Reality Sets In

It’s been just over a week since I lost my job. I’ve been home everyday trying to learn a new way of living at home. I don’t have a routine started yet. I’m just trying to figure out my daily chores, work with Submissive Guide and trying to keep the dreams at bay.

That’s right. I’ve had some horrible dreams. All of them pertaining to my lack of work. Some of them are my old boss calling and asking desperately for help with something that I didn’t document that I do. My old co-workers calling to ask for help doing something. My loss of health insurance also plagues me now that I have a continuing need for thyroid meds and anti-depressants.

My step mom is nearing the end of her battle with cancer and I feel at a loss. I can’t go there like I had hoped now that I’m unemployed. I don’t know how to help my dad or comfort him. I’m still trying to comfort myself.

Hopefully next week I can do all of the housework that needs to be done and balance my website work too. I want to savor being home and being available for Master and serving him by caring for his house and his love. It’s just the start of the path.

–luna

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1. Mishmash
2. Mild Case of the Downs
3. A Weekend
4. Service Progress
5. The Hardest Thing…