Master was sick for much of September… so was I. This lead to a dry spell in our sexual lives. Now that we are both well my period is only days away. So why is it that I am not interested in sex? Master is quite frustrated about it and brings it up often enough. It hurts me that I’m not interested and hurt still more that he’s not in the mood just to take what he needs from me, regardless of my emotions.
I don’t have a reason not to be horny. I spent a good 3 weeks without kissing the man I love, without caressing him and fondling him. I spent that time with pent up energy (and then sickness). Why I can’t spill it out now is beyond me.
This could be another result of my blahs that I’ve been feeling lately. Then again, they could not. I hate the idea of tacking all my issues onto one ‘excuse’ and calling it a day.
Master is still the sexiest man in my life. He enters my dreams and he sleeps naked in bed with me. I lust after him and I love being lusted after by him.
I told him yesterday that for sex to be fun for me I crave a bit of pain or something. That something being play of any sort. But I see now that I’ve not given him any clues as to my desires other than that; and worse yet I’ve been crabby with him even mentioning that I’ve not sexed him the way he wants for a few days.
The blowjob he got yesterday wasn’t half bad. I took me a bit to get into it, but in the end it was fun. I blindfolded him so that he couldn’t see my face… at first to mask the bored look… and then because he makes more noises that way. I love the noises. It’s hard to get him to make those noises during sex. He said he’s concentrating on other things then. Sure, I’ll buy that.
So what’s with me? I think hormones is one reason. My period is so near that I keep running to the bathroom with that sensation. You know what I’m talking about girls. And just as my period will start I can bet you that my horniness will go through the roof. And of course, he won’t use me then. So blowjobs and attention for him will have to tide him over.
Why can’t it be simpler? You want to fuck me, okay… go. Nah, there have to be expectations and emotions attached to it.
–luna
For me personally, whenever I am just totally not in the mood for anything sexual but still do it (whatever IT is) I usually start to come around and get aroused. At times like that it is not quite as hot or good as when I start out aroused, but it is still enjoyable for us both. As for the period…the closer mine gets, the more I crave sex of any kind…touching, words, sounds, motions, anything sexual. My period has never stopped Sir and I from engaging with each other…just need a towel. Sir has never been a man to allow anything, including that, to stop him. He says it is just more “lube for the tube”. Besides, sex during that time relieves cramps better than anything else. LOL.
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Unfortunately when it comes to period sex, we both can’t get over the ick factor, so it just doesn’t happen. We tried and it was a turn off for both of us.
I agree that if I just do it I can get aroused while participating but Master relies heavily on my mood and emotional state as to whether he even wants to try or not. It might be an age thing, he is quite young after all.
I understand the “ick” factor as I was really turned off about sex during that time in the beginning, but finally got over it. Not trying to be nosy here or anything, but I did not realize that your Sir was so young (now I want to ask how young-LOL). Lack of years does not always mean lack of experience or enthusiasm, as I am sure you know. I have known males of very tender adult years that were more Dom/Master to their subs/slaves than other males of more advanced years.
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He’s 25. I’ve been his only sexual partner and when I mean experience, I mean sexual experience. He’s quite looked up to and respected in the local scene for his Dominance. That he’s a natural.
i can understand the “ick” factor, too, but i must agree with poppet, nothing gets rid of menstrual cramps faster than an orgasm! Daddy and i usually use “that time of the month” for things like mutual masturbation (hooray for hitachi!) or He uses my hands or mouth. Actually, He’s not icked out at all – He finds it dirty to have sex with me during that time, or even go down on me! I think He probably delights in it specifically because it makes me feel so embarrassed.
The body’s hormones, especially for girlies, can really shut down sexually if you are inactive for periods of time ~ especially more than a week or two. Reactivating them can be tricky and awkward-ish, but anything that works, well, works! i personally like to spend some time mentally revisiting some of my favorite memories, fantasies, stories i’ve written for Daddy, etc. This is also one of the only times i might ask to touch myself or have a release by myself, so i can start to get back into the mood. Sometimes Daddy will notice before i do that my sexual energy is waning, and command me to masturbate. It works best if i can do it alone, at my own pace, such as in the shower with the nozzle set to my fav setting, or during my daily chain time in bed with the hitachi, so i can really take my time and feel totally relaxed. From what i’ve read on other blogs, some girls will look at porn online or watch porn videos to get back into the mood. Or, just making yourself do it anyway usually works, as long as you don’t mind the first few times feeling a little awkward or disconnected.
You mentioned before, not too long ago, that your M doesn’t really take you by force often, or doesn’t initiate as much as you would like, and prefers you to initiate regularly. Does this make it difficult for you to stay in a submissive mindset, or to overcome these kinds of obstacles?
We are working in the taking by force. It’s a part of our growth right now. I like the idea of being forced, but then there is the afterwards. We had a talk last night about the reaction he gets from me and how it makes him feel (thus the reason ‘taking what he wants’ doesn’t happen often). I’ll talk about is soon since I’m sure it will likely come up again.