Yearly Archives: 2010

How are You Bringing in the New Year?

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When it comes to being sick, I think Master and I have had just about every cold and flu bug out there this year. We are sick yet again and it’s baffling. I’m definitely going to bring it up with my doctor when I go see him in January. The whole town is experiencing it – the cold and flu aisle is always picked clean when I go.  We are both taking Cold Eeze (Zinc tablets) to help cut the duration and severity down. It’s already making me feel better than I did before the tablets.

We aren’t doing anything special tonight and I don’t even know if I’ll make it to midnight. The New Year will be there when I get up in the morning too.

So that’s how 2011 will come in. My plans for this year are relatively simple.

  • I want to set up my stockpile pantry in the front closet. I want to have most staples on hand so that if we have a financial stress then food won’t be in jeopardy right away.
  • We will get married!
  • I’d like to start building our Emergency Fund. I’m tired living from paycheck to paycheck with the fear that something big will happen and we’ll be screwed.
  • I want to find my fashion and style and get some new sexy clothing.

That’s it. I hope you have a great new year. Kiss someone for me. We’ll be blowing kisses to each other most likely.

–lunaKM

Final Exam [KA]

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The past three months have been amazing as far as my sexual development. In the first few days I explored the site up and down finding topics that I’d love to learn about and play around with with KM. Then he tied my hands behind my back. He was not going to watch the videos with me; I was the student so I had to go about the learning. So, with the new information I went searching the site again and I’m pleased that even someone going at it alone can find a lot of wonderful videos with things you can do yourself.

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Sleep Lightly

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Last night Master came to bed to try sleeping with me. He said I hadn’t been snoring very loud so I was happy to have him there snuggled next to me.

But there is now a negative aspect of the whole thing. When I know I’ve been snoring and Master comes to bed, I tend to sleep lightly so that I can catch my snoring (or try and prevent it) so that he’ll stay with me. I’m giving up sleep to make sure he can sleep. While that sounds sweet I then feel like a zombie the next morning.

I’m glad I’m going to the gym today.

–luna

Pain Down

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Today I took down all the Christmas decorations and the tree. It’s all packed away till next year now. We don’t have any plans for New Year’s Eve and will be attending a munch New Year’s day.

As I’m working my routine into my daily schedule the house is noticeably cleaner. Tomorrow is laundry day. I hope to get all the laundry done for the week. If my wrists are under a 3 (out of 5) I’m going to try to do some sewing on the quilt that needs repair.

Reconnecting sexually with Master is my hope too. Since we’ve been sleeping apart so much I feel less connected to him and it hurts. I hate it and can’t wait to get my weight down so that my snoring stops. My snoring is like a constant monster in the room. It makes me cry, feel lonely and unwanted. It’s hard. I know that it bothers Master too.

The relationship is strained because of this and I don’t want to go on living separate lives just because I snore. It has to stop.

I’ve been playing with my makeup the past few days. I’ve worn more dramatic looks and loving it. I still like neutral looks but the purple smoky eye I’m sporting today is hot! Of course that drives me to want more makeup and I spent time in the HBA aisles today while I was out grocery shopping. I’m hoping to be allowed to have some money soon to get more makeup.

–lunaKM

New Year Plans

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Christmas yesterday at Mom’s was pretty good. I spent much of the time dealing with a headache and really sore wrists, but the kids were fun to watch opening presents and the dinner was pretty darned good too. I got some lovely new shirts that fit(!) a silver watch and some wonderfully simple kaji pictures to start decorating the living room with a Japanese feel. My aunt gave me a hand mixer (which happened to be at the top of my list since the one I have is really old and weak). I’m thrilled. Mom also gave me the painted pewter miniature Christmas town that my grandma used to put out in her crystal hutch. *beams* Overall I really hauled! The presents I brought were  a big hit with the kids.

