No Rope Conference for Us

I hate bad news, but I’ve got some sitting in my back pocket that I’ve postponed sharing with you all. Master and I will not be going to Shibaricon. We just couldn’t come up with all the funds we need. I’m still down about and hopefully we can start saving early to attend next year. We’ve canceled the registrations and the room. We used our savings for it to enjoy a night out and left the rest for later plans.

In the short term we can pay the bills and get my car repairs that we’ve been putting off. We can also now save for moving instead of waiting for that. We still intend on moving this summer at some point. Finding someplace may be a challenge as we have a pretty tight budget anyhow, but I just hate this place anymore.

On the flip side, I still have a week’s vacation next month to enjoy being with Master. I’m sure we will find plenty to do. Perhaps I will be in the right head space to try and do an intense service time, where all I do is serve him. It’s kinda something I’ve been mulling over in my head. I don’t know if I can do it, but I don’t know if I can’t either. Only way is to try. Maybe we can go somewhere overnight and enjoy the near home activities; if I can figure out what that may be.

I wore the butt plug last night after a long long time of not doing that part of my training. Master agreed that we could change the rule a bit and I can wear it to bed. I think that it can act as a replacement to the cuffs I used to wear when I started having to wear braces for carpal tunnel. I am to wear it as long as possible and then let him know when I am removing it. Last night I made it just past an hour. I’ve never worn it that long before but I guess sleeping helps you tolerate it better. Hopefully I can keep this up.

I’ve not been sleeping well as I’ve mentioned earlier, but I think it’s getting better. I have a lot of worry on my plate that has gone and I can move on to the rest of things. Like my diet. I just getting so sick of myself. I’m sick of having to diet, of never exercising but needing to so very badly. I’m disappointed and frustrated. If I can’t shape myself up and succeed like I want to then progress will never happen. And that’s that.

Possibly related posts:

1. Organising the Dungeon and Baking
2. What crawled up my butt?
3. Weight Loss Halted and Other Randomness
4. Procrastination
5. First day of Diet done