Here is my list of newly discovered blogs within the BDSM blogosphere! I have found them very interesting and enjoyable to read. I hope you will enjoy them and feel free to leave a comment or two. You just may find a new favorite blog!
Don Cambion
catalina loves her collar
Thursday’s Child
No Limits
Dancing with the Devil
Magdalena Sins
Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at luna’s Journey. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
What are your favorite forms of restraint? Are you a rope slut? Shackles your thing? Love the smell and feel of leather?
I’m getting it a lot more recently. I can’t explain it really. It takes me completely by surprise and I don’t know how I’m supposed to respond. My heart bounds, my pride swells and I blush ruby red. What is it?
I’m being recognized. If not visually, as soon as someone hears my name their eyes light up. “You’re the luna from Iron Gate?! I’ve been reading your blog for X (months/years/forever)!”
I’m flabbergasted, amazed, honored and humbled. I had no intention of being somewhat of a role model, or someone you follow like a soap opera. I even had one girl tell me that she’s trying to live up to my level of submission. Wow. Uh. Okay.
Trying to come to terms with my celebrity is like recovering from an addiction. I’m still in a denial state. There is just no way that I’m popular and that people talk about me at parties or with other submissive friends. Not like I do about kaya, at least. She’s famous. Me? I’m just … here. At some point I’m going to have to stand up and say, “Hi, I’m luna, and I’m a BDSM blog celebrity.”
I wonder what it is about me that so many people read me everyday. Is it because so many people can relate to my story? Is it because long lasting BDSM blogs are rare? Maybe it’s the fact that I try to remain real and tell the whole story, even if it’s not romantic fantasy.
At any level the fact that I’m getting recognized in the local groups I attend makes me somewhat nervous that I’ll be recognized at ShibariCon next year, in which Master and I do intend on making the best weekend of our lives!
I’m running along the lines of what happens if I meet one of the bloggers I read so much of? I mean what about if I meet up with liljgrrl and Daddy? I love reading their blog and ogling the beautiful rope work there. There’s no doubt they will be there, she’s already counting down. Will I treat them like some famous person or who they really are? A couple that enjoys writing about what they do.
In reality, that’s all I am. I’m a person. Master is a person and I share our life on this blog. It may bring me more in the limelight that I ever thought would happen and I will have to be okay with that. I am exhibitionist, but this is a different stage. I could be famous, I’ll learn to take it all in stride.
In the meantime though, I’ll continue to serve my Master as best as I can. Please be sure not to lift me up too high. I’m just like the rest of us.
–luna
If you haven’t seen it yet I strongly suggest you go watch Monk’s new video blog posts on YouTube. It’s a performance bondage mummification suspension piece he did awhile back and it’s so awesome! I can’t wait till I can be suspended and tied up like that! It’s only a matter of time.
Part 1
Part 2
The goals of any submissive are as varied as the relationship as to which they tend. I’ve been given the task of naming the goals I currently have within my submission and then explain how I plan on working towards them. A daunting task indeed! I’ve really not given it much thought honestly before now and the task ahead puts a bit of pressure for me to define myself a bit and what I want. After I figure out my goals I have to realize whether or not it’s realistic, how I plan to go about it and what I think it will bring to the relationship.This task is a lot like the Code of Ethics I began writing. My Code is not as detailed as this is expected to be, but it is a stepping off point for me. I’m not sure if I ever showed you this code. I will go through it point by point and explain how it fits into my goals as a submissive.
I will endeavor to express my needs and desires openly with Master without fear of reaction or consequences.
I currently have issues with expressing all that needs expressing when it comes to sharing with Master. I tend to keep a lot of thoughts to myself when I know that I have brought it up too much, he has expressed that he’s heard it before or when it is troubling me; but not in a big way. I guess I perceive it as a way to keep him from being overburdened with all the baggage I bring with me and the wasteful fretting I do.
When it comes to sexual or sensual desires I’ve been a bit more open about what I want. This isn’t easy. I constantly feel that I need to just be available for you and if you want to make me come or have me in my favorite positions then you would just do it. I’m afraid that I might suggest something that you wouldn’t like to do and a part of me sees asking for what I want sexually as controlling your desires.
