Moving

The news is in. We are moving! There is a 2 bedroom apartment waiting for us in another city – a bigger city. In just over a month we’ll be going to a bigger place and both of us are very excited!

I have a huge task ahead of me though. Master has never moved house like this and it’s been about 7 years since I’ve had to. Of course with the packing means decluttering and massive cleaning so I’m going to start as soon as I can. We have friends who just moved and are willing to give us their boxes so that will certainly help. Whatever I have I’ll need a long long list.

How to do this without spending a ton of money is my task. Frugal move, is that possible?

–luna

Waiting for Breakfast…

I figured that since I missed writing this yesterday that I’d get it done this morning before Master awoke. I have a breakfast casserole in the oven so I have just about 25 mins. Let’s see what I can get out in that time.

We are still waiting to hear about the apartment we applied for last week. I’m hoping we hear something this week because we’d like to give 30 days notice to our current landlord if we are moving. It would also help us with the dreams and plans we have as far as the new place. I try so hard not to do too much planning with the new place in mind because I don’t want to be let down if we don’t get it.  The suspense is killing us!

I purchased a book through Amazon the other day and received it yesterday. It’s main purpose was for a review on Submissive Guide but I think that it will be an excellent book for Master and I in our further development. The book is Protocols: Handbook for the female slave by Robert J. Rubel, PhD. I’ve read the preface so far and am looking forward to sitting down and really digging into this book. I believe that this book and Miss Abernathy’s Erotic Slavehood omnibus will really assist us in our dreams for an erotic service relationship.

The past couple of Fridays Master and I have gone out for a date and we talk about our relationship, our dreams for the future and our happiness. It’s been a wonderful bonding time and I look forward to these times out of the entire week. It really is all about us in those moments; the world just fades away. I couldn’t be happier with him and our life together.

We are in a holding pattern as far as wedding progress. We need to find a bakery sometime soon so that we can go in for a tasting and get our cake ordered. I’d like to have the menu down before the end of summer too.I have a sample of the paper coming for our invitations so that I can do a mock up. I think I’ve priced all the online wholesale flower places I’ve heard about to get the best deal on the flowers I’ll be buying to DIY the florals. We need to pick out my dress in September as well. But all this is waiting until we hear from the apartment because we might have to dip into that savings to move and then replenish it after that.

Times up, off for breakfast. Till next time folks.

–luna

Pushing Harder

I learned something today. I tend to push myself harder at the gym when I’m alone than when Master is there working out too. At first I honestly didn’t want to get the entire planned time done, I wanted to just quit, but somewhere inside of me I just dug down and pushed to get those minutes done. It’s amazing what you can talk your body into doing.

Tomorrow I’m going to make a better healthier meal plan for myself and Master. I’ve got to make some huge changes over the next few months if I want to see any progress weight -wise and Master has agreed to help be my drill sergeant. I’ve been doing a lot of reading about how to lose 100 lbs in one year. It’s doable, so many people say that it is.

My blog post on SparkPeople have everyone saying I need to take smaller goals. Knowing myself and Master I think I can do more than just a few small ones at a time. It’s not about denying me things, it’s picking better choices. He’ll help me do all this.

–luna

11 months, 1 week and 5 days to go!

This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.

Today I cried. I cried because I realized that as I look at the obese people walking around today that I’m one of them and I swore I would never look like that. I would even whisper to my friend or boyfriend, “Don’t ever let me get like that, stop me before I look like that.”

It’s an area of discomfort and sadness for sure. It means giving up or working to succeed. I have lofty goals but I don’t try hard enough I know that. I want to lose weight for the wedding. I want to feel beau…

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Rich Vanilla

One of my tasks as Master’s stay at home submissive is to find cheaper ways to do things. I love embracing from scratch cooking as one of them. While not everything I do is old fashioned cooking, the modern vices of convenience foods is something I can find alternatives for. I found a recipe online that I just had to share. If you are addicted to General Mills International Coffees then this is one to try. I know I’m going to just as soon as I run out in my tin.

