I’ve been rather productive lately. It’s been a sigh of relief that Master’s paycheck showed up in time to pay some bills that were getting by erdue. I’ve also been able to get a few things to improve Master’s home and my comfort in it as well. Hopefully by the end of the week I’ll have the bedroom cleaned up and organized again like I’d prefer it to be. The living room is next on the organized list.

I feel so good to be able to get so much done every day. I think Master is happy with it also. Now to just stir my sexual emotions a bit too and he will be one pleased man. I’ve been so non-sexual lately that I think he thinks I forgot how to be sexy and desire sex. I want sex, I just don’t have a desire to try to get it… if that makes sense. Master isn’t going to show interest because I’ve been so off about it. I guess we are at a standstill.

I’m to exercise when I’m done writing this. It’s pretty late but I wasn’t reminded and didn’t remember. It just wasn’t on my mind at all (not a surprise). Hopefully I can do 30 mins again today. I’d like to increase it past 3 days a week after I can actually do 3 days a week

There are still my sad moments. I’ve noticed them coming to me more and more while in the car alone, or in the early part of the morning when I’m up before Master. I miss the people that meant so much to me that I’ve lost one way or another. It’s just so hard. So hard.

–luna