Oh my god my cramps are horrid today! I woke up at 4am with terrible cramps and had a bad night’s sleep after that. No matter what meds I’ve taken it’s only dulled it temporarily. Now I know why I’ve been so bitchy and snappy at Master. He says he understands and constantly asks me if there is something he can do for me. What a sweet man I have! I wish there was something he could do for me. My heating pad has become my best friend.

While I know that my body is pissed at me and expressing it in the rudest way I still have a ton of work to get done. I’ve made a to do list that is for this weekend only and god I hope I can get going on it soon. I’ve just been so fatigued!

I’m working on getting more work so that I can earn some money. Am I crazy? I will have so much to do. I’m going to be swamped and for some reason I like it that way. I still hate being so short of money and I’ll do anything I can to have cash on hand.

I graduate May 6th. My dad will be coming up from Virginia. I’ve not seen him since Christmas before last. I’m happy that he will be up here, but also unsure how to entertain him for 3 days. That’s right, three whole days. Oiy! There’s nothing to do here, how can I invent things?

Randomly, anyone noticed that Kindlings isn’t being updated anymore? It stopped mid last year and I miss them. I’m hoping to start a journal prompts feed on my Sensual Service site. Do you think there will be interest? I will probably be using some of Kindlings old prompts to jump start my mind for more, but I just feel that would be a good thing to have and I know that Kindlings has really helped me when I was stuck or when I just wanted some submissive thinking.

–luna

I saw this on myspace and thought this would be a blast. If you like it, give it a try!

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if they don’t make sense.

What type of men/women do you like?
Didier Sinclair – Anytime Sex (obviously it doesn’t matter, rofl)

I just had this linked to my from a friend and just loved it Thanks pagan!

I went out to dinner tonight with some friends. We got on the discussion of our sex lives when this friend expressed her lack thereof with her boyfriend. I piped up that a sex toy would help her if he’s not available. She almost jumped at the idea and off we went to the toy shop.

I’ve never been in a toy shop before, most of what we purchased was online but I do have plenty and she oggled at all the different kinds. She decided on a small jelly vibrator that looked quite nice for her first one. I hope that she’s happy with her new purchase. I guess we can just wonder unless she gets braggy.

Master and I are entering fuck rabbit stage just before my period and I have to say I am looking forward to it. I love it when we just can’t get enough of each other. I have to say that if my body can handle it I’ll take all I can get. I’ve actually been craving anal play, believe it or not (from me that’s a “no way!” moment). Hopefully my body will allow me to do some in the near future. I’m also kinda hoping for some play, but a girl can’t get greedy. I’ll take whatever Master is willing to give me.

–luna

Ok, so I’m wanting a bit of money and I know how to make websites, so I’m going to put out there that I can make your personal website for you. Designs I can not make, they would have to be purchased or use a freeware/linkware one. If you are interested in having your own site, completely editable by you through a content manager, let me know and I can give you a quote for your project.

–luna

I’m going this morning to get my rear brakes replaced. I’m really nervous about the cost, as I really don’t have a lot of available funds. I know I need new brakes, I just don’t know if the cost is worth it when I don’t have food either. I can still stop, it just takes longer. I know that’s bad and getting my brakes done is a very good idea but what do we do about eating? Ramen style noodles can only sustain you for so long. It’s possible I am worrying for nothing and that the brakes will be affordable and I will have money left for groceries and gas. Then again, they may not be. I am about to find out.

I have other repairs that need to be done to the car as well, but priority is my brakes. I dream of making enough money to live on when I’m done with school. I don’t want to have to struggle so badly anymore. My dream at home job may have to wait till we are comfortably living and we are moved to a new apartment.

–luna

I have a lot ahead of me now that break has ended. I need to plan final exams and papers. The stress of the end of term is already upon me and I’m not ready for the pile of work. I’ve started reading some Walt Whitman poetry for my poetry class. I have to at least try to understand it. He’s not an easy poet to understand. I also need to start reading a book on Emily Dickenson. Boy I’m not looking forward to this.

Master and I had a little fun the other night. Fisting is quite fun and I have never gone without an orgasm when fisted. It’s usually 3 or so before he’s done or I’m spent. I do dread one thing. I’m out of commission then for a few days afterward while my body recovers. Master is horny tonight and my mouth hurts… I will have to see what I can do.

I’ve been bombarded with annoying IM’s lately from horny men wanting cyber something or other. Why is it that they come in waves? I’ve been fine for a good 2 months and then now, BAM! I have 5 a day. I realize more people probably get more but it’s getting on my nerves. I’d like to just keep my IMs off but I have so many people I talk to that are worth talking to, perhaps invisible is the way to go. I’ll have to think on this.

I am now officially an owner of a munch group. Not that I think I can do more, but that the previous owner retired. People were interested in having munches again and I want them too. It’s the least I can do, and who knows. Maybe something good will come from it.

–luna

Here’s my solution to Blogger. I have moved my blog, yet again, changed the template yet again and now this one is hosted on my server. That means the only time this won’t work is if my server is done, which you wouldn’t be able to access the site at all then anyhow.

Let me know what you think and test out my commenting system that comes with this blog script.

