Here is my list of newly discovered blogs within the BDSM blogosphere! I have found them very interesting and enjoyable to read. I hope you will enjoy them and feel free to leave a comment or two. You just may find a new favorite blog!
A Good Girl’s Log of Accountability
Dark, Deep & Deviant
I weighed in this week 5.5 lbs lighter! Yay, I’m well on my way to 20 lbs lost by Christmas. I’m so happy.
I didn’t do a minute of extra exercise because of my back pain, but I did really good with the food intake and is shows. I know I can do this. Just 5 more lbs and people will start noticing the change and my pants aught to fight a lot better.
Master has said he is proud of me and I am so proud of myself. I’ve never been so boosted as I have been this week with my efforts. Just more of the same to come.
Maybe even more than 20 lbs by Christmas, I can dream can’t I?
–luna
Ann asks: i was asked recently to list ways i enjoy giving service to my master and i listed many things i know he likes but i struggled with my “own” things i enjoy doing for him, partly because i just enjoy bringing him pleasure it really isnt what i do it’s the fact he get some kind of pleasure…. so my question is what kinds of thing do you do day-to-day for your master? that you enjoy?
Ann is right that a lot of what I do for service are things that I know that Master enjoys and while I don’t have to enjoy them I do them so that he is pleased and pleasured. I’ve had to really focus at times to serve him in ways that I either don’t want to do or just don’t have the desire to do. He knows when I’m just serving to serve and there are no emotions behind it. My service suffers for that.
There are things that I enjoy doing. I enjoy ordering Master’s food at restaurants and making sure it comes out correct. I am mortified if I have ordered it wrong or it comes out wrong and he says it’s okay and he doesn’t want me to correct it.
I like being the one to take care of Master’s house. I’m not a great housekeeper but I’m working on it and I get a thrill knowing that the house he is in all day long working and playing is clean and tidy. As I said, I’m working on making it better though.
I really enjoy Sunday night foot rubs. I get into giving Master the best massage of the week and he enjoys it immensely and looks forward to Sunday nights all week long. It’s a very intimate time and we connect really well during that.
Occasionally I will enjoy fetching his drink for him (usually coffee). I like cooking for him when it’s something special or home-made that he loves.
I’ve been looking into more ways to serve him and have some in mind for further development. He likes that I am looking for more to please him and he feels that it’s a good time to increase what we do.
–luna
Meditation Monday is for me to be able to see my relationship through your eyes. I do hope to get questions or thoughts so that I can continue to journey. Please feel free to comment here with questions, or if you want to be more private, use my contact page up at the top and email me. I’d love to know your thoughts and hear your questions.
Our 4 year anniversary is coming up in just over a week. I can’t believe that 4 years ago I was meeting a man for the first time and he would never go home. It’s been a wild and wonderful ride, one that I hope never ends. Last night he asked me if I ever think we might be a couple that is together forever. Oh yes, I do and it fills me with such happiness and awe.
We don’t fight. It may seem to some that it’s a lie, but what I tell on this blog is the truth and I would certainly be talking about fights too if we had them. We do disagree from time to time but it’s always elevated civility and never gets to yelling or worse. I never thought a relationship would be a rock solid as ours is.
Yesterday I was going through a really hard time and was more depressed and needy than I had been in a long while. Without a thought, Master took the day off work and spent it with me. Sitting with me, laying with me when I needed to lay down or rest, and just being there. We hugged a lot and kissed a lot and fucked frequently. Whatever I looked like I needed he gave, just to help me though my day. I would have never gotten that in past relationships.
I’m a lot better today, I’m feeling more normal and I think I have Master’s constant attention yesterday to thank for it.
If any of you recall there was a time in 2005 where our financial hardship was intense. I made a bad choice and wrote a rubber check for a vetrinary bill. My cat was dying and needed to stay overnight for medication and healing. Well this check has come back to bite me. I have a court date for the 16th and am in need of a lawyer. I’ve never had to look for a lawyer before. What kind of questions do you ask? How much is too much for a retainer? The phone book has pages and pages of attorneys, where do I start– with A?
–luna
Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at BDSM is Love. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
Have you ever faked an orgasm? Did your partner know or find out? How do you feel about faking it in a D/s relationship?
