Favorite Quote: “A slave’s life is mostly composed of patience and study. Yes, study. If not with actual books, then following the example of greater, senior slaves. Or learning every nuance of their owner’s character, so that they can more completely and seamlessly offer themselves at the right time and in the right manner.” Laura Antoniou
When I first read this quote I didn’t really believe it. I thought that everyone had to learn by themselves and just take on the advice of others. Little did I know that I would one day find myself looking to the ways other submissives and slaves carry themselves in order to enhance my own submission.
I’ve been working slowly through the Slave Training Guide by Miss Abernathy. I think it could be a huge help for my focus and desire to learn to be better. I have a lot of goals in mind and I think I have some motivation to get started on them. I’ve constantly starting and stopping, and then starting again. I had one person say that it takes a week to set up a habit, 21 days for a routine and just 2 days to break it all. Not sure if I believe a lick of it.
I’ve always wanted to be better domestically. I’m domestically challenged and have written about it here on numerous occasions. I’ve asked how to get started even though I’m sure I know the answer. Just do it. Plan a small thing each and every day and just do it. I have started a Home Care Journal and I do have each day listed with chores to accomplish, but I’ve not been able to carry them out for some lame excuse or another. It’s about time it stops.
When the house is a mess I don’t feel submissive, I don’t feel open to Master’s command and I don’t want to play. It drags me down. So why don’t I make caring for the home a priority? Gods I don’t know.
I’ve been lazy forever. I should make it stop by working on what I know is right to do. Exemplary submissives and slaves will clean because it makes them happy to be of service to their Dominant in that manner. I feel that way too when I’ve accomplished all the cleaning. Why can’t I desire that attention more often?
I know I can do it.
There are also things I’d like to start doing. I want to begin recycling and have asked Master for help in that. I want to learn how to do basic canning and perservation of food. I want to conserve energy and use natural cleaning products. I want to learn to budget better. I’d like to start my BDSM crafting business. I’d like to be able to have time to be fully in the moment and just serve.
So as I see all that I want to study, all that I’d like to do and I watch or read other submissives doing it, I’m somewhat jealous, but also know that if they can do it, so can I. They had to start where I did and look where they are now. I can be there. I can impress. I can serve.
I will serve and one day I will bring more pride to my Master with what I can accomplish.