I am getting more and more annoyed with Blogger. More often than not it loads only half my post, it takes forever to upload things, and sometimes it looses posts altogether. Anyone else having these problems? I’m thinking of moving off Blogger with a blogging system on my server instead. I am afraid I might not be able to transfer my posts though so I am hesitant to do it. I will have to look into it and find out.

–luna

I need a little time to myself. I guess what I mean is I need a little time devoted to me. I’ve spent 5 days of my spring break just hanging around watching Master work and doing some work of my own. I’m ready for some whip me, spank me, hold me, sex me time. I’m needy and this is a good time.

Master and I are watching Mythbusters tonight. I’m hoping that he will be in the mood, although I’ve seen him yawning lately, to do a little bit of play. I’d like to test my pain thresholds again and we need to play, it’s so much a need now that I think about it frequently. I need the connection, I want the pain and I know that Master feels the same thing. He’s itching to do something too.

–luna

Master and I time is coming up this week. I’ve asked if we can set aside some time one day during spring break to be together. I’m looking forward to it. I’m not sure what we will be doing, but I’m feeling the need to be with him so badly, in any way I can. I’m the needy subbie right now.

I’ve done some cleaning today and I’m sure I’ll do more tomorrow after I do some homework. Yes, that’s right, I have homework for spring break. Lots of it. I thought break was supposed to be a break! sheesh.

–luna

While this isn’t a big deal, I find that I’m just terrible at IM chatting; especially with random new people. I guess if they are IM’ing me, they have a purpose and I really don’t help them figure me out. It’s always the same thing:

Hi.
Hello.
How are you?
I’m fine, you?
Good thanks. What’s up?
Nothing.
So, tell me about yourself.
I have a pretty decent profile for that.
(end of conversation)

Ok, so I fill out my profile so that people at least know something before talking with me. I don’t go hunting for people to chat with, and I don’t feel I need to share my life story with a stranger. If you want to talk to me, I guess you had better have a line of thought or topic of conversation.

My spring break starts today. I have a midterm and homework for another class to do this week. This is supposed to be a break for goodness sake. *sigh* I am going to try to get this all done this weekend so that I can actually enjoy my break the way I want to the rest of the week.

*Dreams of playing with my websites*
*Dreams of playign with Master*
*Dreams of spending a day or two stitching*
*Dreams of starting to read a book*

Yes, that’s what I’d rather be doing….

–luna

Yes break is coming, just 3 more days till Spring Break. The only thing I have to do during break is my mid-term for Structure in Spanish. I hope to enjoy Master’s company and work on The Iron Gate site a bit more. I always have more upgrades to do and things to improve. Sensual Service needs some more work as well. I’m always looking for more essays from people, but getting the permission is not easy in the slightest. I think I’m just going to have to write my own at some point.

Master has mentioned twice now that it’s my day to blog, as I sit here and I really have nothing interesting to say, but I’m sure I can continue to write on and on about general issues.

I feel bloated and hoping that my period isn’t as bad as last month. Master has noticed my disinterest in sex that always preceeds it. I’m kinda hoping it starts soon so that I have some of Spring Break without it.

I’m constantly stressed about money and the fact that my school career is almost done and I’m uncertain as to what kind of job I’m going to have. I’m hoping for about 1000 a month to get the bills paid. I don’t know. This worries me.

That means I’m just a bloated worrisome mess right now. Boy, that makes me feel great.

–luna

I’ve been working hard on The Iron Gate this past week. I have so many upgrades I want to do to it so that it’s not only easier on me but easier for others to use as well. I have upgraded the links section so that there are more detailed categories and better listings. I have about 600 links currently.

I also have been revamping my activities section. Thanks to starla and her Master I have been able to use BDSM-Gear links and images to enhance those pages. I’m sure it may draw purchases to their store as well.

I hope my readers have a chance to take a look at all I’m trying to do and let me know what you are thinking.

This is my last week of classes before Spring Break and I feel the pressure to get everything going and finished. Just a few short weeks and I will be done with school and out in the workforce hopefully paying my own way.

Master and I have dreams of another website. I’m not going to say more than that because as of right now, it’s still just dreams. You’ll know when/if it’s out there for you to see.

–luna

I’ve been going to bed early the past 3 nights. I just feel an overwhelming tiredness and fall asleep almost instantly. Am I sick? Am I overdoing it when I work out? Am I not getting the right nutrients? Is it because of my lack of caffeine? I wish I could figure it out. It beginning to bother me and if I fall asleep early again tonight I just may have to do some investigating.

The forums last night was a flop. One person showed up. While I had an enjoyable time getting to know this person I was annoyed that no one else came. I guess I’ll have to see what next month brings. If it becomes a regular thing I may have to change tactics and figure out a way to get people to come. Maybe more fun topics or things to do. It would be so much easier if I lived in the town were these things are held. I have to drive over an hour to get to these functions.

I know Master is getting frustrated, it’s been a few days since we had sex and I’m feeling the tension as well. He just tucks me in bed but I know that he’s got a need. I really wish I wasn’t so tired that it would be impossible for me to serve him as he wishes. Tomorrow aught to be better. I have no where to go other than workout and then I’m home so perhaps I will be able to pounce on him.

–luna