Have you ever given false responses during play; for example moaning a little louder than the strike really felt like, or squirming extra because you think the Top might enjoy it? How do you feel about being overly expressive during play?
My step sister S. and I aren’t close in the sense that we see each other often, but I do read her blog on LiveJournal and she might read mine (I don’t know). We never grew up together as we were both old enough to care for ourselves when her mom and my dad found each other. It’s been 16 years that they’ve been together and I can say that my dad has never been happier than with her.
About 2 months ago, I read on S.’s blog that her mom was ill, very ill. At the time she was in the hospital having fluid drained from her lungs. I was concerned. When I called my dad he had tough news. K was diagnosed with cancer. Two weeks later, we found out that it was nearly end stage Mesothelioma. This is the cancer related to asbestos inhalation. No one knows where she could have picked it up. She’s estimated to have 6 months to 5 years remaining. She’s in a lot of pain and suffering tremendously.
When I heard that I had very conflicting feelings. I’m not really close to my dad, and by extension, K. But I was close enough to consider her a mother figure when my own mother failed me. I know how happy my dad has been with her and am so very grateful for her presence in his life.
I’m struggling with grief for someone I don’t know well, and worry and anxiety for my father, who will lose his wife sooner rather than later. They are only in their 50′s. I see how S. is fraught with stress and worry and sadness and I wish I could feel the same way for her and for K. Why can’t I feel the way she is? Is it because I’m not as close? I worry how my father will take the inevitable. How will I? The last death I remember was my grandmother and it was/is hard when I remember her. Just hard.
I’ve asked work about the grief policy in case my father asks to have me come out for the funeral to make sure that it can be applied to stepfamily. Thankfully, even though it isn’t in the policy, my manager would make the exception since I’ve let him know well in advance. I’d get 3 days bereavement pay to go out there (Virginia) to be with him and for him.
Right now things are really up in the air. He knows I’m here for him, but so far away yet. I wish I could do more, say more, make something mean more. It’s such a helpless feeling.
–luna
On September 18th, YouTube pulled the TKB videos of bondage and knot tutorials. This has caused a huge ripple throughout the bondage arena. The boys themselves have given away these videos under a Creative Commons license and wants us to share them and upload them, host them and file them wherever we think they are needed. We are pulling together to get their videos out there so that we don’t lose the resource we have in them.
If you have ever learned anything from a Two Knotty Boys video, please consider downloading the set and sharing them anyway you can. Below is a link where you can download them from Rapidshare.com or a Torrent (the better option) Please, please seed this as much as you can once you download it so that others can get it too!
Let’s help these videos spread like wildfire across the internet!
Mediation Monday: What do I think about when getting a spanking? What does Master think about while spanking me? Do I even think at all?
Well, this is an interesting question and one that I really had to think about in order to know how to answer this. I thought it would be fun!
When Master is spanking me my mind does a lot of racing. Honestly not all of it is the spanking related. Here’s just some of my random thoughts that plague me when I’m ass up. Some, in fact most, are funny as hell out of context.
“Maybe I should clench my cheeks so that it doesn’t jiggle.”
“Not that spot!”
“Spank me harder”
“Not so hard!”
“I wonder what toy that is.”
“I hope he doesn’t use that toy.”
“Oh god I want him to use that toy!”
“Should I move the hair out of my eyes?”
“We need to change the sheets today.”
“Oh, no I need to fart.”
“I hope I look sexy like this.”
“Oh that was good!”
“Oh that was bad!”
“When is my next vacation day.”
“Pizza sounds good for dinner tonight.”
“Can we have sex after this?”
“Can we have sex during this?”
“Am I turning Master on?”
“How can I turn Master on.”
“You could roast marshmellows on the heat radiating from my ass right now.”
“Go faster!”
“Stop rubbing in between swats.”
“Bastard.”
“Asshole.”
“You can take this, absorb the pain, enjoy it, love it, let it become all you feel.”
“I hope Master lets me nap after this.”
“I’m going to be so giddy after this!”
“Ouch”
“Stop please”
“Don’t stop!”
Now as to what Master is thinking, I haven’t a clue. He’ll have to comment on this if he wants to participate.
–luna
This week was the first week of the Christmas challenge I have going in the Healthy and Kinky group on FetLife.com. There have been a lot of fabulous people working hard to change their habits and bodies in time for the holidays and for a better future.
