaning when we move. (Of course Master has said he’s doing most of the actual moving of boxes, so is that a fair trade?)
And another thing…
Master and I aren’t sleeping well; and certainly not together. I’m snoring, or the AC is resonating the walls, or it’s just plan not good sleeping. We are both pretty tired and cranky lately.
Suggestions for better sleep anyone?
–luna
Today was a really hot day. Thankfully our AC seemed to be okay to cool us. Thankfully tomorrow will be better but not perfect.
I did a bunch of packing today, cleaning and my to do list got longer. We are almost to 50% packed, that has been confirmed. Both Master and myself have had to dig into boxes to find things we packed already but decided we wanted. I’m going grocery shopping tomorrow and it’s so hard to not add more to the fridge that won’t get used up by the time we leave. I’ve got to bring in all the boxes from the car in order to go shopping so that aught to be fun.
Master mentions almost daily how wonderful it is that I don’t complain anymore, that I serve him how he wants and when he wants. It’s like we are finally working in concert. It’s great really. I’m so happy with where I’m at now. Where we could end up is limitless.
–luna
Since I’ve been so busy lately I’ve forgotten on more than on occasion to write this post on the correct days that it’s required. Thankfully as long as I get it done before Master gets up he’s kinda okay with it.
This weekend we visited some friends of ours who recently moved back to the area. It really does feel good to be around lifestyle friends and know that we/or they won’t appear odd for following specific behaviors. We had such a wonderful time talking playing games and going out to dinner. We get to see them again this weekend when we go to a group’s single tail demo and play party.
The packing and cleaning is progressing. Master asked if we were past 50% packed yet and I said no. My impression of more than half packed is when we start saying, ‘oh, we can’t do that/use this because it’s packed’. We aren’t there yet. But by the end of the week I want to be. Every day that goes by I’m even more excited about a new place. I find myself trying to figure out where things are going to go in the apartment. Sometimes it all fits and other times I imagine our closets overflowing and clutter everywhere.
Master has said on more than one occasion recently that I’ve improved so much and that he’s very happy with the way I’ve changed. I’ve given him no complaints and been compliant for everything. Blowjobs are no issue anymore, his sexual desires are being fulfilled and while the domestics are hodge podge because of the moving he is happy with my service to him. It makes me feel really good inside. I hope I have turned a corner and will continue to please him.
–luna
This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.
This is day 4 of the metformin. I’ve not experienced any severe side effects. Gas and bloating seem to be the bulk of if although every so often I get a twinge of nausea but it goes away pretty quickly.
I’m also eating a lower carb diet. No real plan exactly, just making sure that I pick lower carb or no carb options for things. Whole grains whenever possible, no fried foods etc. I feel better when I eat this way anyhow. My energy is up and I’m positive about making this work. <B…
I packed a couple of boxes today of things in the kitchen. I plan on doing more tomorrow. As I mentioned on twitter facebook today; you never realize how much stuff you have until you start putting it in boxes. And I’m not even half way done!
I also set up utilities for the new place and informed the current companies that we are moving. Part of the move in agreement is that we have renter’s insurance; which we’ve never had in the past. I got a policy set up for that. Oh and the cats need to visit the vet. They are behind on their vaccinations and I have to have proof they are up to date. Then I think we’ll be set.
I’ll continue to collect boxes they way I have been and this weekend we’ll get a few from our friends who just moved recently. Hopefully we won’t need more than 50 more.
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I started my metformin today and the side effects were mild but annoying. Hopefully it will stay that way. I’d like to go exercise tomorrow morning if they do.
Don’t really have much to report other than that. Which is a good thing I guess.
–luna
I was awoken this morning in pain. The cats were running around and hopped up on the bed, not realizing the angle my head was at. Claws sank in and scratched the heck out of the top of my head.
But that’s not really the beginning. I’d been tossing and turning for hours. Uncomfortable, hands aching but too lazy to get up and put the braces on; back sore but not sure how to make myself comfortable; shoulders aching from trying to hold my hands up and out of the way since they hurt. Just hurt. And now I have a full-blown mini-migraine that I’ll blame on the cats and the way I was finally forced awake.
Not a good start for the day. Pain meds on board but I refuse to pay attention to the cats no matter how much they look like they haven’t a clue what just happened. I’ve got almost 4 hours before Master will be getting up. I might try to sleep a bit out here on the couch.
On other fronts, I went to the doctor for my thyroid check up. I’m in the healthy range so my meds are at a good place. We discussed my frustration with lack of weight loss even with increased exercise. He said he’s happy with my health and that some people are just overweight and have difficulties losing. My doctor actually said he was fine with me being obese! How insane is that?! On the one hand I’m thrilled that I’m healthy. I have no issues with high blood pressure, high cholesterol, blood sugars are normal. I’m healthy, just fat.
He talked about gastric bypass again, but this time said that he understands why I don’t want to alter my organs to lose weight. He said maybe in the future I’d be interested in the reversible options like the lap band. In the meantime I was offered a drug. It’s not a weight loss drug. It’s a diabetes/PCOS drug. It’s prescribed to insulin resistant overweight diabetics and women with PCOS to help the body become more sensitive to insulin. This makes your body stop producing too much and keeping fat cells from growing. He said in most patients on a low carb diet and exercising are more likely to see weight loss with this drug when dieting and exercise alone haven’t done it. The side effects are tolerable and subside after a week or two (stomach issues) and he said it could help stave off possible diabetes (I have it on both sides of my family).