This is week two of carpal tunnel pain above a 4 (with a scale of 1-5). I have to keep asking for an extension for Master’s blow job day that he requested on his birthday.  I’m really itching for a spanking too, but as anyone with some consistent pain will tell you, it’s just not good to try for good pain when you have bad pain overriding everything. Last night I wore my braces to bed and woke up with them still hurting. Usually they calm down a bit overnight. Today is going to be a grit my teeth sort of day. I have a lot to get done and I’m not putting it off more than I have to.

There are a lot of things I want to get going in the new year. I’ve already written about the protocol that Master and I are going to re-establish and of course I’ll want to add more this year as well. I’m also continuing to go to the gym, eat better and feel good about my body. I like the idea of “Healthy at any weight” rather than dieting. It’s just not working for me. I need to love the body I have and keep it healthy. If I happen to lose weight in the process I’m not going to stop it. In fact I’ll encourage it, so that I can stop snoring! I’m not going to deny myself foods that I enjoy. I’ll just have to relearn portion sizes.

We are getting legally hitched in June. I have a few dresses in mind so we’ll have to see what our budget looks like closer to Spring for that. He’ll need a suit too, we may just rent one. Then it’s just license, minister and chapel, and dinner for 4. I’m getting excited now, really excited.

Kink Network should be slowly opening up site after site. I expect Kinky Blogging to open late January-early February. Then Kink ID will have a showing. I think Master is working on Kink Database next, which will mean the change or death of The Iron Gate. I have yet to decide.

I’m going to continue my work on scratch cooking, simple living, home maintenance and more. I’m really enjoying putting together my home management journal and am getting better at remembering my routines. This should be the year I perfect that.

Well I’d better get going on my day. It won’t do the work for me!

–lunaKM

Slap! Me Oh So Good [KA]

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As with everything BDSM has to offer, there are what are considered light play activities and those that are intense, even on the edge or taboo. Face slapping is considered the latter.  Two years ago I approached KM with a request for something I never thought I’d ask for. I asked if he’d slap me across the face.

He complied and we carefully added it into our kinky play. I loved it. It’s jarring and hot and sexy. We don’t have any training or education in this form of play so it’s always careful and he pulls his slaps, focusing on the soft tissue and avoiding as many bones as possible. I’m so very grateful for Ms Kali’s series on face slapping and can’t wait to add even more face slapping into our play now that we’ve had some excellent information.

Now, with face slapping, you have to be careful of a primal instinct of fight or flight. Physiologists will tell you that when you slap someone across the face, the chemical reaction in the brain tells the person to fight or run. This could have bad repercussions to what should have been a hot scene, so make sure you reduce that possibility by letting the person know you are going to slap them, and comforting them after with other sensations.

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On This Eve

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With joy in our hearts and passion in our souls, KM and I want to wish all of my friends, readers and acquaintances a Merry Christmas.

I know I speak a lot lately about what the future holds and that’s because we have a lot of happy times ahead. Not only are we getting married, but our company should start coming together and we’ll finally make the services we have wished to have. While the money isn’t coming in as we’d hoped just yet, I know we’ll catch up. Our dreams are waiting.

Are your dreams waiting?

–lunaKM

What's the point of titles on a personal blog?

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(I’m considering ditching titles in the new year. They are pretty darned useless on a personal blog anyhow. Dates work.)

I’m so ready for my wrist pains to go away. I’ve broken out the heavy duty wrist braces with the metal supports to see if I can cut it down a bit. I want to be able to please Master with a blow job for Christmas at least, if not before. I take Alieve every time I can and it’s helping, but not completely.  If I could I’d just sit around all day and not do anything that requires my hands. But then that means asking for more TV time just to waste a day and I’m not looking to do that yet.

We are supposed to get some snow tomorrow late through Friday. I’m glad I don’t have to travel anywhere. We aren’t even having family Christmas till Monday.

Christmas day we’ll be watching Dr Who all day and then the Christmas special that evening. I’m fixing turkey and trimmings. It should be a nice day.