My week has been pretty focused. I did exercise 3 days this week. I had hoped for more but my period started and instead of cramps I got a massive lower back ache that had me wishing I could just stay in bed most the day. So instead I focused on my eating and water intake.
The good news is that I averaged 1832 calories for the week with 110 oz of water daily. That’s a massive change from the 2200 calories I was at.
But the best news is that today was weigh in day and I lost 3 lbs! Just 17 more to go to meet the challenge goal, but my overall goal is quite a way from this, it’s just the jumping off point.
Here’s to another fantastic week with hopefully more exercise!
–luna
The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #148? Submit a link to your best post of the week by emailing me directly at radicalvixenatgmaildotcom Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.
This Week’s Picks
Amazing
““You’re lucky I’m not being mean right now.””
Cum Squirt With Me. Confession #131
“Not much research has been done on the female orgasm in general, much less this seemingly new erotic marvel.”
Jealousy, Pornography and the Boundaries of Blogging
“I search to be a sexually free, independent and satisfied woman without the stigma of slut yet with the positive implications of slut.”
Mr. Sugasm Himself
Sugar Bank
Editor’s Choice
Blue Fantasy, Red Silk Rope
See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.
All over the internet there are several common questions and topics that get exhausted to the point of being mute. Some of these I’ve even written about here. Topics that get batted around the blogosphere and kinkosphere often are submissive vs slave, SCC vs RACK, BDSM and abuse, True and Real to name a few.
Another common discussion is the idea of the name/title of Master. I’ve heard it all.
“You can’t be a Master without a slave.”
“You can’t call your Dominant, Master without defining yourself as a slave.”
“That title has to be earned.”
“You aren’t a true Master because…” (don’t get me started on ‘true-ness’ again)
“Master isn’t a title it’s a personality characteristic; you either are or you aren’t”
Blah. Blah. Blah.
All of these things really irk me to no end. First, there is no universal definition of a Master other than the dictionary definition which if taken from Merriam-Webster is (please note the definition in bold):
1 a (1): a male teacher (2): a person holding an academic degree higher than a bachelor’s but lower than a doctor’s boften capitalized : a revered religious leader c: a worker or artisan qualified to teach apprentices d (1): an artist, performer, or player of consummate skill(2): a great figure of the past (as in science or art) whose work serves as a model or ideal2 a: one having authority over another : ruler , governor b: one that conquers or masters : victor , superior <in the new challenger the champion found his master> c: a person licensed to command a merchant ship d (1): one having control (2): an owner especially of a slave or animal e: the employer especially of a servant f (1)dialect : husband (2): the male head of a household3 a (1)archaic : mr. (2): a youth or boy too young to be called mister —used as a title b: the eldest son of a Scottish viscount or baron4 a: a presiding officer in an institution or society (as a college) b: any of several officers of court appointed to assist (as by hearing and reporting) a judge5 a: a master mechanism or device b: an original from which copies can be made ; especially : a master recording (as a magnetic tape)
If we reserve ourselves to the only definition that I really care about, it appears that anyone that owns or has control over a person in any aspect can be a master. I don’t really agree with the Dominants that call themselves Master just because they like to hear it. However if someone is an owner and Dominant to someone, by all means you can have the title or name of Master. There is nothing keeping them from that.
Now can you be a Master if you can’t manage yourself? This question can also be directed to Dominants and I’ve actually talked about this before. A Dominant person in a relationship should have more control over themselves and be even quietly visible in public as someone in control. It’s just one of the qualities that should be more prominent in a Dominant, I think.
Master wouldn’t be a master without me. I don’t think you can be an unattached master, unless you a master at something (craft, art, etc). It just doesn’t fit. I don’t really feel you can be a slave without a Master either. You can have slave tendencies and want to be a slave, but until you can give yourself over to another, you aren’t a slave.
I know this is going to stir a lot of people to disagreement, and that’s fine, but be prepared to explain your side fully so that I can see your opinion completely. I’m just that way.
–luna
Master is great. He’s pleased with what I’m learning, he praises my progress, never forgets (almost) to say thank you for something he has requested. I feel like I’m treated like a princess or an angel. And sometimes I feel like I’m a gently used submissive. Don’t get me wrong, I love how he makes me feel.
