Slave Training Lesson #4: Self-Reflective Impulses

The following exercise is to help develop a self-reflective mindset. Write whatever comes to mind first, answers are not carved in stone, and will be analzyed later in training. For now just write.

Exercise: Complete the following sentences.

I imagine myself as a slave being able to…serve Master completely and peacefully with my heart and mind always focused on his happiness because his happiness results in mine.

As a slave, I wouldn’t be allowed to…say no.

The idea that those things would be forbidden makes me feel…scared, intimidated and not ready to gie over that much control.

Just once in my life, I’d like to…wear a size 16.

I definitely would not want to…give up on my weight loss efforts.

In my sexiest private fantasy, I…am the lead in a gang bang with 3 or more black men. Usually it involves DP, or all holes filled at the same time. Just a fuck object.

I have a secret fetish for…trying CBT.

Being in a collar would make me feel…joyful and happy with the right person.

If I were forbidden to have an orgasm for a whole week, I’d…beg profusely when the week was up to have several!

When I masturbate, I often think about…nothing at all really. I’m so focused on how my body is responding and feeling I don’t make time to daydream.

I’d like to learn how to…make candy

Serving my Master or Mistress in public would make me feel…very special. I think part of me would be very horny, but also absolutely wonderful.

My most erotic memory is…the first time Master told me to not talk or make any noise, no moving while he fucked me. My first object space is still special for me.

I first learned about erotic slavehood when…I felt incomplete in my marriage and desired more for my self and sexual self.

My favorite book is…Blindness by Jose Saramago (no I haven’t seen the movie… yet).

My favorite movie is…Memoirs of a Geisha

In my free time, I most often…spend it on this blog! Amazing, right?

The thing I find most attractive in other people is…their smile.

My highest priority in life is…finding a way to not struggle with my submission any more.

Sometimes I doubt I’ll ever be able to…swallow semen without acting like it’s poison.

I think most of my romantic involvements have been…learning experiences and well worth it.

In the past, I was ashamed of…the way my body looks when naked.

I feel I’ve come to terms with…no longer being in my twenties.

If there’s one negative emotion I can’t handle it’s…helplessness.

When a person raises their voices to me, I…get defensive.

The three things I associate with silence are…peace, sadness and absence.

If pressed, I’d identify myself as…needy, high maintenance and annoyingly attention seeking.

The biggest influence on my erotic life has been…my Master.

I’d describe my spiritual life as…private prayer in desperate times.

I believe strongly that…gays should be allowed to marry, abortion should be legal, guns restricted and the US steer further away from church and state together.

I’d fight for the right to…express who I am sexually and openly.

I’ve only ever wanted to…allow my inner child to escape and finally be free.

Possibly related posts:

1. Training With Miss Abernathy and Lesson 1: What is a slave?
2. Lesson 2: What kind of slave am I?
3. Lesson 3: Strengths and Weaknesses
4. Slave Training #7: Obedience I, first steps toward mindfulness