Then, Monday we are going to my mom’s house where my sister and her children will be there and my brother’s daughter will be also. Lots of kids taxing Master’s nerves. He’s definitely not a kids person. I’m going to do my best to only be at Mom’s for as little as possible, but that’s still several hours. Dinner is at 3pm with present opening after. And at Mom’s house that means, one… present… at… a… time. Everyone has to watch what everyone else gets. The longest it’s taken is 4 hours. I really hope it doesn’t take that long this time.

Moving on to my service, Master and I have had talks about bits of service that I used to do, but have stopped doing. A few of them I expressed a desire to get back into it. I’m not sure why I stopped to begin with because I know Master liked it. I know I enjoyed it. It just… stopped. So, we’ll be restarting them now.

They were never rules, they were things I either just started doing and he told me he liked it, or it was something we did to keep me in a good mindset when I was having issues with that. So, Master never needed to correct me for failing to do it but now I’m asking him to ramp it on those if I get bad.

One of them is that whenever I deliver something to Master (ie. his coffee) I will present it to him with “Your coffee Master” and wait for a response from him.  I’m also wanting to add back asking for permission to leave his presence as well as acknowledging his presence when he enters the room. I’m not sure what I’ll be doing, but probably a word greeting with a halt to whatever I’m doing to let him know I’m available to him if he needs me.

I like protocol and dropping these things confuses me. Now, I’ve started up the presentation again, as that one seems easiest to restart. The asking to leave his presence and acknowledging his entrance will take a bit. We’ll have to discuss what we’ll like to do for that and what will work in public as well as private.

You may recall a few years ago, if you’ve been following me that long, that I had a home management journal in physical form. I didn’t have a place for it to live really so it kept getting put away, and then never pulled out and used. Well last week I had a light bulb moment. I’m online a lot, almost all the time. Why not use the internet to house my management journal. So, I’m working on adding what I want to it. You can peak at it if you click on the Homecare link up there in the navigation. Just remember that it’s pretty empty right now.

–lunaKM

Snippets

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My wrists are bad today, and while it probably would be smart to not sit in front of the computer typing all day, that’s what I did. And am. I guess I’m a gluttony for pain. Or I just like to complain when they get so bad that I can’t grip anything. Yeah, that’s probably it.

Christmas is right on our heels and I have to wrap the few presents we have. I don’t know why it’s taking me so long. I usually like to see wrapped presents. Oh wait, it because I have cats that like to get into things they shouldn’t. That’s right.

I’ve not been sleeping well for some time and it’s impacting my wakefulness during the day. Master says I’m snoring a lot and we’ve still slept apart most nights. I’m going back to the gym to hopefully work my size down and the snoring will lessen again. That’s my only answer anymore.

I’m really excited about the web services that KM and I are developing (okay, mostly KM) that will start being finished next year. Along with the upgrades and changes to Submissive Guide I think we’ll have an awesome year.

Wedding dreams have returned. I am dress shopping again so who knows. At some point I have to stop shopping and start buying, right?

–lunaKM

Book of Days: Week of 12/20/10

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  • Outside my window… I’ve watched the hustle an bustle of cars all day outside my window. Everyone is in a rush to get the holiday started. It’s sad no one is taking the time to enjoy the moments.
  • my thoughts… are looking towards our elopement again. It was almost a silent moment since we postponed in October. Now I’m looking at dress ideas again and dreaming of the little chapel wedding we’ll have this summer.
  • Today’s Quote… “I heard the bells on Christmas Day; their old familiar carols play, and wild and sweet the word repeat of peace on earth, good-will to men!” – Henry Longfellow
  • i am thankful for… Alieve when my wrists are in a bad state like today and I insist on working anyway.
  • From my service training… continue to work my daily routine back into a semblance of order and get it all sorted on my Home Journal.
  • From the kitchen… Tuesday: Pizza, Wednesday: Spaghetti, Thursday: Chicken Fajitas, Friday: left overs, Saturday: Turkey and trimmings, Sunday: Christmas leftovers
  • i am wearing… Comfortable jeans and a pretty red bra
  • i am creating… my needles sit idle until my carpal tunnel flare up calms down.
  • my adventures this week… Christmas at Mom’s next Monday
  • Becoming well read… Problogger book: Secrets to blogging your way to a six-figure income, Conquer Me
  • i manifest and co-create… love and stress free days
  • Todays Melody… Christmas music on Pandora
  • One of my favorite things… my kitties bring me joy and comfort and I would hate to ever be without them.
  • further plans for this week… I’m always working on Submissive Guide, that doesn’t even have to be on the to do list anymore.