The other night while I was pleasuring Master with my hands he asked if I ever fantasized about him being forceful and making me do something he knows I dislike or that causes the fear factor in me to rise. Until that moment, I really hadn’t. Since then I just can’t seem to get those thoughts and the attached fear out of my head. Something about it turns me on.
Do I really think that his being forceful is a turn on or is the fear? Can I accept the times he’s forceful for what they are, a display of his dominance over me, or will I panic with fear? How can we test these waters safely? Do we want to? Shouldn’t I be working to give him what he wants so that he doesn’t have to take it from me?
In all of this, I really have to see that there are situations where I come to Master without the desire to serve him as he’d like, blow jobs being the sticking point more often than anything else. He’s been overly patient with me I think because he gets damn good ones when I am in the mood and I have developed the ability to accept them as a part of my service most of the time. I can see that I have progressed from a year ago and hopefully he can to.
Then again, I wonder if his acceptance that I don’t WANT to do it at certain moments is helping or hindering my development. He rarely makes me do something I don’t want to do, mainly because I have a bad attitude when I do it then. However I also think that in my submissive brain I think that I’m topping him if my attitude is keeping him from what he wants or expects.
Like this blow job for reference. He wanted one Friday but we never got around to it. Saturday he asked for it, but I somehow asked if we could do it Sunday after his ritual foot massage. Then Sunday came around and I didn’t want to do it then either. He said that was fine and now it’s pushed to Monday. At some point he’s going to get frustrated because I’m not in the mood.
Perhaps it has come to the point that I need to be made to do things at the time they are requested or I get punished. Wouldn’t it be obedient of me to just do it when he says to do it? Why do I still have a hang up over somethings? Is there anything we can do to progress my training in swift obedience? Do I need to be forced and pushed to that level? How long does he have to put up with my lack of submissive desire?
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Okay so after some thought I really should answer those mental questions I have.
Wouldn’t it be obedient of me to just do it when he says to do it? Yes, yes it would and be the ultimate goal, but I didn’t come this far to give up now. It’s those baby steps that are killing me. I want to be there already!
Why do I still have a hang up over somethings? Because things aren’t easy and I fight the hard road to total submission to my Master. I figure the hang ups are the challenges to another level and if I can just get over them one at a time I will get to where I want to be.
Is there anything we can do to progress my training in swift obedience? This is probably best answered by Master. He’s better with my training plan than I am.
Do I need to be forced and pushed to that level? Yes, probably. I won’t do it on my own I don’t think.
How long does he have to put up with my lack of submissive desire? He shouldn’t have to and facing this fact is a step towards not having to do it any more.
–luna
Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at BDSM is Love. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
What’s the hardest thing about being a bottom/submissive/slave or top/dominant/master? How do you work on overcoming that challenge?
DSM Revision Petition
The DSM Revision Petition is gathering signatures from individuals and organizations calling on the American Psychiatric Association (APA) to adhere to empirical research when revising the diagnoses in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM).
Statements currently within the DSM Paraphilias criteria are contradicted by scientific evidence therefore NCSF must conclude that the interpretation of the Paraphilias criteria has been politically – not scientifically – based. This politically motivated interpretation subjects BDSM practitioners, fetishists and cross-dressers to bias, discrimination and social sanctions without any scientific basis.
Petition:
“We, the undersigned, support the American Psychiatric Association’s (APA) own goal of making its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM) a scientific document, based on empirical research and devoid of cultural bias. A diagnosis of a mental disorder can have a severe adverse impact on employment opportunities, child custody determinations, an individual’s well-being, and other areas of functioning. Therefore we urge the APA to remove all diagnoses that are not based upon peer-reviewed, empirical research, demonstrating distress or dysfunction, from the DSM. The APA specifically should not promote current social norms or values as a basis for clinical judgments.”
To sign, go to: www.thepetitionsite.com/1/DSMrevisionpetition
(You can make your signature anonymous on this secure petition site so it doesn’t appear on the Internet)
To find out more about the DSM and the Paraphilias section, read the NCSF & ITCR: The Foundation for NCSF’s “White Paper on the DSM Revision” at www.ncsfreedom.org
For more information, email: DSMrevisionpetition@yahoo.com
Please distribute to organizations and individuals and ask them to sign on!
