I’m hungry. It’s been quite a while since Master and I played more than just a little bondage or pain during sex. I am really craving an intense session. Master is more than willing to comply so I’m sure that it will be in my near future. The fantasy that I wrote about last week about the bag over my head is an actual event that will happen this weeknd too. I’m hoping that come Monday I’m recovering from play and sex and sensory overload.

It’s a myth that people who life 24/7 get to play and do play whenever they want to. I think Master and I average about once a month or so with an intense scene. Casual players actually get more than we do, but as far as role dynamics I’m certain that we have a lot of that. 24/7 does exist in this home and while so many believe that it doesn’t exist I find it hard to believe it wouldn’t.

Take for example husband and wife. Do you ever stop being one or the other without a divorce? Of course not. I feel it is the same for D/s. I’ve been spending a bit more time on FetLife since my decrease in activity. I’ve not participated a lot because there seems to be a lot of bickering and close-mindedness. I’m irked by it.

I’m in a group called Masters and slaves and while I don’t identify as a slave I feel the most… comfortable in there. At least most of the time. The other relationship oriented groups don’t seem to talk much about the actual relationship and focus more on the play. Really I could talk play stuff till I’m blue in the face, things don’t change there. Safety is rehashed over and over and the same questions are asked. Ugh.

I’d love to withdraw completely from some networks, but I know that they are vital for my budding Submissive Guide. I learn what novices are asking and try to address them in a timely manner. I have to have an endless supply of conversational topics in order to build value in my site. It’s what I care most about right now. It’s my work. Iron Gate may go through an evolution in the future too. It’s not being used the way I want it to be. Master had an excellent idea, now if I can find a CMS to implement it.

I see I got into a tangent. Oh well. Hopefully next week I’ll have some hot stories to tell and a HNT or two to share as well.