Rich Vanilla Coffee Mix

http://www.hillbillyhousewife.com/frenchvanillacafe.htm

She has other flavors as well. Toffee, Swiss Mocha, Bavarian Mint, and Orange Nutmeg can be found on this page. If it’s cheaper than $3 for the 9 oz. tin, then I’ll be making it. The comments on the page rave about it so I have no doubt that I’ll like it. If I remember I’ll price it out and tell you guys if it’s a bargain or not.

I’ve also been busy with my knitting needles this past week. I made 3 Swiffer Mop cloths so that I won’t have to buy the paper ones anymore. I’ve even read that they work better than the store bought pads! I’m excited about it. Just 2 more in the box and I’ll be using the knitted ones.

Right now on my needles is a bath mat. I’m using 100% acrylic yarn to help ward off mold and it’s a simple double yarn garter stitch. I need to see if I have a circular needle large enough to do a border once I have the mat done but I’m thrilled with it so far. I think I might make a ‘scraps’ one with all the left over cotton yarn I have from dishcloth making for a kitchen mat.

–luna


11 months, 2 weeks and 2 days to go

This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.

I really envy all you wonderful folks for being able to lose weight and stay on track for more than a day. I’m really depressed today for several reasons.

I’m PMS’ing which is probably why everything else is bothering me the way it is. I feel so very fat and lazy and frustrated.

I also went to try on some clothing today and while that shouldn’t get me down, the mirror was evil. I hate the mirror. There was a moment I wanted to break down crying or run out screaming. I do…

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Waiting Mode

Yesterday we applied for an apartment. I’m hoping to hear next week if we got it or not. It would be so great to have a new place and new town. It’s so exciting. The wait is horrible. I don’t want to get my hopes up too high ya know? Cause if we don’t get it, we don’t have another apartment to look at yet.  In my head I’m already figuring out where everything will go and what furniture we’ll need since there is less kitchen storage. I’m dreaming of sitting on the balcony and watching the morning go by… or the evening.

First impressions on the apartments we looked at (still occupied) was that the floor plan is slightly smaller in person than what it looks like on paper. The dining area will need to be extended kitchen space so I’m looking to get a set like this one for seating. I’ll want to get a buffet or a hutch.

Master is not going to be shocked that I’m already shopping for furniture. He said the first purchase will be a bed and I totally agree! We’ve needed one for over a year. Of course with saving for the wedding getting things for the apartment will be under his discretion completely. A girl can dream though, right!

We can do this. It would be so exciting!

–luna

Tomorrow's Plans

The neighbor upstairs has not come home yet. The fan still rumbles through our ceiling and causing Master’s headaches and depression. It’s really tough. The landlord wasn’t willing to do anything when I called on Sunday and I doubt he’s willing to do anything now. Master is still thinks I should call even though he said he understands why I haven’t. It’s a no win really.

Tomorrow we travel to go look at an apartment in the town we wish to move to. If we like it; which right now it just has to be slightly better than this place, we are going to put down a deposit and sign a lease. We’d move in 8/1. Master and I both are excited. He’s have an office and free basic hi-speed internet, I’d have a dishwasher, the shower would be a standard bath/shower unit, free cable and there is no pet deposit or pet rent! Sounds perfect to me. I’m not looking forward to the packing, but I sure would love to have a living room/dining room without Master’s office in it.

The location is that much closer to the BDSM community we want to be more involved in and hopefully that means making friends outside the events we attend. That would be so wonderful.

Now, we hadn’t planned on moving until after the wedding and the cost of moving will eat into our immediate wedding savings but Master says we’ll be able to make it up. The noise from upstairs pushed us to seek out another place. It was fate I think that we found such a perfect possible place. I’ll let ya know what we do on Friday’s post.

–luna

Noise noise noise

Not a whole lot to report today. The neighbor upstairs still hasn’t come home and the fan is still humming along. It’s really caused an issue with Master. He can’t stand the noise, can’t work at his desk and has hidden away in the bedroom. He’s been so cranky.

