Disappointment

This is a neverending tale. I am a continuous disappointment in myself and my Master. I do have positive things in my life, but they seem so few and far between that I’m beginning to think that I’m not worth all this. Sometimes I wake up in the morning with all these intentions, hopes for improvement and willingness to suceed. Then by mid-day these fade into nothingness and I am no longer trying, no longer working towards the hopes of the morning. I promised Master that I owed him something for being a sweetheart and stopping to see some of the high school football game that was going on last night, and I haven’t done anything to show my appreciation for it. I’m on my period and while I know I can not get any sexual pleasure I haven’t done anything for him either. He’s shown his aggrivation and I’ve done nothing. What in the world is wrong with me?

I really need to find it within myself to see the positive, to set my goals and actually acheive them.

–luna

PS: Edit: After I posted this Master so graciously pointed out that this post was longer than most of my usual ones. That I usually only write two lines, and only rarely write more. Again, I disappoint.

Possibly related posts:

1. The Aftermath
2. The Heat and Sexual Appetite
3. Q&A
4. Umm
5. Returning