Overall I need to not be afraid of your response. I have seen and felt your wrath and I’d hate to bring it upon myself. I know that you can control your reactions and I shouldn’t be afraid as I used to be with others. It’s sort of like, “Don’t rock the boat.” If I say something and you get upset it disrupts are day/moment/relationship and I would hate for that to happen; however I know that you want to be kept informed of things for the betterment of the relationship. This is where I feel caught. I’m caught between sharing things and changing things and the talking would lead to better things. One never knows.
I will take great care about my appearance as it always reflects on Master even in vanilla settings where they do not know the dynamic exists.
I have a goal of caring for my body more than I do now. I want to make sure that I have a routine in place to care for myself someday. I want to make sure I don’t leave the house in anything that you wouldn’t approve of my wearing, I want to make sure my hair looks as best it should and my make up is just right for you at all times. This is a goal that is in progress but I know that there are days that I slack at my hair especially.
I want to be that jewel upon your arm that all people look to you; that feeling of pride in what you own for appearance alone, as that is what people will notice first. I know that in previous relationships it was a sense of shock and pity that people looked. I want the glances now to be admiration and jealousy. I hope to someday play my part in that.
Remaining healthy is very important to the health of our relationship. I will continue to work towards loosing weight and getting active until that time he feels I have reached my ultimate goal.
You put a rule out when I started dieting. I wasn’t to quit. Right now I don’t believe I’ve quit, but it isn’t as present as it could be. I’d like to work towards a healthy life with you. I know that if I were at a normal weight I’d have more energy and feel happier. I would want to do more with you sexually.
I want to change the way I eat so that I watch more what goes in my mouth and that I make smart choices. I desire to know that the food I put inside me is helping me stay healthy and live longer with you. I will not do anything to jeopardize our life together.
I will find beauty in serving Master in even the smallest things.
The smallest things. Typically these things are making coffee or fetching the remote. They just seem so mundane to be considered service to you. I think it would be best if I concentrate on the larger service issues before I got to the small ones, in fact, they may even fit into place once I develop my mindset on the big ones. Who knows?
Seeking guidance from other more experienced submissives is acceptable and encouraged when no answers can be found elsewhere.
You may be wondering why this is a part of my goals, but I know exactly what this is. If I want to be the best submissive for you, I have to know and experience as much as I can. I learn from reading other people’s blogs and sites; I chat with others and with these short mentoring sessions I can pick up something that would enhance our lives and you would love it. It’s a part of my creativity and desire to learn I think.
My body is not my own and I will offer it to Master as frequently as I can; for his pleasure and sexual needs.
I admit this is a hard one for me but one I would like to excel at in the near future. I want to be able to sense your needs and offer myself without your needing to ask me. I also want to be more pliable when the desire arises for you to take me by objectification or force.
Master’s needs are a priority and I will strive to ensure his desires are met in an appropriate and timely manner.
The importance of this one is paramount to all the others falling into place. If I don’t see your needs as priority to mine or someone else’s then why would we even have a D/s relationship to begin with? You are my Master and I will strive to make you happy as often as possible, keeping your needs above my own. I hope that this will become a mantra unto which I live my life at your feet.
I shall work hard towards learning and making habit the rules that Master sets out for me.
This one is kinda like saying that no matter what you give me as rules I will continue to try and follow them. I will try to grow and develop into the person you wish to have serve you always. That is my goal. I will change my behavior and strengthen my skills for you Master.
After all that I still think I have a long way to go. I’ve sorted out the goals I have and I know that I want to develop them, but truthfully, without your help I can not accomplish them. You are the person that I need around so that I can reach my goals, nothing more.
–luna
Yesterday was my one year anniversary of being collared. We hadn’t even noticed it until I saw the post in my memories sidebar area. I can’t believe a year has gone by. It feels like only a few months ago that he wrapped that piece of leather around my neck and I asked if I was worthy.
