This blog has been lacking in sex for quite some time. I want to bring it back, so I’m going to have to work to remember our pleasurable fun. Ok, so it’s not hard to remember that we had fun, but for me I tend to get fuzzy on details relatively easily. Then again I was recently so very horny that I created a fantasy site too, but it has nothing on it right now.
I guess I miss the fandom of having a lot of people coming here to read and talk and say how much fun things sound. I don’t get that anymore. Master and I have sex, sometimes a lot and sometimes a little, but all very good. I don’t know why I moved to not sharing it on here.
Master wants me to be all slutty later tonight so I have to find my horniness before too long. I’m sure it’s there; I love sex with Master. I am looking forward to some of the sexy play that Master has been hinting too lately.
The only thing we’ve had very little of is pain play. Either I’ve not been receptive to it or it just wouldn’t work. Can a person stop being turned on by pain sensation? I’m actually afraid that if I don’t work soon, that it will just fade away. That would be a really bad thing, really bad. Okay, so I do fantasize about pain play and I do crave it (usually during or with sex). It might just be that we don’t play often enough for the pain to work on me like it should. I just need to relax, right?
I spent the day on housework mostly. Somewhere along the way my back injury flared back up. It’s not as bad as it was initially but I am again destined to just sit around a lot and take meds. Master would love to have me as his sex slave while I’m on meds I’m sure. I bet I could really get into that.
–luna
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i find pain play very challenging when i’m in a state of pain already due to some bodily challenge ~ so maybe it’s your back pain that’s causing you a lack of interest? i suspect we only have so much sensation we can take at any given time, and serious pain you’re having to deal with on an ongoing basis would make it difficult to process other forms of pain that might otherwise be pleasurable (or at least stimulating in a way you could process).
Somebody posted a reply on Kitten’s blog the other day saying that we actually don’t build up a “tolerance” to pain, that in fact we grow more sensitive to pain with repeated exposure, rather than less sensitive. i don’t know if this is true, but if so, it’s very interesting! They said that if you have a sense that you’ve built up a tolerance, it really has to do with your processing/coping mechanisms, which makes absolute sense to me.
It goes back to that discussion in the afterward of “The Compleat Slave” about does a masochist enjoy being hit by a car… the resounding answer was no! (duh!) BUT ~ experienced masochists DO know how to process/manage pain (even the unintentional and/or medical kind) better than those who haven’t had to deal with it before.
Anyway, just a few thoughts. i know most BDSM bloggers feel a strong need to keep up the sexual content, because it drives traffic way up, but i personally enjoy reading about ALL aspects of a 24/7 TPE Lifestyle. Maybe because i live in one myself, so i know full well that it’s not all about being chained to the wall and whipped mercilessly… sometimes it’s just about picking up His dirty socks, making dinner, and striving to maintain the grace and service of a good submissive/slave.