We’ve even considered moving out and that would mean less savings for the wedding. We can do it, that just means less of the fluff I’ve been dreaming of to make it even more special. Who knows what will happen. We’ve wanted to move for years; if the opportunity arises we may just take it.

–luna

Conversing

This will be another miserable weekend. Our upstairs neighbor has an old box fan that when he sits it on the floor it generates a horrible hum throughout our entire apartment. It gives us both headaches and migraines. We were able to go to a hotel the last time and then talk with the neighbor on Monday when we came back. And the insane part? The neighbor is never home on the weekends. We have to suffer. So I called the landlord; he’s going to try to get ahold of him but I don’t hold my breath. We can’t go the entire summer like this. We’ll be miserable. I wish we weren’t saving for a wedding sometimes so that we could save instead for moving. It’s just not feasible to do both.

Master mentioned last night while we were watching Memoirs of a Geisha that he’d be interested in me learning some mannerisms (the speaking and graceful movements) of a Geisha but we aren’t sure what to focus on just yet. There’s so much we want to do to make D/s ours but pushing too much at a time would feel silly. He’s changed the way he’s giving me orders and I admit it doesn’t feel like orders to me. He said yesterday that I’m more submissive when he gives orders this way. I don’t know if it’s behavior or manner or that he says please more often but it works and that’s a good thing.

Going to work out again today means I’ll have worked out for 4 times this week. I plan on keeping it that way for awhile. It’s an increase of one day from the last month. It’s only a matter of time before I see a difference in my weight just by exercise alone.

Next week when I go grocery shopping again I’ll be making some changes to my food. I’m going to make vegetables the main focus of my meals again. I did that when I tried South Beach (and got sick from it so stopped). I’ll still keep carbs in my diet but they will be better choice carbs. Whole grains whenever possible and more fiber in my diet. It’s only a matter of time before my diet will change permanently.

I’m knitting reusable Swiffer mop cloths today. This will reduce cost for cleaning and be a little more green. It feels good. I’m going to the Dollar store this week too to get a couple microfiber cloths to use on the duster for when I run out of disposable ones. I’m still dreaming of getting canning supplies and learning how to home-can a lot of things so that I can develop a healthy pantry and rely less on manufactured goods. A bigger kitchen might be necessary for that some day.

–luna

11 months, 3 weeks and 4 days to go!

This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.

Today is a down day for me. I’m feeling overwhelmed with the prospect of losing weight and each glance at my body continues to remind me that I’m not working hard enough to see results.

I’ve decided to try very hard to go to the gym more then the 3 times a week that KM wants to go. I feel that if I do something everyday I just might see results.

My other issue is of course, that I’m not eating 100% good food all the time. I constantly dream of cooking more from scratch a…

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Feeling Down

Dad called last night. He is out of the hospital and doing much better. He was in good spirits too.

And I feel validated with my feelings about having no kids at our wedding; Dad said he’ll talk to sis about it when she brings it up. He agrees that the wedding I have been planning is not kid-friendly. Thank you Dad!

Master has been fighting a sinus infection. He says he got it from me, and I guess that’s true. My symptoms were completely different and I’m still not 100% but I feel for him. He’s had a bad run of sinus infections lately. It just has to suck.

I blogged at SparkPeople today about my feelings about my lack of weight loss and what I hope to do to change that (which will post here sometime today I’m sure). Master is firm in his words that if I want to lose weight faster I need to work harder at it. He’s so right of course. So, after I finish my cleaning I think I’m really going to plan out what I intend to do to make that happen. First on the list is going to the gym more then the 3 times a week I currently go.

I’m itching to do another DIY project for the wedding but before I can do that I need to get a container to hold the projects as they are finished. I completed the bouquet sash the other day; need to iron it yet but I have no where to store it. I’ll ask Master for a few bucks to get a tub to put things in.