The leather has deteriorated and moved on to silver but the feeling is still the same. I belong to him completely. My whole life has changed because he has entered my life. I could never find someone as wonderful as he is. We are perfect for each other.
I’ve looked back this past year and can find no real arguments and the good thing is that there weren’t any to speak of. Master and I have really good communication and talk to each other before things would blow up on us. We’ve grown closer together and been able to play more powerfully and find our love for things. Like bondage.
In celebration, I asked Master if he’d tie me up. He mentioned a frog tie but it turns out what he thought was a frog tie, wasn’t. I was laid on my belly. He proceeded to tie my arms behind my back making sure to immobilize my shoulders and wrists. Then he tied my ankles to the anchor points in the arm bind, pulling my legs up and out so that I was spread open but on my front. It was very helpless and I was very turned on.
He got out the butt plug and lubed it up, slid it into my ass. It felt so good. Then he pulled out the glass dildo that I love! Master tied it in place using the same arm binder as the anchor point to keep it in place.
He then proceeded to tease and torture my poor clitty, and he coaxed 3 orgasms out of me in rather rapid succession. I struggled against the bondage and it felt so very good. I was floaty and so very in tuned with the rope.
Master fucked me then. I don’t remember if he untied me first or just hiked my ass up in the air. It was hot and so very good to feel him moving in me. I was in orgasmic delirium.
The rope marks felt so good and the achy muscles in my shoulders remain even today.
A beautiful synergy of love, lust and rope!
–luna
From My Bottom Smarts Spanko Brunch: What traits make a great spanker?
A great spanker is as unique and individual as the spankee. When I was first exploring BDSM I couldn’t tell you the difference between one person’s play style and another. Now I can see it within moments of their first strike.
The traits I see as being very important to a great spanker are specific to what I see and need in a spanker. These can and will be different for everyone that may come across this page. You can take this as a stepping off point to come up with your own list.
Focus: A great spanker will maintain their focus on the spankee throughout the session. They are not easily distracted by the spankees giggling, whining, sighing or other verbal responses. In fact, the responses the spanker gets are encouraged and brought out more as the spanker gets more in tune with the way the spanking is having an effect.
Variety: No great spanker would make this list if they do not have a variety of implements and striking styles. Any spankee will tell you that a hand spanking in the same motion, same speed and same impact does get boring after awhile. A spanker that can stir it up with different strikes, surprising caresses inbetween impacts and toys you never saw before will make a spanking much more entertaining for both parties.
Concentration: A great spanker should have good concentration. They will be able to see exactly where they are striking and remember what sort of response they are getting with each implement and strike pattern they try. A spanker in concentration will begin to make beautiful music with their spankee and the toys they use.
Knowledge: As with most anything, a great spanking comes with a knowledgeable spanker. A spanker that comes with experience, lots of practice and a knowledge of the spankee will draw out a better session than one who does not know anything about the subject or the play.
Sense of Humor: With all play, there can be an element of fun and joking from both parties. A great spanker can easily go with the punches and toss out a few smart remarks back at the spankee. This is especially effective when the spankee complains about it hurting too much or that they don’t find that cane to be a fair toy.
–luna
PS: Master mentioned that I have focus and concentration on here. He sees them as the same thing. I guess I don’t. Anyone else have an opinion?
Today it is all about my attitude. Not that I’m a smart mouth and need it slapped clear off my face, but that I’m very negative. Master has always seen that in me and so have many of the readers of my blog. I don’t want to be negative and can’t really understand why I’m so down on life and worry so much about things I can’t control. I’d have to say that I don’t think even Master knows to what extent I plan for the impossible, improbable and unlikely to happen.
For example, I really hate driving. I was practically shoved behind the wheel at 17 when my mom said, “enough is enough, you have your license now get out there and drive your sister to the dance.” It was 6 blocks of sheer terror for me. I expected everything to go wrong and it went over and over in my head as I put it into reverse, pulled out of the parking space and then merged into traffic. Things like flat tires to accidents and death. It was all there. I couldn’t convince myself otherwise that I would make it to school and then home safe.
