Master’s mother sent me a belated Christmas gift. She has never met me and didn’t know about me until after Master was here with me. I got a ruby and diamond ring. It’s simply beautiful.
His sister asked him on IM if he was going to marry me. Gosh we’ve not even gotten that far, besides I’m stuck still being married to my ex. I do hope to repair that someday soon. Just have to save up the lawyer’s retainer. I’ve even spoken with his mother and she has said that I make him happy and that’s all that matters. It’s very touching to be embraced as tightly as I have been by his family.
On the diet front: I’ve not been doing well with my diet lately. I’ve not exercised as much as I should, I’ve not watched my portions. I’ve been lucky to still have it be within my calorie range, but it’s not all healthy food. That’s just as bad as not dieting at all. I feel horrible and each time I pull myself together and give it an honest attack I do loose weight again. I’m just going to have to bite the bullet and admit that being healthy is hard work.
I think I’m in a good place submissively. I’ve really been working on my behavior and responses to Master. He’s noticed it a bit and that’s even better. Hopefully with the improvements Master will be able to help me work with my trust in play issue and then we can move on.
The only way to work on the trust issue is to start playing again, slowly, small sessions with lots of talking and touching I think. That will be up to Master of course. I really hurt him when I told him I was having problems accepting him during play. I know this is something I can fix though, I’ve been thinking about it a lot during my drive to and from work. This is definitely something that will be repaired. We love each other too much not to.