I’d hate to think that it’s inevitable, but sooner or later we may have to encounter law enforcement at our door due to nosey neighbors or medical personnel because of a mishap when playing. Knowing what to say to these authorities could keep you safe, protected and make sure that they have some understanding as to your bedroom proclivities.
I’ve read in other places that you should say nothing and share nothing. Also that questions should not be answered without a lawyer. I tend to disagree. I’m not saying that you have to completely disclose everything you do, but if it has bearing on the reason for their visit. The more information you provide the easier it will be for everyone involved.
So, what should you do in a medical emergency and the Ambulance personnel are asking questions as to what happened in order to establish a baseline, I’d be straightforward and honest so that they can have all the information possible.
“We engage in kinky sex and I had tied him/her up by the wrists/ankles like this (show pose). We were enjoying ourselves immensely when s/he stopped breathing and I couldn’t wake him/her up.” This gives the personnel much more information as to the state of the person prior to the incident than just saying they stopped breathing and you didn’t know what happened. What if they had poor blood circulation and the bondage caused them to faint of lose consciousness? This information would be vital to have. Hiding could mean you have something more to hide…. like non-consensual play.
Police officers have another reason to be there. Typically there has been a disturbance call or a concern for someone’s welfare at the location. Thankfully there is a Tips and FAQs provided by the National Coalition for Sexual Freedom that should help you in case the police are at your door. Be polite and respectful. If you were in the middle of play, make sure that everyone is attended to (if someone is tied up, let them know you would like to get them down). You do not have to volunteer information to the officer. If they intend to arrest you, ask for a lawyer immediately. Don’t resist. Anything volunteered before a lawyer could affect your case later, especially if you are innocent.
I actually spoke to the Sheriff when I first started engaging in BDSM play since he lives 5 houses away and I’m in an apartment. I shared with him the Law Enforcement Field Guide, also from the NCSF so that if he had questions, he could be better informed. He thanked me for letting him know and he would keep that in mind if he got calls for our apartment. I know that was daring of me but I wanted to be up front with them before they started knocking on the door for screams and loud impact sounds.
Whatever you decide to do, make sure you are comfortable before the emergency arises. The NCSF has wallet cards that you can get with the tips and quick guide for if the police are at your door and can be requested from their website. I carry one with me also, just in case.
–luna
From Submissive Journal Prompts: Do you know what a Butler’s book is? Do you use one as a part of your service? If not, do you have a book to keep track of frequent guests’ preferences so that you can cater to their needs and desires each time they visit?
I had never heard of a Butler’s book before reading about them on FetLife in the Service Group. It’s a fantastic idea though. The idea is to keep bits and pieces of people’s preferences and informative notes on each person that would come to your home so that you can serve them successfully and comfortably. There would be names, significant other names, food and beverage favorites, food allergies, music choices, etc. I think it’s a fabulous idea. I already have an underused home control journal with cleaning plans and grocery lists, food plans and so forth. I would really be more organized if I could learn to start using it on a regular basis, and the house would thank me. Oh and Master might also.
I’m writing about this for Meditation Monday because since we moved to our new apartment, Master has noted that I’m not holding up my end of the bargain to take care of the house better and ‘just doing it’ isn’t the best way for me. I like to plan and figure out a fun (and sometimes more time involving) way of getting things done. I think it’s my list-making fetish that causes it.
We don’t get a lot of guests, but that doesn’t meant it won’t change in the future. My goal is to start with the home control journal and enhance it to be come a Butler’s book also. I could get interests and preferences from people at munches, thinking that they may visit us sometime in the future. All of it is an exercise in paying attention to what people say because I don’t want to just start asking people these questions.
The Home Control Journal I got ideas from Flylady.net. I’ve had one for awhile, but it’s ancient and needs some updating. If I get time this week I’m going to revamp it so that it works for what I want it to now. I am going to hopefully become more organized and live a simpler life. *cross fingers*
Here’s what one person puts down for each guest in their journal:
If you are submissive you have likely been in trouble in public. It’s just a matter of time and mood for most of us. A lot of times it isn’t intentional either. And in those moments as you look your owner in the eye you know that s/he will decide to either chastise you there or wait. Both are not in your favor.
