I’m doing pretty darned good with Nanowrimo. This last week I did 10K words! My wrists hurt like hell, but after medicating I was able to get so much accomplished. Now I have one week left and I want to get another 10K done. That would put me at 35K which is about average for what I’ve been able to accomplish in previous years. Even with the holiday the only day that I’ll be out of town is Saturday so I’ve got all this week to plow through writing. I can do this!

Master is so sweet and wonderful. My period is coming and I crave chocolate and coca-cola every month. He went out to the store for me! What a sweet man.

And the person that keeps posting that Master can’t keep a job? You are wrong. He’s had the same job for 10 years. He’s self employed and constantly has coding work. The current problem is that the clients he’s working for are really slow in paying him for services rendered. Like it’s been 2 months since he completed the work and they are just now getting payment sent. So get your head on straight missy and don’t go judging things before you know the facts.

AND miss pissy britches, the issues I have with froggy and the whole poly thing are because I realized after we opened the relationship that I am not poly. That doesn’t mean Master can’t be poly. That’s how he is. So, I have jealousy issues and I don’t feel compersion. So of course I’m going to express my stress and anxiety over this. There’s nothing wrong with my relationship with Master just because he has other relationships in his life. So just drop it.

That’s the last attention you are going to get, so you might as well stop reading my blog. It’s obviously not for you.

Now, we are going to have Thanksgiving dinner with Kiva and her poly family. We have the big dinner and are planning to play some Cards Against Humanity. I’m bringing GF boxed stuffing (because I’m going through all that work to make bread and then the stuffing), a GF dessert that doesn’t have pumpkin and a veggie of some sort. I’m not sure on that one yet. I’m considering making deviled eggs too. Of course this will all depend on if I can figure out how to transport it all 2 hours and have it look okay on the table. I don’t want to have to do any cooking while there. Just warm up the stuffing and the veggie.

I’m stopping by Mom’s house in the morning and will be doing the cooking there, cause she don’t mind and we can chat too. Mom isn’t into Thanksgiving. She does Christmas like nobody’s business though. So cooking for that will happen next month.

What are you fixing for Turkey Day?


Today we are expected to get a really big snowstorm, in fact it’s on it’s way right now. I’ve been watching the roads and weather report all day long because Master is driving to kiva’s tomorrow and he’s never driven in the snow before. I’m quite nervous for him. He’s pretty stubborn about going when he feels ready to drive the distance no matter the weather.

I’ve been pretty moody today myself, even more so when Master said he was going over to hang out at froggy’s instead of his usual Friday beating. It feels like he’s escaping stress again. I really wish I could be his outlet. I hate that I am too close to the stress that he can’t find relief from me. I’m his wife, his slave, and I feel so helpless.


Went out to work away from home today and I got over 2300 words written! I wrote over 2000 words yesterday too. Boy it feels good. If I can keep that up for the next 10 days I’ll be doing my best number ever. I am wearing my braces to bed and the Alieve twice a day to help keep them moving and not painful. Gosh it feels good after having some pretty bad days earlier in the month.

Master went bowling tonight and won a turkey! He beat his best game by 46 points. I’m pretty darned proud of him and a 13 lb turkey will feed us for like days and days.  I told him we could save it for Christmas but he’s like, no man we need to eat it now. So, I’ll figure that out. Mom’s not making turkey for Christmas at her place so I’ll still have a chance to make a turkey here for the 2 of us.

Also, at Aldi today I got 2 boxes of GF stuffing and a canister of GF fried onions. So stuffing and green bean casserole!! I hope they taste good enough that I’ll have those good food memories. We are going to kiva’s for the Saturday after Thanksgiving for the big meal. I’m visiting Mom that morning.  She’s not a big Thanksgiving fan, Christmas is her holiday.

So that’s about it around here these days.


This weekend was hard. Some weekends alone are harder than others and I can’t really explain why. I had moments of crying and trembling lower lip, feeling really alone and restless boredom. Master knows that I’m feeling this way because I tell him. I still can’t sleep well without him here and that may be just being used to someone being in the same area as I am when I sleep. The crying feeling persisted when he arrived and I had a little cry when he gave me a huge hug and told me he missed me.

