I’m so fat. I’m annoyed and frustrated. It’s my own damn fault but I have to get going again and I have to admit I can’t do it alone anymore. Master wants to help me so he’s going to exercise with me. It’s going to be hard because Master hasn’t liked exercising before. I’m also going to really track what I eat as best as possible.
According to data and facts I need to be eating 2250 calories everyday, 150 oz of water and exercising at least 90 mins each week building to 200 minutes.
Since I feel better when I have people helping me and supporting me, I’m opening up my email box for anyone that wants to write me, send me encouragement and support. I’m looking for people willing to keep me in check, offer me advice and allow me to whine when I need to.
Currently the scale doesn’t even record my weight anymore. I’m going to have Master do my measurements tomorrow after work. I’ll have to follow those for awhile until I’m ready to step on the scale again.
I’m trying to decide if I should not have my diet struggles on my blog here (at least the main page). I might filter them and if you would want to follow you’d have to go to the skinny thoughts category or feed.
So, here I am, frustrated, sad, hating myself right now.
–luna
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luna – I’m telling you, there needs to be some sort of weightloss/health forum for the subs and slaves. I’m sure all of us would do better with a group to be accountable to. Maybe a joint blog with whoever is interested in participating? Or is this something that could be run from the Sensual Service site? I’m nowhere near as tecnho-savvy as you, but would love to see this happen. Let me know if you have any suggestions???
I realized a little bit ago that I’ve eaten twice since Wed – a slice of pizza on Fri and a piece of quiche today. Having no one to be accountable to (Master believes this is something I should retain control on – he wants me to do it myself) is probably the biggest problem for me…
lalana
lalana– Something like that does exist in several places. I run the Healthy and Kinky group on FetLife and there is a lot of support there when I need it. There is also a subs only weight loss group on http://www.taking-it-off.com. I was a member there for a time too.
Right now it’s more on my end of things that it’s not working. I haven’t been tracking anything and not exercising near enough. I asked Master to make me accountable. We’ll see how I do.
Hey luna, I just started Weight Watchers with my mother in law. I have a hard time when theres no one there to push me. I know I’m like, super far away, but wanna team up? I can give some great recipes that actually taste pretty good and we can be each others support if you like.
know what?? i have been trying to fool myself into thinking being heavy isn’t such a BIG deal…….. but recently i have been getting sadder and more depressed about “letting myself go”……. i would like very much to have someone to work out with… to watch food with………. i tried doing it on my blog.. hoping to shame myself into sticking to at least an exercise regime.. but that didn’t work.. i stopped posting my exercise times and no one even noticed.. or said anything..
if you can figure out a way to do this privately – at least for me – i will be your cheering section if you will be mine !!!
morningstar (owned by Warren)
ps.. Sir has been losing weight – and claims He isn’t doing anything special – i HATE people with great metabolism !!!
morningstars last blog post..Monday Morning Report..
morningstar– I’m always willing to find more support buddies and I think that we could come up with a way to keep each other focused. How does emailing each other sound? You can contact me via my contact form here and I can start keeping us on our toes. I look forward to healthier outlooks together.
Hey girl, don’t give up. At least you are trying to the natural way instead of getting surgery.
It’s just like when someone quits smoking, you have to be ready for this. It is a life changing thing losing much weight. I did it when I was 30 and I did great, got to my goal weight, and now am fat again, so I have to start all over again. UGH. I have been procrastinating hard core and need to get busy!!
Measuring is much better than weighing yourself.
Good luck babe!
Yeah, I think I’m going to stop weighing for a long while and focus on measurements and the way I’m feeling. I’ve obsessed way to long about pounds; I’ll leave that to my Dr to do.
