Attempting to feel good

By lunaKM on December 8, 2004

I woke up today feeling ill. I think I may have caught a cold, which isn’t good as I have final exams next week and a cold will just make it hard to study. I have to finish my final paper today or tomorrow so that I have the weekend to study for my final exams. I’m looking forward to the end of this semester.

Master has been playing a lot of a new game he received, and I am glad that he is enjoying his time, but I still thing that there has to be some time set aside for looking for a job. I may have to start doing it myself if I want him to have a job. I’m so worried, and try not to show it, I don’t want to be a pest, but I just feel helpless. When he works on the websites that he wants to do, I feel that something is getting done that might be money making in the future. I know he is getting annoyed with my constant dwelling on it.

My New Year’s resolution is going to be loosing weight. This will be the first time I have done a resolution, but I feel that with Master here, I can get on the regimin and not get off. He will be watching me, what I eat and my activity level. I am going to work on setting small goals, as well as a punishment / reward system to hopefully motivate me. My ultimate goal is to loose 100 lbs. I’m kinda scared to get started, as I hate feeling hungry and my activity level is pretty low, so it will be a long while before I won’t feel winded going up a flight of stairs. I want this though, I need it for health sake, and I know Master will be proud of me if I can achieve it.

My grades are going to be okay I think. I’m hoping for B’s. If I get better, then that’s great too but I didn’t really try very hard at anything. Hopefully next semester I will work harder. Master is always surprised at my grades, and all I think is, I could have done better.

I need to get working on my flogger making. I have a lot to do to be ready for a bazaar in the Spring. I want to have 10 of each style for the bazaar and the ability to take orders. I hope I’m not stretching myself too thin when I start taking orders. I want to have time for other things too. I think I may limit my orders to 4 a month. We’ll see.

I’m kinda hoping that Master will want to take some sexy pictures of me soon. I feel the need to have some nice pics of me. I know he really doesn’t want to have pics of me around the net, but it’s just something I enjoy. I’ll have to wait to see if he changes his mind.

–luna

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