And it stuck with me. I’m sure I was negative before that but this is a moment I relive and am certain that the negativity in this change of my life is exactly what I have going on everyday since. I still hate driving. I don’t picture the things that could happen all the time; but I do with alarming frequency. Vivid visions of what would happen if I didn’t go around this curve just right, flying past a deep ravine and wonder if anyone would find me if I ended up down there, the deer jumping in my path… It’s all been there. But it goes further than that. My mind goes into how would Master find out something happened, how’d he get to the hospital, how bad would it be, what happened if I died… yes, it gets that bad.
And here is where most people say I need therapy. Maybe I do. Therapy has never worked for me. I’ve been to 6 therapists over the course of my life. They all turn to my weight and eating habits within 3 months and I can’t see what that has to do with my thoughts and emotions because while I know I have some emotional eating, that has all dwindled since I met Master. I admit; one therapist worked. The marriage counselor that my ex and I went to. She helped me change a bit. I was so very bossy and while I catch myself at it now and again, I’ve learned not to be. I also learned how to express how I feel without accusing the other person. “I feel….” sentences instead of “You do this” or “You make me feel”. That has worked wonderfully even now when I need to express something to Master and it’s hard for me. But, right now Master is the only therapy I can afford and it’s worked wonders with many things in my life I’m sure he can work this one out too.
On to the way I’m going to try to handle this one; since it’s a toughy and it has been with me a very long time is this:
–luna
Master has been practicing with his new matching set of floggers I made him for Christmas. The first time he used them on me was this last weekend at a play party. He told everyone that this was just practice and not a full fledged scene and that he wasn’t that good at it.
He started with a slow swing, the 4 point Florentine started to come into shape. I could feel each landing of the falls, twice on each shoulder and it was so cool. He went a little faster and got his footing. I could tell he was getting more confident with it as he went.
Yes there were times he missed and times he slipped his aim, but that’s what practice is all about. What was so awesome about it, is that he had an audience that watched him in silence. You could almost hear a pin drop except for the few comments of “I could never do that”, or “I do just it by swinging in circles.” They loved his figure 8 technique which I know he’s been reading about as the more traditional method.
I’ve come home to him practicing swinging them so that he can strengthen his left arm to swing like his right. I also know he wants to learn the 6 point Florentine as well, but can’t find any documentation online. It’s frustrating him.
He wants to be good at what he does, he wants to perfect technique and love it completely, not just enough to get the work done. We’ve heard a lot of talk about functional BDSM and I know that Master wants to go well beyond function and find the beauty in it. Florentine is a way he can enhance flogging. He will make it look like an art form and bring me to tears or giggles in no time. I can’t wait.
So, if you know where my Master could find information or instruction on 6 point Florentine, I would be greatly appreciative. You can contact me through this site and I’ll happily pass on the information.
Links
Florentine Flogging on Wikipedia
Found! 6 point Florentine Videos on YouTube
What can a Dom do to show control over a submissive whether they are live in or not? These ideas have to be keeping in mind that the submissive has to work and be visible in public. They also have to keep in mind male and female submissives.
My mind went nuts over each individual activity I perform daily and thought up possible ways a Dom could control that activity from the mundane to the extreme. I thought it would be fun to have an array of topics, listing a situation or activity that a submissive performs or would be required to perform and come up with ways the Dominant could apply rules, behavior modifications or some other reminder that they are owned. This could be and is meant to be fun and a learning experience.
Who knows, maybe some of these ideas will end up being a submissive’s new rules *cheeky grin*
Here are my ideas:
Other suggested ideas:
Ms Bonnie:
Ms Soft:
harderNrock:
Joy:
muse:
Sherri:
Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at luna’s Journey. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
What are your favorite BDSM resource sites? Which ones did you find to be the most helpful when you were first starting? Are there any that you’d recommend to others that may read here?