Hey Luna,
I just wanted to second the weight watchers suggestion. I was 245 pounds at my heaviest and now I’m down to 145 pounds and have mostly kept the weight off for many years. Most of the weight I lost on my own by exercising more and changing my diet. But when I lost some of my motivation, I found weight watchers was a really good way to keep myself accountable and remind myself of the importance of losing weight. I also found that they gave me a structure for what I would need to do to lose the weight and it was something that I could just follow. My mother has had similar success with WW and has lost and kept off 70 pounds of weight loss.
I know that 95% of people who lose weight gain it back, so there really is no magic diet formula. But, I did find weight watchers to be the one that worked for me. (Ok, I just read this over and realized that this sounds like an endorsement, but I’m not affiliated with weight watchers in anyway. I was just compelled to comment because I’ve had some weight loss success and I know it’s a big struggle.)
–Katie
The most cost effective way for me right now is to do it without paying a club or membership somewhere. I’m sure that these systems work or they wouldn’t exist for any length of time. I just am thinking that I can do this on my own, but with support from those around me that love me. Thank you for your suggestion though, it has not fallen on deaf ears… just poor ones
i’m not going to tell you what to do because that never works. Nobody likes being bossed around when it comes to their food.
You have to decide what is more important to you, the food or being thinner.
Every time you want to overeat or have a snack you should ask yourself that question.
Well it works for me, but everyone is different, it’s just an idea.
Next, i don’t know how tall you are but you do realize that 3500 calories equals 1 pound right?
If you keep eating 2500 calories a day, i’ll tell you right now, you will NEVER lose weight.
That is too much.
I’ll send you a the link for you to estimate calories online, it’s pretty cool, it helped me.
I wish you the best of luck and write anytime if you want to.
Sincerely,
Monique
Monique, I do know how much one pound of fat is. I also know that at 6 ft tall and 350 lbs, my body needs 2500 calories to function (Basal Metabolic Rate). That’s before any activity. If I laid around all day, I’d still need that much to keep my organs working and the blood pumping. That’s what the dietitian said. I’m to eat at least 2200 calories a day for my body to think it’s getting enough food to operate. Once it thinks it is getting enough it will know to burn fat cells for any deficit I create.
I also wanted to add that according to my doctor and my requested goal weight, that once I reach my goal I’m not to eat less than 1800 calories since my basal rate will be at 1725. That’s for my goal weight. I’m 150 lbs more than that right now, you can’t lose weight, as I’ve discovered, by dropping down to your goal intake right away. Baby steps!
Yeah you’re a tall girl. Well if you’re working with a doctor you should be able to do. Good luck girl, hugs. xx
Luna,
Like you, I have been advised to eat more than I am hungry for. In the past several months my BMI has increased nearly a point, and at only 5 ft tall, I was shocked to discover that I need to add nearly 700 calories to my diet in order to be eating enough. I don’t get it, I am morbidly obese, and the nutritionist I met with two weeks ago wants me to eat MORE??
I am really struggling with this. Once the formula for how the caloric need was explained to me, I understood why I need to eat more, but in practice this is very challenging. I don’t have any good answers for making it work, only that I know how it feels to listen to the world scoff at my need to eat more, when popular knowledge says that doing so is why I am so fat to begin with. I am supposed to lose over 100 lbs in order to be healthy. That’s over 50% of my current weight. I am not sure I am ready to give up half of me, much less do so in a way that leaves me overly full all of the time. While the equation makes sense, the emotions aren’t following suit. There is no question that this isn’t easy.
*hugs*
-Areli.
Well, blood tests are back and I have a reason to be frustrated. I have hypothyroidism. Which does mean that I’m eating a bit too much but not that much. I have to step up the exercise more than I care to, but maybe then I will develop a new hobby? Who knows.
Luna,
Anything you need from me you can have. I lost 40 pounds about 2 years ago from a combination of drugs, (phentermine, which is an appetite supressant) and exercise, specifically Curves. 40 pounds may not seem like a huge amount but I am very short. 5′2″ so it made a huge difference. It is hard but worth it.
msbehaves