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Just a week till Christmas

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The smells of chicken stock fill the house today since I’ve been making it since noon. I have a roast in the oven for dinner and LO birthday cake for desert. Sure sounds like a nice day. I got the house picked up a but and am ready to make a better habit of structuring my cleaning so that things get done before they have to be done.

Master has to work this weekend. That’s a bummer, but it also means I’ll be working too. My wrists have been giving me fits for a few days so knitting is out of the picture even though I really want to be doing it anyway. Odd how that works.

Christmas gifts will be done as well. I’m making my hot cocoa mix and wrapping up pretty in a Christamas-y mug. Dunno yet what to get the 2 kids that will be there. I’ve got a week to figure that out.

And I’m amazed that another year is on the way out. Early this year, and it doesn’t seem that long ago, KM got down on one knee. Time sure goes by fast when things are going well. We’ve had a lot of wonderful changes this year.

I’m watching all the classic Christmas cartoons this weekend. It’s fun. I feel like a kid again.

–lunaKM

Looking back and facing the future

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With the closing of another year I am faced yet again with the goals I had hoped to attain that were planned out last time and while I do have some small successes I have to admit I’m feeling the need to improve.

I’m going to make a home management journal again. This time it will be online since I do spend quite a bit of my time here. I also found it to be wasteful of paper to have a binder where I was just printing of things I found online to place in my binder. Then I stuck it in a cabinet and forgot about it, losing with it the routines and cleaning schedules I had started to adjust to.

This new year will hopefully see a more organized day, everyday. I’m tired of feeling like I never get anything done.

Master and I also have an elopement to plan. We’ve got the chapel, will have the minister in the first few months of the year. I’d like a nice dress and he wants a suit. Other than that I don’t know what we want to do. It will come together I’m sure.

Also, Master’s birthday is tomorrow! I’m going to wake him up with breakfast in bed. Then for dinner I’m making a yummy roast beef and mashed potatoes and gravy. He wants lots of blow jobs so there will be that in there too. He’s sleeping in and playing his games all day most likely. Just a laid back kind of day.

–lunaKM

Separate Rooms

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It’s been a bad day. Not really for anything that happened but for my PMS mood that has made the whole house down. Master has hidden himself away in his office today to keep clear of my sensitive mood. Just the shortest thing can send me off and I really don’t know how to control it. It sure makes submission so very hard.

Days like today make me wonder if I have all it takes to be submissive. You know there are so many ideals in submission, like there are never bad days… periods never bring about mood swings and a submissive never ever looks at her submission as something she needs to get through to make it through the day.

Today though, oh god today has been hard. There are two things to blame though. One is honestly a really bad PMS time and I can’t wait for my period so that it will subside. The other is that I’m not sleeping well at all. I snored last night so loud that Master closed the door. We’ve been sleeping apart due to my snoring.

Which means I need to work harder at the gym. Losing weight is my only choice right now to help get it under control. Master’s frustrated that he has to hear me snore all night and it disturbs his sleep. I’m feeling lonely and insecure and afraid it will never improve. We just can’t be a M/s or D/s couple that doesn’t sleep together. It will hurt our relationship in the long term. I’ve got to get the snoring under control.