I can with all confidence say that I am submissive. I may have lost my way for awhile and it did affect our relationship severely. You ask me again what makes me submissive and I really can’t find anything more to add to what I have already said once before. To reiterate them here; my willingness to please, I’m extremely honest and open about my feelings, I have a desire to give up control of things in my life and maybe my entire world someday and lastly I can foresee how my actions and behaviors may affect you. The renewed collaring doesn’t change this. It may be more enhanced but I am who I am, until you mold me into something more.
I give my all to you, something I have been hesitant to do. I feel more open to you and susceptible to changes in the dynamic more than I thought I would. I can sense your moods, I try to anticipate your desires and needs more than I have and I feel more at peace with your love and commitment wrapped around my throat. This changes me just a bit. I’m not only A submissive, I’m YOUR submissive. Being your submissive I desire to serve only you, make your world all it can be and to encourage you to develop and grow as my dominant and lover. I hope that my strength can be your strength and that my love will shower you in happiness. I know that we will continue to grow closer together as a couple and enforce the dynamic as we wish it to be.
Being in a power exchange invariably means that there will be some give and take. Otherwise it wouldn’t be exchange. You have asked me what I would like to receive on my end of the exchange. For what you give to me, which will be discussed further down, I would like to receive the following from you.
In return for all that you give me I am sure that I have plenty to reciprocate. My obedience should come to you without hesitation and as that is achieved some of the things I hope I give to you in return for what you provide me should blossom.
Overall, I hope to give you all that you need to be at peace, in love and D/s with a goal of reaching a point where no one can say we still have a ways to go. I want to reach the stars with you and our goals will be secure in our hearts and love of each other. I am committed to making sure that my side of the exchange is fluid and powerful and that you can continue to feel more confident in your role.
–luna
Thank you so much to everyone that commented on the Thursday question about the praise, “Good girl.” I loved reading about your thoughts and emotions.
For me, good girl is the catch all phrase for high praise. You hear it alot in some relationships and rarely in others. I think Master and I are more in the middle. He knows just when those words will do the most good and he’s always right. I love it so much. Master does save it for when I’m doing exceptionally well. I glow from everywhere when he says it. When I was online exploring I knew that this phrase was one that could get over-used and I didn’t want that to happen. Not with all the good feelings that come with it.
When I hear it I feel a knot in the back of my throat and my eyes feel like they would water. I take a deep breath and smile. The pride that he feels for me wells up and I feel proud of myself. Nothing has superceeded this feeling, not even the love I hold for Master. It’s that powerful.
This weekend Master and I had a very wonderful spanking session. He was able to push me further than I have ever gone, and take more pain and harder swats with the wooden frat paddle than I have ever had. I thought for sure that I was going to have bruises.
I don’t. I have a few red spots, and it was mildly tender but that’s it. I wanted marks and was thrilled at the though that I might have them. Master even noticed that I was going blueish just after the spanking. I wanted them so badly.
Oh well. I know that means he did really well with the warm up and that I was in my wonderful floating space when it all happened. I know that he will be pushing me further next time
We have more rope coming. We bought some solid color MFP from Rainbow Rope. We were hoping it would show before Saturday’s play session, but now that it’s almost here I’m so very giddy with the idea of being wrapped in it. I just love rope!
Saw some friends this weekend, went to a munch we had not attended before and met some new and wonderful people. I’m honored that so many were welcoming and inspiring. I’m proud to be a part of these types of people and that I’m welcomed so openly.
I have another post brewing, perhaps later today, about celebrity. This weekend I was referred to as an online bdsm celebrity and it got me thinking about a lot of things. I’m going to try talking about them.
I also have another idea of ideas bubbling just under the surface. One of the questions at the munch was what sorts of things can a Dominant do that would control the submissive even if they were not together. My head almost exploded with thoughts, rules, behaviors, rituals… so I think I might need somewhere to write them down. Perhaps the best place for that would be The Thinking Dominant. If you are curious, let me know and then I’ll post here as to when I start that thread of thought.
Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at luna’s Journey. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
How important is the phrase, “Good Girl” to you? How do you feel when it is said? Do you have other words of praise that you love to hear from your owner?
