I woke up feeling a bit testy this morning and it hasn’t gotten any better throughout the course of the day. Master has given me some space and I’ve been keeping to myself so that I don’t get into trouble. It seems safer that way. I don’t have any reason to be grumpy other than my period coming so I think it was a good idea to just be on my own today.
Tomorrow, when Master’s paycheck clears the bank I’ll be able to go grocery shopping for Thanksgiving. I don’t know why I’m so antsy for it; it’s just the two of us so we won’t need a huge frozen bird, just some breasts. Something about this Thanksgiving feels off, but then again it hasn’t happened yet so maybe we can do something fun. I’d love to play board games and watch movies all day (other than the Macy’s Parade in the morning, but Master won’t even be up then). Last year I think we watched Lord of the Rings (all of it). The year before I know we watched Harry Potter 1,2 and 3. (Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince comes out on DVD December 8th, and you can preorder from Amazon.com for 9.99! Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince)
I’ve been doing a lot of knitting lately, I want to give my mom and my sister some hand-knit dishcloths this year since they asked for nothing. I’ve got a pattern for some slippers too that I’m going to get yarn to make for myself and maybe Master if he’ll let me. I’d like to also have a heavy shawl to wear when it’s chilly so that’s in the dreams too.
I weighed in today and am still maintaining that 5 lbs lost from the first week. I’ve essentially given up on South Beach strictly because it gave me severe stomach distress. I’ve resigned to watching the refined carbs and going with good carbs when I can and getting as many vegetables as possible. I’m terrible at exercise though and I’m sure that’s what’s keeping me at maintaining rather than losing.
Master said he needs to step up and micromanage a bit again so there is no doubt that I’ll be exercising again, even if it is on his schedule and not mine. I can feel myself pushing when he directs my actions, but I’m not outwardly expressing it; which is progress.
I’ve started reading The Surrendered Wife. One chapter in I see the me that was in my first marriage. I’m almost certain that I still have that part of myself and while I can’t say I will like the entire book, the first chapter seems promising… at least to have me reflecting on myself. I can try to keep you informed as I read it; or you can wait till I review it in December for SubmissiveGuide.com.
Master really is my best friend, you know. I love spending time with him and he’s great to talk to about anything. I don’t think I could have found a better man to love and devote my life to. I’m so thankful for him in my life.