Master’s birthday is Thursday. I’m not sure what we are doing yet. I know he mentioned steak, so there is that. I’d like to take him out on a date but money might control that.

It looks like I’m going to have to take the tree down. Zeus is sneaking up there at night and eating the fake branches and then getting sick all…over…the…house. I don’t like the idea of putting the tree away at all. I’ve not choice if he keeps eating it. *pouts*

After the first of the year I’m going to try making bread again. I have a no-knead recipe that I’m going to try until I can get a Kitchen-Aid. I need to work on saving even more money in the grocery bill so that I can bring in more creative recipes and building my extended pantry.

–lunaKM

Pussy Stretching

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Master has a large object insertion fetish. Its’ something both of us love. I’m going to wager that it’s a relatively common one in the whole kink community but I could be wrong about that.  One of his goals is to have a lot of really really (insanely) large dildos and butt plugs to use on me.

One of the first things we purchased that would aid in his desires was an inflatable dildo last year. At first it seemed like it would never fit. Each try afterwards it got larger and larger. Yesterday, like the time before we were able to inflate it the whole way and he fucked me with it. That’s right, if you haven’t clicked on that link yet, you want to go see how big this sucker is.

I love the sensation of feeling full. I have a couple really fat dildos, but this shadows them all so far. And he fucked me with it! Yummy! Now, we love fisting too, but that’s a rare feat because Master’s hands are huge. But this large object thing, I think we have a good start with that.

I know he wants to see my ass stretch just as much, but I’ve got to work on smaller things first. We have plans to get an anal bulb at the beginning of next year for me to do daily rinsing so that when he wants anal play it’s a bit cleaner (hopefully). As I get used to the rinses we’ll be going back to the anal training. Remember when I used to wear a plug to bed every other night? We’ll that’s coming back I’m sure. And then the stretching can begin.

I’m sure I’ll do fine with stretching. As it is, my ass relaxes so much that it pretty much becomes a plug launcher. Nothing stays in that sucker when relaxed. Yeah, I know, nice visual. Thank me later.  Anyway I have no doubt that Master has fantasized about having this sucker of a butt plug in my ass. Ouch. That’s a long, long, long, long way off. (And can you believe that comes in regular and super-size? Holy hell.)

Master, like most men, likes to take pictures and videos of me doing things to him, mostly cock sucking and then he shows them to me later. He loves to have me on film he says. I know he’s threatened posting them online at some point too. Which makes me nervous. So why am I haven’t naughty thoughts about it? I guess he’s really gotten into my head with that one.

So, any of you like large objects?

–lunaKM

A Smaller Fat

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This excerpt is from my Diet Blog on SparkPeople.com. My username is lunaKM if you wish to friend me.

I wonder how many people reach the end of the year/beginning of the next and decide that they need to go on a diet. I’m sure it’s a huge number.

I’m no longer liking the word diet. There are no good and bad foods. There ARE good and bad quantities of food. So, just like every year before I guess I’ll be making a resolution to try and lose some weight this year. I’d really like to get back to 300 lbs like in 2006. I felt really good then.

I’m not sure how well I’ll do bu…

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From Dry to Wet

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The other day, Monday I think(?), Master and I were fucking. We do that a lot anyway, but let me go on. It was one of those times where I was just pushed into position and he started going at it. As I winced through the pain from a dry pussy I turned to look at him. He had that look. The look that I know says, “Shut up and take it, I’m just going to use you because I can.” I got instantly wet. It was so hot.

I pointed it out to Master, that he was giving me a look and he couldn’t help but smile at me. (I learned later it was because it was hard to keep a straight face knowing that I was just gushing wet from me just looking at him.) I turned to look away but I couldn’t help it, I had to look at that face again, knowing he was seriously going to fuck me and who cares if I got any pleasure from it. Again my pussy responded. And I felt good, so good.

And even though the sex wasn’t meant for me to enjoy, I did enjoy it.