Each relationship that we pursue is going to be unique and different. We can not compare one person’s dynamic with another’s even if we can agree that it is under the term of BDSM that we hold this relationship. In a recent comment on the post Speech Training there came up a need for me to explain what kind of a relationship Master and I have and it’s comparison with other types of relationships we’ve seen or been exposed to somehow. This post is not meant to bash or insinuate that our relationship is any better than any other. This only came about to explain why I AM real all of the time, I am myself and I am also his submissive. All of the time, whether reality calls or not.
Mara questioned the validity of the need to be myself sometimes and not be in the submissive role. She went on to say that she is submissive in the bedroom but her owner and herself have a different relationship outside of that. This is the first of a few relationship dynamics I’d like to discuss. A bedroom only BDSM relationship has many merits for those who find a need to be kinky but can’t possibly imagine taking the power exchange outside of that into their real life, or for some other reason don’t feel the need or desire to be ‘in role’ outside of that. A lot of people may select this type of relationship if there are children involved also; BDSM is done in the bedroom only to keep the exposure to the Lifestyle as minimal as possible. This type of relationship is perfect for so many people that I think it is the bulk of who I see at munches lately.
There are also people in relationships I’ll call ‘weekenders’. These people go about their daily routine, day in and out and don’t give a thought about BDSM or kinky play except on the weekends. Whether it’s every weekend or not, the BDSM aspect of their lives is limited in scope to what they can do in a weekend’s time. The bulk of weekenders also tend to be long-distance relationships.
With even less exposure to BDSM elements are the kinky sex relationships. They differ from the Bedroom only folks only in that they may not engage in the role play, have defined roles at all, probably don’t have interest in a lot of toys and won’t go into a lot of learning/exploration or training to do the more advanced play techniques. These relationships like to dabble in the kinky sex, the light bondage and sensation play and tend to keep it that way.
Next are the relationships I’ll call signal relationships. This is when the partners are only in their defined roles when the collar is on. It could be everyday, only when home from work, only on the weekends or whenever the mood strikes. This type of relationship I see as being more in-depth than weekenders because it could include behavior rules, routine or ritual more than weekend play sessions and also applies an easy break in reality (ie. real life) for those wanting to explore BDSM but aren’t sure they want to make the step into calling it a Lifestyle.
Next group, and the largest I perceive are the Lifestylers. This type of relationship strives to live in their natural roles as close to 24/7 as humanly possible. There are usually lists of rules and structure applied for all occasions and reasons. There is a lot of ritual and symbolism in this type of relationship. Real life is blended into these types of relationships sometimes so seamlessly that you wouldn’t be able to tell where ‘real life’ begins and D/s ends. D/s is their life.
This type of relationship is the one that Master and I are developing. We do hope to live fully in the lifestyle someday and we continue to progress along our own paths along each other. I have rules and rituals I must follow daily. I have behaviors that are to be amplified and those that need to be limited or removed. All of this is to make our relationship exactly as we’d like it to be.
There are also M/s relationships. I can’t say I know a lot about these, but know that generally the slave has no limits, no say in what is done, must be obedient (almost to a fault), and I feel tends to be a form of voluntary sexual slavery. If you wish to learn more about consensual slavery you can do so through some of the blogs on my links list. I can not do this relationship type justice in my explanation because I can’t say I understand it fully. I only know that I do not want to become a slave; I’m happy where I am.
I’m certain that many of you are reading and feel that none of these types of relationships applies to you. I’d gladly like to read your description of the type of relationship that you have in the comments. This is by no means a complete list and it is only my interpretations; as such if you disagree, feel free to express that as well.
–luna
The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #115? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.
This Week’s Picks
Sexay
“You bite my tautish thighs passionately, and drag my thong off with your teeth.”
Resolved
“Naked now, I turned her towards him, running my hands across breasts, midriff and down between her legs.”
Afterglow
“She’s hot, where only seconds ago in the throes and tears of her ecstacy she shivered.”
