December 2008

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Two Pina Coladas

I have my first paid vacation starting now with my job. I have a list of things I want to do for the break and know that I don’t think I’ll get through them all; I will try. I’d love to have been able to go somewhere sandy, with oceans and sun. Instead I’m home; going nowhere and it feels just as rejuvenating.

Master and I have a lot of kinky sexy fun play planned. I hope we can get to most if not all of that. It’s been a long time since we had that bonding intimacy. I think it’s time. Past time. Master wants kinky sex, rope play, wax play, flogging and spanking… the works. I’ll have to see what my body can handle.

We have a munch to go to tomorrow that I know I’m looking forward to. It’s a munch we’ve not been to yet in a group that I hope we can find more like-minded people. By like-minded this time I mean people that have the same or similar thoughts on this life as we do. It’s been hard to say the least; in the groups we are members to find those people not solely looking for a good play time. Learning and exploring the life, not the play, is what we want.

Perhaps that is why we are working on rebuilding the group that I have taken possession of. We hope to bring the group out into a rebirth in the fall. The website is slowly being developed in Master’s free time. What little of it he has.


PS: We played with the new Hitachi Wand, I’ll share my experiences soon :)

Now playing: Los Lonely Boys – Heaven
via FoxyTunes

Ads on BDSM is Love

If you visit my site, you may have noticed the square ad in the sidebar. I’m testing an ads system to try to cover some hosting costs for this site (and The Iron Gate). I’d really like to know your input. I have 2 options for ads.

1. The current ad system that shows the ads you see now.It has the ability to generate a small amount of money every month. In the 4 days I’ve had it on the site I’ve made $1.46.

2. A donate box option to try to encourage readers to donate to my website fund. A link to the donator’s site would be given for every donation. I don’t know how well this would do to generate some funds.

Please let me know what you think.


Newly Discovered Blogs


Behind the Collar

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Stumbling Down the Path

My alternative life

Robin’s Red Bottom

d.strangelove’s Blog

The Femmeninist Fucktoy

A Place to Draw Blood Laughing

A Submissive With Claws

Elegant Smut

Submissive Nya

TMI Tuesday #167

1. Last week was “The Most Wonderful time of the Year”, but what are your favorite 2008 memories? My birthday with Master and Sir Areli and Ayun; Yesterday because I filed for divorce after 5 years separated!
2. What is the best thing you learned in 2008? That it really is all about the small things. I’m so happy and it has nothing to do with the big things.
3. On a scale of 1-10, how good was your 2008? I’d have to say an 8.
4. What is your wish for 2009? What is your wish for someone else for 2009? My wish for 2009 is to feel even more relaxed about money and the fact that we have some now. My wish for someone else….hmm. There are so many I wish good things on. I wish the world inner peace.
5. Where was the first place you ever passionately kissed? In my dorm room in 1996. It was the first kiss I ever had.

Seven in One Day

Saturday was a lot of fun here at home. We both work up very horny and gave each other what we needed. During the afterglow later on in the day, I think perhaps the 3rd or 4th time we fucked, I casually mentioned that just a few more and he’d break my record of getting a man off 6 times in one day.

Of course that meant we had to break it that day, Master isn’t about to let a challenge go. We had a great time, and as a result my pussy is sore. This isn’t distracting to my sense of excitement though, as I’m sitting here thinking of more sex. I think we had sex 4 times on Saturday. I say I think because it’s all a sex crazed haze! I know that he got a blowjob and a handjob. I think the last one was shared masturbation. I sucked on his nipples and played with his balls while he got off. It was hot, very hot.

Something I’ve been fantasizing about recently is Master wearing a very tight pair of jeans, so tight that nothing is hidden. He wears gauntlets of some sort, either leather or rope and nothing else. Then I dream of him working me over, with pain and sex. I get all excited when I imagine him rubbing his crotch in my face. Must be the look of blue jeans or something.

Master doesn’t own a pair of pants that fit like that. I’m not sure I could convince him to get a pair. It’s definitely worth my fantasies of late.

My lust for Master just keeps building and we are so hot for each other. I love knowing that without a word Master can get turned on by just looking at me. I feel so desirable and sexy then. I hope it never fades. Laying in bed with him pulled close was sweet in itself, but to know that he had to go before ravaging me one more time, so that I could drift off to sleep was so powerfully moving and I felt so feminine and loved.


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For Christmas Master and I had a Domme friend over. We had a wonderful evening of food and friendship and conversation. She always brings new insights into my own submission, since she sees it from the outside and has admitted to reading every single blog post I have posted on my blog (now at over 1200). I can see that she looks to me for how she’d like her own submissive to behave and part of me is humbled by that.

I’ve had a hard time accepting that I can be a mentor, or a guide to other submissives, even as my blog begins to shape and form as I have. I do have a bit of experience that I can share, and would love to share. I guess what always gets me hung up is that I know there are other submissives out there that I look up to as well. Do I match up? Should I even be comparing?

One of the things she said last night really struck me as the best compliment I have ever received. She said I had a grace about me when I serve that she has never seen before and finds quite lovely. I was practically without words. I did thank her for saying so, but was searching to see in me what she saw.

I admit that I try to find the beauty in serving and to show that my submission is complete for my Master. I do not know if that is done elegantly, but it is done as fully as possible. I’m very open in my expressions, which Master loves to bring out of me even more.

So, having someone I admire and respect tell me that I have grace has made me more aware of how I treat my service and how it is viewed by others. Also, this does give me license to open my mind and heart to other submissives for guidance and mentorship. Do I have the knowledge and ability to express myself non-judgmentally when asked very heart-felt, deep questions? These are the questions I now seek answers for.

The grace and beauty of service is my upmost goal. If this is how others see me, perhaps I am nearing my ultimate happiness even now.


OMG, I found this online, and laughed so freakin’ hard! I had to share it with all of you.


Sex Challenge Results

It’s been quite a while since the end of the Sex Challenge, but I thought I’d let everyone know what our results were.

We had to stop early because my PMS was worse than previous months and Master developed migraines that had him in bed for several days.

We did it for almost 3 weeks, averaging twice a day. I can say that near the end my poor pussy wanted a break. Master and I aren’t the slow and gentle type, so I was aching. We had to resort to lube on several occasions.

The sex was great, some of it out of this world great. I’m glad we tried this challenge as I think it has helped me voice my sexual desire more and am not afraid to say that I need sex.

Master just loved the sex.


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