Yesterday was a three hole day. That means he was able to fuck all three holes. It doesn’t happen often because my body likes to screw with us and make my back end unavailable. But yesterday, yesterday was great. I’d have to guess that it’s been at least 3 months since I’ve been ass fucked and I totally missed it. Yum!

On other notes, it looks like I’m going to do some sex toy reviewing. It won’t be a lot since it’s just one small company that will send me an item every 6 weeks. I don’t want to make this blog all about sex toys so I’m not doing more than that. But I couldn’t pass up free sex toys anymore.

I’m also looking into writing for FearlessPress.com. I’ve really enjoyed reading their columns and felt that I could add to their information with a column on fat sex, fashion, kink and lord knows what else related to being fat. I’ve got some writing to do soon and so I’ll let everyone know when things start moving with that.

If any of you have been thinking about buying a Kink Academy membership, you should definitely head over to Submissive Guide on Saturday and get entered in the contest for a full one year membership! This is a head’s up, so don’t miss it!

–lunaKM

Happy 6th Anniversary Dear Blog!

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This weekend has been difficult sleep-wise. Master ordered me to take a sleep aid on Saturday and Sunday to try help me get to a deeper sleep than I have been. I was so tired Saturday and went to bed at 8:30pm. I’m still not rested today either, and I tried to nap but couldn’t stay asleep for any length of time. Hopefully this will pass and I’ll be back to my normal self. It’s affecting my memory and attitude and patience.

I put up the Christmas tree yesterday. It’s a lovely blue and white tree this year. I’m feeling the Christmas Spirit a little bit. It’s not a big affair with the two of us, and I know Master isn’t looking forward to being with my insane family on the 27th for the big day there.  Mom expressed concern this year that it’s going to be a small Christmas present-wise and I had to remind her that the reason for Christmas is not presents. I have no doubt that she still has a ton of things under the tree because that’s just what she does.

Tomorrow is this Blog’s 6th Anniversary. It’s amazing that I’ve been around so long. Now I know I’ve moved this blog all over the place but I don’t expect I’ll be leaving here any time soon. It suits me fine. My journey from a bratty confused girl to a service submissive is all drawn out here. A lot can happen in 6 years and I’m thrilled to be able to chronicle it all.

Master and I celebrated 6 years together in October. I’ve been collared 3 years in January and we are getting married soon too. It’s all been so wonderful. I can only hope that everyone gets to be so lucky.

–lunaKM

Book of Days: Week 12/6/10

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  • Outside my window… the sun is going down and streaking orange stripes on the store across the street.
  • my thoughts… are fuzzy. I’m not sleeping well and it’s impacting my days. Just got up from a failed attempt at a nap, where I just laid there waiting for sleep. So frustrating
  • Today’s Quote… If you can’t sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying.  It’s the worry that gets you, not the lack of sleep.  ~Dale Carnegie
  • i am thankful for… the new 50 Meg internet service. Master can play his games again and burn off some of that stress he’s had pent up for months.
  • From my service training… patience and memory focus, follow-through on to do list
  • From the kitchen… Use up the left overs and go to the store Wednesday. I’m going to make white chocolate dipped pretzels sometime this week too.
  • i am wearing… clothing. I plan to go out to work away from home later on.
  • i am creating… nothing this week if my carpal tunnel keeps up.
  • my adventures this week… I’m staying home and focusing on finding my 40 winks that I keep missing. Something is causing it…
  • Becoming well read… I’m still reading The Control Book by Peter Masters. I plan to have it done this week so that I can write a review on it for Submissive Guide.
  • i manifest and co-create… can I say restful sleep again? Anyone who has had insomnia probably knows what I’m going through.
  • Todays Melody… Christmas classics all day today
  • One of my favorite things… my new smart phone. It has so many bells and whistles that I’m quite entertained.
  • further plans for this week… figure out if I want to try to get a column at Fearless Press or not.