I finally listened to the specialists in the field (and Master) that I wasn’t eating enough balanced calories to even start to lose weight. For four years I’ve not eaten more than 2000 calories. For most people that is plenty to stay healthy. Because I’m starting at a much higher weight, I should be eating more in order to maintain and then to start losing.
The most trusted calculator says I should be eating 2600 calories a day for weight loss and over 3000 if I want to maintain my current weight. 2000 calories happens to be what I should be at for my goal weight. Obviously with almost 150 lbs I want to lose I’m eating way too little.
So right now I’m working on increasing my caloric intake. The stress is that as I increase it, I gain some weight. The reason this happens is because my body has been in starvation mode, so if I give my body more food it thinks it needs to keep it in case I starve it again. Once it realizes that I’m going to be feeding it enough then it will start to lose the weight.
Until then I feel so very fat. My knees hurt, my back hurts, my clothing doesn’t fit well. I just feel icky.
I’ve started really kicking in the exercise every other day to start, but I want to make it to everyday (except Sunday). When I can do that I will feel that I’m making a difference. Hopefully I can get going on the weight loss by the end of the year.
–luna
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Having a metabolism screwed up by long term starvation mode SUCKS. I eat like an anorexic, but don’t look anything like one… I’m one of those “unclassified” eating disorder types. I’ll eat dinner on Tuesday, then not think of food again until Friday. Yes, you read that right. So my body is in constant starvation mode, never knowing when it’s going to get fed again. Master wants me to start eating better, so I’ve been reminding myself to eat at least 1-2 times per day, even if it’s only a granola bar or soup. Just something in my stomach. I did manage to lose about 15 lbs last time just by sticking to a basic weight watchers plan and walking 9 miles a week, but drifted away from it just like I always do. Master’s going to be getting me a treadmill soon, and I’m getting better with the eating, so things are looking up. I have about 20-30 lbs to lose, and am determined to do it. This time, it’s not about doing it for me – that’s never been enough motivation. I’m doing it because it’s what Master wants… that should be enough to keep me going
wishing you luck…
lalana
You can do it! I’ll be here cheering you on.
YES SOME PEOPLE THINK DO EAT LIKE BIRDS BUT YOU NEED PROTIEN AND YOU STILL NEED MEAT LIKE IN STEAD OF BUGERS TRY TURKEY BURGERS, bannana have no fat in them at all stay a way from pop thats what makes us all get that blout in are belly try chrytal light because thierd a taste in with water. you are a beautiful person you just wanna be happy i understand im a slave to my master I go on the tread mill every day for 50 mines i do 100 situps i gain weight then i have to lose it again your heathy you just want to be healther luna grapefruit is a friut that after you ate some fatting things grape friut takes the fat out after you eat it i no i haD TO LOOK THIS UP FOR MY SELF YOU DONT NEED TO SWEAT EVERY DAY JUST DO IT 3 TIMES A WEEK JUST SAY I CAN DO IT HAVE A FRIEND DO IT WITH YOU THIS HELP I USE TO GO WITH MY FRIEND TO THE GYM. WELL I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY I HOPE TO BECOME YOUR FRIEND FROM CHRISTINA
I can attest to the truth of what you write! In my teens, I was, at times, anorexic or bulimic. Your body does go into starvation mode, which can be so frustrating because even if it enables you to get to your target weight, you then instantly put on pounds as soon as you eat a little more. But if there’s one thing I know, it’s that your body eventually resets its metabolic rate…you can eventually eat a normal amount of calories without gaining weight.
I’ve needed to lose some weight for the past year or so, and after unsuccessfully dieting, I finally realized that I just need to suck it up and exercise more. For years I was able to control my weight in a healthy manner by jogging 3 miles a day. Then I stopped jogging because of an injury and started to gain weight–but I denied to myself that my lack of exercise had anything to do with it! It must be my screwy metabolism, I told myself. My doctor was even convinced! Recently I started exercising–5 days a week, without fail, including 3 days jogging and 2 days lifting weights–and I have to admit that it works. (And the bonus is, it boosts my metabolism!) I’m also paying attention to my calories, even if some days it means that I have to tell myself, “You haven’t eaten enough calories today. Sit down right now and have a bowl of cereal.” But the proof is in the pudding (oh, bad diet pun!) and I’m gradually losing weight in a healthy way without starving myself.
Good luck with eating more calories. You just have to get past the temporary frustration that comes with it, and keep reminding yourself that it’s a necessary step in the journey toward losing weight and keeping it off.
I was so frustrated when I found out I wasn’t eating enough. So many people I see dieting are eating like birds and I’m piling on the food to make it to 2600 calories in a day.
I haven’t gained any more weight than the 5 lbs at the start of the food change, and the exercise is going well so I think I can start losing by the end of the year. *cross fingers*
I was going to try a weight watchers meeting, but they scare me – all the emotional stuff about why you want to lose, etc. I can’t see the response “Because Master said I have to” as being received very well
Think I’m going to go back and read the rest of your “Skinny Thoughts”, luna.
**hugs**
lalana
Its hard to lose good luck, I’ll be cheering for you