Mr. Sugasm Himself
Pimpin’ Presidents
Editor’s Choice
“Coming out” for spankos
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Not really the training as in what I’m supposed to say in a structured way but how my mood, attitude and behavior affect how I say things to Master. I’ve been all royal and uppity with him on many occasions and while he’s been strict reminding me that I’m not supposed to talk that way to him I fear the reprimand when that polite reminder time wears thin.
Master requires that I’m polite, obedient and courteous at all time. I am to show him respect and honor his authority and decision when he makes one. Now really I’m supposed to hold my own when decisions are being made as he does take my thoughts and opinions into his. But I have to stop arguing with whatever he decides. I have to stop giving him the ‘whatever’ glare.
Master has me writing a bit of a post or article or essay; whatever it may be called about how I should speak to him. I keep thinking of the ‘textbook’ way that it’s supposed to be done and not really thinking about it. Of course that means a few things for me.
So, I’m attempting to modify a behavior that until now has really grated on Master’s nerves and warmed my cheeks when he’s chastised me. I have to learn, I will learn and I’ll be the best I can be.
–luna
Last night was some of the best sex ever! Master and I are still talking about it in whispers and mumblings. “Damn that was hot last night.” You bet it was.
It started out as just, let’s go have sex. Run of the mill type sex. I crawled into bed and laid on my belly ready to turn over when Master hops on top of me and holds me down. He rubs his dick along my ass crack and teases me. It feels really good, and then suddenly I get the guts to ask for what I want.
“Master, I’d like some pain with the sex, can we do that?”
“What kind of pain?”
“I dunno, anything.”
And anything is what I got. Master sank his dick into me, while I was pinned down. He ground his dick into me and spanked me hard. I remember a lot of nails down my back and biting my back too. He spanked me till it stung really bad all the while fucking me.
Master says I was making all sorts of delicious sounds; this of course I seem to never remember completely. I assume I made noises as I’m a loud sex partner but as far as hot sounds for Master I’m sure any of them will do. In any case I was driving him wild.
Then he reached under me and took my tits in handfuls. He squeezed them really hard while he drove into me again and again, so very hard. He squeezed them so hard that for a moment I thought that he was going to puncture them, or that the bruises left would be so very tender the next day that I wouldn’t be able to wear a bra. Oh my god it was good though. I don’t put pain into the sex category very often, in most cases pain is a different satisfaction to sex which is probably why I can separate the two really easily.
This was different. This was a melding of the two. His nails down my back, the fingers digging into my breasts and his dick claiming me as his… the power trip was so overwhelming. So hot!
When it was all over we were both spent and I had a silly grin on my face of happy satisfaction. I had asked for what I wanted and I got it; it resulted in some of the most satisfying sex we’ve had in a long time.
–luna
Every week there will be a BDSM question posed to readers here at luna’s Journey. Feel free to answer it as candidly as you’d like. If you’d like to participate in the discussion please leave a comment on this post, send me an email or post the response on your own blog!
Do you require a safeword? Did you always? Would you refuse to play with someone who refused to either adopt or allow one?
Sexual desire is something that I take for granted. I have it, I wax and wan and sometimes I can’t get enough. But what I have noticed is that I have problems asking for what I want. Like Master is just supposed to know that I’d like him to finger my asshole, or rub my clit harder. Part of me feels that if I ask for these things that I’m topping from the bottom, and I can see how that could be thought of as controlling the situation. I KNOW that Master would not appreciate it in a full blown scene. But sex is something different.
I’ve got to learn to ask for what I’d like. I know that he’d like to give it to me, please me as I please him. It’s that lovely give and take dance that we do when we are together. It’s a beautiful thing. But lately the dance has been one sided. I’ve been letting him lead and then wondering why I don’t feel as satisfied.
My body is saying that it wants this or I want that, but if I don’t voice it, how can that be fulfilled?
This all came about after sex tonight. I mentioned to Master that the asshole rubbing he did last time was great and I should have asked for more. Of course he affirmed that I should have, he would have gladly given me more pleasure.
So I need to learn to voice my desires. Now seems like as good a time as any.
–luna