I’m not sure if this emotional neediness is because I normally spend so much of my time with Master or that I’m becoming reliant on his presence or something altogether different. I know that my emotional turmoil bothers me. I think if I could pinpoint a reason I’d be able to process it better.

I’ve started taking Alieve twice a day to buy more time with Nanowrimo. My wrists have started aching at night so this will hopefully give me more time to get more done. I’ve got so much done so far, it feels great. Part of the writing I’m doing now is inspiring me for content I want to create further on.


Another day, another headache.  This one sucker punched me really. I was fine early in the morning and then once Master was up I started to get dizzy, see stars in my vision and then the splitting headache and nausea started. Ugh. Half the day wasted yet again to a headache. I’ve started to have to wear my braces at night because by the end of the day my wrists ache. I hope they can hold out a bit longer. I just crossed 13k tonight and I’m behind the projected goal by now. But if I keep plugging along all well be good.

Got some insulting comments through the blog today too. Some people are so high and mighty aren’t they?

That’s about it for today. I’ll be back on Monday with hopefully a ton of progress for Nanowrimo!



Master gave me permission to skip yesterday’s post because of my headache and that I went to bed early and here I am at 11:20am, being reminded by him that he allowed me to skip it as long as it was done this morning. Ouch. So I’m here and I’m not really sure what I want to talk about.

Things are pretty much steady and we are still waiting for money to come in. It’s one of the hardest things, knowing you are out of money and the obligations you have are just waiting for that to arrive. This year has been painfully full of that.  Wherever we move has to be cheaper than this place if we want to get ahead again like we were before moving here.  And I’d really like to be able to have a room of my own to put my palette that I sleep on. I’m so tired of it taking up living room space every night. Even a large walk in closet would be good, I think. Of course if I’m really lucky we could find a 3 bedroom, or a 2 bedroom with a den/office/finished basement and then I’d have my own space.

We’re back to the gym this week. It’s kicking my ass in a big way. I’m also being very watchful over what I’m eating. When I get as miserable as I have been I need to just kick it in gear and see if I can make the scale or tape measure move. This weight must go down soon.


Tonight is the first night since the start of Nanowrimo that I’ve felt the need to put my braces on while awake. So, I think from here until the end of the month I’ll be taking Alieve also to mitigate pain and swelling. I’m not doing well in Nano either. I’m at 8500 words where the target goal is closer to 13K by now. Of course I’ve not given up and any words are better than no words, but I had such high hopes. We’ll just have to see how I do in the coming days.

Master and I went back to the gym today after almost 3 weeks not attending. I feel like I’m starting all over again and it feels horrible. I couldn’t even get to the 25 mins on the Elliptical that was capable of last time I was there. I did 14 and then had to take  break before doing another 10-ish. And I feel sick, fat and sluggish. I’ve really reigned in the food too. This has to change and it has to start now. I know I keep doing this to myself but something has to click eventually.

Of course with my fat mood I’m less sexy feeling and initiating sex is really hard. Master hates when this happens and does his best to lift my spirits and show me that he loves me and desires me as I am. I’m working to get over my current feeling down by making the changes I feel are necessary and I guess we’ll just have to see.

Part of me feels that I’m also starting to have seasonal depression with the decrease in daylight. So I’m upping my meds for the season (Dr approved).


Yesterday I had a migraine so my writing suffered. I was able to do one 30 min word sprint and that was it. Today wasn’t much better since I’m in hang over from the headache. I have a lot of catching up to do if I want to be on target. About 3500 words to be exact. I know I can get a lot done when Master is gone for the weekend. He leaves tomorrow before dinner because there’s a social thing that he and kiva are going to. I’m invited, but the extra driving involved, and bringing kiva up here to then have to feed is something we can’t afford financially right now. So maybe I’ll go next month, if it’s not snowing. Then on Friday they are going to a play party. I’d love to go to one of those too, but again.. that driving. And the entrance fee (she’s covering his this time).

It sucks that we have to be so careful with money at the moment. Master is working his ass off to get us caught up with everything.

Health insurance shopping sucks. I did find a plan for $308/month that we’ll be switching to. Did I mention our current insurance is increasing over $100 for next year? That is the reason for the hunt for new insurance. