Went to the doctor today to ask about my meds that I’m currently on. We decided that I don’t need to be on the anti-depressant anymore so I’m going to wean off of it. I got another blood test for my thyroid to make sure I’m at the right level for that med too. He is also checking my blood sugars and doing a basic panel to make sure I’m not anemic or anything.
Then we talked about the fact that I’m still exhausted early in the day and need a nap almost daily to keep going past 9pm. My snoring has increased and I’ve gained 10 lbs since my last visit. He is scheduling a sleep study for me to diagnose/rule out sleep apnea. I’m guessing I have it, but not really something I want to have. He said that once I get decent sleep I’ll feel more energy and my metabolism will work to my advantage and the progress I’m making lifestyle wise will result in weight loss.
He brought up bariatric surgery again and I turned him down again. It’s just not the way I want to live my life. I’m going to make these changes for myself, not because I have to since I’ve altered my internal organs. Energy is the key here; once I recover what I once had I know I can drop weight really quickly. I lost 45 lbs in 6 months just 2 years ago and now that it’s all back plus some I know I can do it again. He is willing to do a doctor assisted plan where we’d use meds and support to help me lose weight, but I’m not willing to do that until we know if I have sleep apnea and how that might help my personal progress.
I’m applying for medical assistance to pay for the sleep study. I’ve brought up before that I can’t get insurance because of my BMI. If I can get it under 40 I can try again. Right now it’s at 48. That means losing 55 lbs. Ultimately I want to get to around 30. This would be right at my personal goal of 220 lbs. It seems so far away through.
So, plan is to track my food intake daily with FitDay.com starting tomorrow (since I can’t remember what I ate this morning). I will try to exercise at least 15 mins every single day with strength training 2 times a week. That’s the start. Ultimately I want to do 5 hours a week of exercise. Not sure on calories; the doctor said not more than 2000 but I don’t think I go much over that now, so I might do 1800. I’ll update my weight loss page to reflect my new tasks.
Hopefully more energy is on the horizon.
–luna
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Luna, I was listening to a radio interview by and expert and he was saying that none of sugar, fat, or salt on their own don’t cause us problems. It’s when we start combining them that they do things in our brains that can create cravings. I suspect that quality of sugar and fat is also important. I know on an individual basis it’s a lot more complex than that (I have a BMI of 35). Something for you to chew over.
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Luna–
I just wanted to let you know that I’ve been following your blog for a while now and enjoy reading your honesty. Your weight-loss battle in itself takes courage, but to describe it in great detail here takes even more. Best of luck to you and your Master.
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It’s always better to make some smaller goals and focus on those. The ultimate goal can seem a long way off so something more attainable is great for motivation. Maybe set yourself some ‘rewards’ at those interim goals too – new clothes, a haircut, a spa or something.
Do record everything you eat and be honest. Every little splash of milk in coffee and every little mouthful that doesn’t seem to count, does.
Do your profile on fitday and stick to the calories they recommend (don’t eat less because you want to lose weight quicker).
Good luck
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I just want to say I am so glad you did not take “the easy way out” and get surgery. I know several in my place of work that got it and it is not a cure all. Many lose a lot of weight but then learn to “graze” eat and gain weight back. They just keep eating small meals contiously so they get around their surgery so to speak.
I’ve never been interested in the surgery with all the risks. Hell, after surgery you are just ‘forced’ to change your lifestyle anyway, why not do it now and not change the way your internal organs are.
Master says that surgery would be a relationship breaker so it’s not going to happen anyhow.