The past 3 days have gone by painfully. I’m in a funk that makes me hard to talk to, I’m snippy and grumpy, withdrawn and unapproachable. Today I’ve cried for no reason and Master has noted my gloomy mood on more than one occasion. I don’t know why I feel this way. I can’t pinpoint anything that triggered my mood. I’m hoping I can shake it soon.
Ya know, maybe part of it is that I went straight from being sick to having my period. Sexual contact has been off the table for over 2 weeks! Master and I both are going insane. Period should be done by tomorrow so, as long as my mood goes away we’ll be busy… very busy.
Yesterday Master got news that his grandmother died. He is taking it better than I would, but I guess we handle death differently. What’s more frustrating is our cell phone plan won’t let him call home.
I went to Target yesterday with Master’s permission and got some make up supplies that would make my desire to learn proper technique a lot easier. I got some nice Sonia Kashuk brushes. I love them and can’t believe I’ve been using the crummy ones that I have been after today’s use. What a difference. I’m hoping to get some new eyeshadows in the coming months. I have a few new quad packs from walmart but I’m looking to get some quality stuff soon. I’m also watching a ton of videos on youtube for makeup application. I’ve found a woman I really really like: Makeup by TiffanyD. I’ve subscribed to her blog and I think I’ve watched at least half of her videos.
My next hope is that after I get into a routine of makeup application that I’ll start a skin care routine that includes moisturizer. Somewhere in my mind it says that if I take care of myself that my outer self with improve my inner self. I want to feel good about myself. Master will appreciate that, no doubt.
–luna
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Hey luna,
Sorry to hear you’re in a funk still. I don’t remember if we’ve discussed it before, but have you considered birth control pills to help with the PMS? There’s all kinds out there these days, and I know some people have reactions, but it might be worth trying out. Personally, I’m on Lybrel (the 365-day pill), so I never get my period or PMS. It’s lovely. A lot of women at work think I’m crazy for doing it because it’s “unnatural” but it’s no more unnatural than popping pills to get rid of a headache, or for taking ‘regular’ bc pills. I used to be on Seasonique (the 4-times a year period pill) and that was nice too, but I’d rather not deal with the horror of PMS and my period at all.
You’ve seemed so restless lately. Maybe you should consider trying to get a little part time job? It would give you some outside stimulation that isn’t internet based, would get you out of the house, and get you some more spending money.
I have to consider different birth control this year as my IUD ‘expires’. I loved when I was on Depo as I only had 4 periods a year but the weight gain on it was really bad. I’ll be looking in to everything.
A part time job is out of the question for Master, but I am hoping we move soon and I can participate more in the BDSM groups in the area. That will really help me. I’ll also be closer to friends. Right now any friends live at least an hour away.
If it’s just your period time and the mood goes away then great but I was feeling like this a lot and we have no health insurance right now and a herbalist suggested I try St Johns Wort. I did and I take it every day because if I don’t I feel myself starting to struggle and slip back into bad moods. It doesnt leave side effects like normal anti depressants. You might want to consider it.
Thanks for the recommendation. I’ll look into it with my Dr when I go back for blood tests this month.
Luna, I think I remember that you have thyroid issues, right? You might want to do some research before using a hormonal based birth control method. Estrogens can really make it difficult to keep your thyroid levels stable if the tyroid is already acting up. Just a thought.
Thanks, that’s why I’ll be discussing it with my Dr. I can get a free copper IUD at the women’s clinic so I may just replace the one I have. It ‘expires’ in October.
have you considered light therapy? you say you live in Iowa…long winter makes it hard. I deal with depression and have for most of my life. I have a lamp…two actually that help so much with my moods. it might be something to consider that would not affect your thyroid medications…talk to your doc and see what he thinks… wishing you improved moods and outlook!