I have a problem. It’s serious and I’m ready to face it head on and see if I can do something about it.
About 6 months ago I started to change. My body and mind stopped being turned on by the things it used to. I stopped being horny. I stopped fantasizing about anything, I stopped having a driven interest in sex. Now it’s rare if I get turned on before sex at all, I find some aspects of sex as more work and not enjoyable, and all of this is killing me.
I’m depressed. Master is depressed and confused. I feel that if I can’t figure out what is going on and fix it, we may be heading to destruction. I love Master so deeply and my heart wants to be intimate with him, my body does nothing. That’s not to say that once I am touched and he is teasing me that my body doesn’t respond, it does and feels great, but I have no pull to be with him of my own. I am never horny anymore and it makes me feel rotten. It’s not Master, it’s sex in general… I just don’t crave sex like I used to. What is wrong with me?
I can’t think of anything that may have lead to this, I don’t know why my response has disappeared. I don’t know how to get it back. I want it back. I need it, I need to fee horny again. I need help, can’t afford professional help so I guess I’m on my own with Master. We will have to figure this out on our own.
No more excuses, I need to face it. It’s tearing me apart.