I asked for the script on paper so that I could come home and research and talk with Master about it before I would consider filling it. He said that was fine. The online forums I found about the drug in relation to weight loss are few, but it looks promising. The people taking the drug for it’s intended purpose of PCOS are not seeing weight loss, but those that are diabetic see at least a 10% decrease in their weight in the first 6 months. For me that would be close to 40 lbs! People that are taking it for the weight loss benefit are seeing a bit less weight loss, but still better than when they were just dieting and exercising.
I want a level playing field and this may do that for me. Master said I could take it. I guess we’ll see what happens!
–luna
This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.
Went to the Dr today to have my thyroid check up. I’m in the upper part of the range so that is good. What else is good is that my blood pressure was down to close to normal ranges. 129/85. I attribute the exercise for that.
What he told me was that he’s happy with how healthy I am and that as long as my lifestyle changes continue I could remain a healthy person. I told him I was really frustrated with my lack of weight loss and he said that some people are just heavy. He did say…
Something I’ve realized since becoming a submissive and Master’s property is that our sex life is pretty damned good. I’ve never been so sexually fulfilled in my whole life. He’s knows exactly where to touch me and how much I need him.
When I was in a vanilla relationship sex was a big hoopla. There was the suggestive nature before getting to the bedroom, there was always some foreplay (usually boring) and then the actual sex. By the time we got to sex I was just ready for it to be over. I was left unsatisfied and never knew what I really needed.
Now, there is no suggestive dance. No foreplay either. We just both express the desire to fuck and get right down to it. Well, we do have times that foreplay is as hot as ever, but it’s nothing that any vanilla couple would recognize as foreplay. It’s our foreplay.
Since I’ve skipped the foreplay I’ve become more excited for his cock and the passion I feel for him is kindled within the first few moments of contact. I’m hot without a word. Who needs foreplay; it just gets in the way of fucking.
And fucking we do alot… and very well.
–luna
This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.
I’ve been away for awhile, and not by choice. My back has been hurting lately so I’ve taken it easy since Tuesday. However, today I will be going back to the gym because my back is better! Yay!
I’m eating a lot better now that KM is being a drill sergeant. He likes to exclaim, ‘Drill Sergeant’ when he’s giving me a food or exercise reminder. I guess that’s so I can separate the man from the sergeant. LOL. He doesn’t want me mad at him for denying me certain treats, so he uses the d…
I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything today. I don’t know why I feel this way because I have done quite a few things on my to do list. The living room looks like a tornado went through it recently though since I’ve started packing. I can’t wait till it clears up a bit due to the lack of items still out. It’s a slow process going through possessions and deciding if they are worth packing and keeping or donating or tossing. I finished the living room bookshelves today and still have a pile of unsure things on the floor. I have all of my step mom’s craft books to go through and decide which ones I might use and what I won’t will be going to the library here. Then the fish will be given back to the store. I’m not caring for them anymore and I don’t want to move them. That’s next week though, I’m ahead of myself.
My back hurts about the same as yesterday. I’m trying hard to not let it show because Master’s foot is hurting him something awful. He overdid it playing tennis a while ago and now even the slightest walking brings back the pain. He pulled a tendon I’m sure. Nurse luna has prescribed rest and icing it till it calms down and then easy does it with the exercise for the rest of the month. We both need to be well for moving day(s).
I’ve written quite a bit lately for Submissive Guide so that while I’m busy settling into the new place I don’t have to think about writing for the Guide. I have a Community area opening in mid August as well and have been trying hard to prepare for that. I have so much I want to have ready for when I open the doors for registration.
Master has mentioned how things are going to be different when we move as far as my housework is concerned so I’m actually thinking now about what I want to move and where it should be kept so that I can maintain the house in some semblance of orderly. It will make cleaning a heck of a lot easier. I’ve also been thinking about what more I want to do to bring my submission out more and how I’d like to change my behavior to fit Master’s desires of me.
And let’s not forget the exercise. I’ve not done any since Tuesday because of my back pain and it looks like I might not be able to do any tomorrow either. I’m getting frustrated that I can’t keep my routine up and down that my body is failing me in my efforts. I can’t wait to get back to the gym.
–luna
I woke up this morning with a headache, but at least the back ache I went to bed with had subsided. So I traded one ache for another. Hopefully this one won’t prevent me from getting stuff done today.
I’ve been chatting online a lot with Rayne lately and it makes me really miss having girlfriends of any sort living nearby. It’s so lonely in that respect. I can make friends online, and that’s fantastic but it doesn’t match being able to hang out and shoot the sh*t in person. I’m hoping that when we move that I’ll be able to have girlfriend time. My best friend from college will live only 30 miles away then.
I go to the Dr on Tuesday to evaluate my thyroid levels again. Maybe there will be a tweek to the medication. I’ll also have to talk to him about getting my medical history moved and referrals for doctors in the new town. I hate breaking in new doctors.
It’s been almost a year since my stepmom passed away and I’m feeling down. My childhood best friend also ended our friendship around the same time so I feel a bit of depression. I’m anxious about moving in that respect. My address will change; my phone number might change when the contract expires and we go looking for a better deal. I keep hoping that she’ll want to contact me again and restart what friendship we could have. I keep that candle of hope burning. I’m afraid to blow it out. 20 years is a long time to be friends and then just stop. My stepmom Kathy has been on my mind lately too. I wonder if she’ll know (from wherever she is now) that a part of her will be at our wedding; a small pendant with her fingerprint on it will be pinned to my bouquet.
–luna
