I’m going to do low carb again. I felt healthier than I ever have on it. It’s going to be a drastic change for my current eating, but worth it. I’ll fix my stomach problems and hopefully start losing weight. The next time I go shopping it will be with South Beach meal plans. That also means cooking 2 meals each time again because Master can’t have a meal without carbs. (Mainly because he won’t eat a lot of veggies.)
My sparkpeople.com account has been neglected. That has to change. I have to make this a priority like I have being Master’s submissive. It has to be part of taking care of him by taking care of me.
I know he’ll appreciate the benefit of when I lose weight my snoring goes away. It’s hell for him right now. I don’t blame him when he gives up and sleeps on the futon in the living room. I feel bad, but I have to accept it also. He has to work. I can take naps if I don’t sleep well. Which I don’t. Snoring has that effect on me too.
Yes I could have sleep apnea. We still can’t afford the 3100 bill to get a sleep study done so that’s just on hold. I’m going to work harder on losing weight so hopefully I don’t have to have one. That’s the plan.
I’ve been miserable lately. Being fat is just crappy. Today I have a painful back so exercise had to be put on hold too. And I woke up wanting to exercise… that doesn’t happen everyday you know!
My period is coming so I’m more bloated than normal which has me feeling more icky. It’s just a ‘get me a new body’ type of day.
This weekend was nice. The Halloween party was great. We carved a pumpkin that had a ball gag in it’s mouth. And it was a hit! 
I’ll get a picture of it when I have one. We had a blast. Lunch with Mom was weird as usual. I swear I never knew how white trash my childhood was until I see it now. Good lord! I’m glad I’m not there now. I’d be embarrassed with myself.
The spanking did not happen…yet. Things came up and there just wasn’t the right mood or time. I’m sure I’ll get my birthday spanking with interest when we get the time to do it. Perhaps next weekend. I’ve been really really moody lately which helps explain why we didn’t do it too. A fun spanking isn’t fun when you are in trouble.
I’m being interviewed for Dungeonplace.com Podcast. I’ll post a link when it’s released. It’s exciting! I never really thought I’d be asked for an interview for anything.
–luna
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Luna, I totally get what you are saying about the sleep apnea – I was diagnosed with it several years ago.
At first the mask was annoying in the extreme, and I stopped using it for a while. It seemed to me that I was actually MORE tired when I used it than when I slept without (only later did I realize it was because my sleep-deprived body was screaming “MORE SLEEP! GO BACK TO BED!). It wasn’t until I started having apnea-related narcoleptic attacks that I started wearing it again, and I have never stopped.
The few times my machine has broken, and I have had to go a few days without it, I have found some things that tend to help a bit with the breathing:
1) Sleep in a mostly upright position – like in a laz-e-boy recliner. The airway stays open easier if you are upright.
2) Keep a fan blowing in your face, on high. This causes a slight increase in air flow that can help keep your airway open.
3) DON’T take muscle relaxants before sleeping – the relaxing causes the airway to collapse faster than normal.
I do hope these tips help, and heck, if I had the funds, I would send you some $$$ in a heartbeat for a sleep study. No one should have to go without a CPAP machine if it is needed!!!
I really appreciate the tips. In fact I asked Master if my snoring worsened when we moved the ‘noisemaker’ fan to the other side of the room. I used to have it blowing right on my face. He said he isn’t sure but it’s worth moving it back to see if it helps with the air flow.
I really think my biggest issue is my weight. When I lay down I feel all of it coming up around my neck from my chest. The snoring was drastically less when I weighted 50 lbs less. That’s my first weight goal.
A pumpkin face with a ball gag? OMG, you have GOT to show a pic of that! You know I am on SparkPeople hon, anytime you wanna chat, vent or whatever, or if I can help any, just ask or let me know. As for the weight thing, been there, done that..all my life until about 4 1/2 years ago when I buckled down and finally got serious about getting healthier. I know I am not telling you anything you don’t already know, but, there is not just one right way or even two or three…different strokes for different folks as they say. But if you find something that works for you..go for it hon. I’m here cheering you on! YEAH LUNA!
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i’d love to see the gagged pumpkin, too ~ that sounds hilarious!
Kudos to you for getting back on the weight loss wagon. i just started a new campaign with Daddy’s help, too, so i’m right in there with you. 110 lbs to lose by our anniversary next year… whew! That’s alot. And i loathe doing anything that makes me sweat (and isn’t sex or pain! lol why can’t exercise pain be yummy pain???) so i’m mostly relying on calorie counting. Fun, fun.
I’ve tried calorie counting for years and it just doesn’t work. I could be perfect on my calories and not lose a pound. Most of my problem is that I MUST exercise. It’s the only thing that has worked every single time in the past. My dr. has cleared me to exercise 30 mins every single day so I have no medical excuse…. I don’t mind sweating but the muscle ache afterwards is enough to make me want to not do it again.
I know how you feel with being overweight and the bloating and crap. I’ve been way overweight since a few months after giving birth to my daughter (yeah, I put the weight on after… go figure), and I’ve had problems with water retention since then too. It really sucks.
I know it’s not the foods I eat because I eat mainly healthy foods and I really don’t eat that much. There are days when I have to force myself to eat because I just don’t feel like eating. Sometimes I wonder if part of my problem is that I just don’t eat enough. I went on a prescribed diet once and had to stop because I couldn’t keep up with all the eating. LOL
I think my problem is the lack of exercise, though. I just can’t get motivated and I used to be really athletic too, so it upsets me. I tried going for a walk every morning for a couple of weeks, but I always ended up in so much pain it wasn’t worth it. I’d come home and wouldn’t be able to do much of anything else that day.
Anyway… congrats on your podcast interview. That’s really cool. I actually had my first author interview a few weeks ago and I was so nervous about it, but it went really well. Good luck!
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Luna, I am supporting you again on the weight loss it is hard, but you can do it. My son has been walking since I had my right kidney removed….That was in Feb. he has lost over 90 pounds, lost 10 inches off his waist..I am so proud of him, he watches what he eats, and yes he still hangs with his friends and eats burgers and fries, and pizza, but then he walks over 8 miles after, to even it all out.
So it can be done……its a dream of his not to ever be sick like his mom. I know I am rattling on…and you know what you need to do, I have watched you on here before, losing the weight.
GHood Luck, God Bless……..I m rooting for you all the way!
Go Luna….Go Luna…..Go Luna…….Go Luna……Go Luna…….Go Luna….
smiles…Tom’s cunt….diana
They say 90% of snoring and sleep apnoea problems can be fixed simply by losing weight.
Good luck with it all!
P.S I’d like to jump on my soap box and suggest that ‘doing a diet’ isn’t the best thing and that changing your lifestyle for the long-term is the only sustainable thing, but I won’t. Everyone is different and what works for some people doesn’t work for others, so I’ll just shut up instead
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Have you tried exercising with resistance bands? I find that they can really help me to stretch out my back and feel a good bit of relaxation without the soreness. You can do a lot of the exercises from an upright position sitting in a chair.
Good luck.
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I haven’t tried resistance bands other than buying them. They live in my closet *blush* I know that once I strengthen my stomach walls my back will hurt less.