For me, I’ve been mildly disciplined in public and it is a humiliating experience. Master does try to keep it intimate and private by having me say my proper apology and sometimes I get a swat on my ass too. Worse yet is ‘the look’ and somtimes my full name. Oh my do those hurt. All things considered we are pretty descrete about the discipline aspect of our roles when out in public.
I just as I feel about public displays of D/s, I think that these displays should be toned down too so that we aren’t forcing others to be a part of our lifestyle. Other than the obvious odd looks we really could get ourselves in trouble legally and be accused of abuse or domestic violence; both things we don’t want to have to face even when falsely accused.
Even if you don’t follow a discipline aspect in your relationship, I’m sure there are times where you stepped out of line and got called on it. How obvious that is will send warning signs and confusion to the uninformed people present. Recently I had erred when in lifestyle public and was called on it vocally and immediately. I can imagine how the scene would have played out if we were in a more vanilla setting. He would have said my first name forcefully, maybe pulled me aside, most likely given me a look and then make the decision for me on what I was to do. I admit that this looks odd to anyone not clued into our relationship, but how much more odd than a couple that is having a disagreement in public? Not much at all.
How are you punished in vanilla public? Is it set aside and dealt witih later on? How is it indicated that you are in trouble?
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When Master says to talk about something on here, it usually means he wants me to think about it more than I have, or that something has happened that he feels I would benefit by expressing. Last night has asked me to talk about something that happened the other night and my thought process on that.
So, that night Master asked me to make coffee, as he usually does before I get ready for bed. I normally don’t have an issue with it and comply readily. This was another story. I moaned and curled my lip and I think I asked if he could do it. Was I doing anything important at the time? No. I just didn’t feel like doing anything for him at that moment. It was a general malaise of sorts.
So what made me that way? What made me practically refuse to make his coffee for him, or want to do anything else for him the entire night? This can’t be an uncommon occurrence but they are rarely read on other blogs. I was refusing to serve, even though when I do serve I am thrilled and happy.
He was quite upset and confused. I didn’t have a good reason as to why I didn’t want to do this. I still don’t have a good idea what fueled my denial.
And of course I have no clue where my thoughts went when I started this post… perhaps I’ll get back to it another time.
–luna
I know it’s been awhile since I posted and thank you to Kari for sending me an email with her concern for my absence. I’ve had a few days off work and never really sat down at the computer for long. How great is that!
I have a lot of wonderful ideas on how to improve and expand my submission to Master and just need to get them going, now that the stress of moving and distaste of the old place is all over with. I feel a lot better now that that hurdle is all over.
I’m starting a challenge on FetLife for health and fitness in the Healthy and Kinky Group. This one is 20lbs or 20inches by Christmas and it starts Monday. As a part of this I am going to develop motivational ideas and exercise ideas to help me stay on target. i’m going to be taking a nude picture of myself and posting as my starting photo so that I can see changes while I make the lifestyle changes I need to lose weight correctly. I found someone’s idea to use a deck of cards to exercise was a great idea to put some fun and variety in their routine. This is for strength training and you can pick and chose what exercises you want for each suit 
Exercise Card Game
The Suits:
Spades = Pushups
Hearts = Squats
Diamonds = Windmills
Clubs = Leg Raises and Crunches
How to play:
To begin with remove the Ace through 5 of each suit. This is your beginning deck. Shuffle them (Ace-5) up thoroughly. Pick the top card and begin! The number on the card is the number of reps per exercise. This game allows the different exercises to be mixed up so you don’t fall prey to a set routine.
After a couple of weeks add the 6. And so on until you are using all the cards.
Remember to walk at least 20 minutes a day also. This can be broken up into smaller chunks if you need to do so, until you are able to walk the time uninterrupted.
I know that some of you are thinking, ‘here she goes again’ and ‘nothing she does seems to work’. I know that watching me not lose weight is boring, but one day I will suprise myself and start losing. Hopefully this challenge that I’m leading on FetLife will get me going.
I’ve visted the Dr again on Tuesday to go over the blood test for thyroid we retook in August. The number was still low, but the same. So… he’s hesitant to diagnose hypothyroidism since it’s a lifetime diagnosis with medication forever. We will revisit this test in November and see if the number stays the same or fluctuates to make a better decision. Other than that he’s ready to see the anti-depressants help me get the movitation I need to lose weight. I guess that means it’s my turn ;P
–luna