Today I got up on time and did my exercise this morning. I felt good all day long because I had done that instead of putting it off. I know that if I had, I wouldn’t have done it. I’ve had 1800 calories today too; all good.
I don’t have a lot to say tonight I’ve realized. Master and I had an argument (thus the locked post below) but I think we are doing better now. If relationships were easy I don’t think people would be so picky to get what they want, they’d hop person to person.
Master means the world to me and I’ll do anything to make sure that he’s happy and that we work well together. The issues I currently have are with my own submission, and I’ve said several times before that I need to take my own advice that I write about so often. I know what I should be doing, but I’ve not done it. Master’s got issues with that, and right he should be.
I’ve got a long way to go, no doubt about it, and Master hasn’t given up on me yet; although I think he’s wanted to on occasion. That’s pretty committed I think. I’m sure we’ll just get closer as I mature and grow in my submission.
I’m not really submissive right now. I’ve not been a good girlfriend either. I’ve just not made the switch from grief to actual life again. I live the dream and yet I’m not living it. How in the world do people do it? Of course it’s hard to say for sure that the blogs I read and the people I look up to aren’t having similar problems. The beauty of blogging is that you can write about whatever you want. People could just keep the hard parts of their relationship out of the blog.