–luna

Whirlwind

Yesterday was one hell of a day. In order to tell it I need to start with Sunday night.

Sunday night I asked Master to cane me and he did. It was an awesome scene and once the caning was done Master took me. In a break in the action he grabbed the hitachi and started punching my ass. Oh god that was good. My tender ass and the thuddy impact was great. So very good. I think I fell asleep almost immediately afterwards!

To yesterday morning I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I was cranky and moody.  I went out to get lunch for Master and I and immediately dropped mine on the floor when I got home. I snapped and threw a real temper tantrum with jumping up and down and everything. It was insane and I couldn’t explain why I was that pissed.

Master asked me if I could be having some sub drop and while it sounded likely I wasn’t ready to embrace that. Ultimately I did though and he took good care of me.

In the afternoon my father called me. He’s in the hospital again with internal bleeding. I’m worried again about his health and I’d like to think he might move back closer to his family so that if something happens he’s not all alone. I won’t know anything for a couple days on how he’s doing.

Talked with sister that night and informed her that our wedding will be no kids zone. She blew her top and said that she was bringing her kids anyway. She said that my wedding needs a ring bearer and a flower girl and she thought they would be in the wedding. She also asked me why she hadn’t been asked to be a bridesmaid either. OMG I was just… what the heck. She said that since I’m having a traditional wedding I need these things. Whatever. I told her no and had to say several times that kids are not welcome and that I’d help with babysitting if she needed that. She basically threatened to crash the wedding then. *sigh* I’m glad I have a year to hopefully get her to respect my wishes for our wedding day.

Let me tell you I was so upset. Master said not to worry about it, he’ll take care of it.

Pre-anniversary

Today is our pre-anniversary. (preversary?) Today, one year from now Master and I will be married. I will be his slut wife! I am so excited about this, really I can’t explain why. I wasn’t nearly as excited about becoming his collared slut and really what’s the difference except a piece of paper saying I legally belong to him? Perhaps that’s it?

My family is taking it pretty well considering this is my second wedding. They haven’t said anything about the fact I want a white dress, or the church and reception. I want the cake, the flowers the whole bit. And they are happy for me and supportive. I’ve read a lot of negative things lately on a forum I frequent about bravo brides having to deal with judgments from family saying they should just go to the Justice of the Peace or elope. I thought we were past that. This will be my only wedding where I marry Master and I want to celebrate it how I want to celebrate. Of course, those of you who know us know that he’s really the one making the decisions. I just present him with options.

We had hot pre-anniversary sex just now. I think Master wants a bigger dildo soon, but the ones we have are large enough (IMO)! Sometimes there are dildos that deserve names, ya know? I used to have a black rubber one that I called Antonio (after Antonio Banderas). Master has forbade me from giving any others names…. although I wish I could. These two that we have are perfect for some porn star names, ya know? And I love the Hitachi. It took me about 2 years to warm up to it but now I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Hopefully we’ll get the attachments someday.

How much more love can I feel when the man of my dreams is also my best friend and perfect lover? I don’t know but the days leading up to our wedding will certainly remind me why he’s chosen me and why I, in return, choose him right back.

–luna

June Goals

This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.

Today starts my countdown to the wedding. It’s one year today that I’ll be walking down the aisle. I have a lot of huge goals I’d ultimately like to reach. Right now I really want the scale to start working for me.

I’m 360 lbs. I’d LOVE to be 300 by wedding day. I know it’s doable, I did it 5 years ago. I’m exercising more now than I did then and the scale isn’t moving so I’ll have to really watch my food now.

But it’s not all about the weight. I want to drop 4 inches …

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He Peed on Me

During our little holiday away from home Master peed on me. I laid in the tub and felt the warm urine all over me. I guess I thought I’d feel humiliated or grossed out, but it really didn’t. Granted, it was gross but not repulsive.

He’ll do it again. I know that. Will I like it? Meh. I think I overthought it. As long as I can bathe afterwards I think I’ll be okay.

–luna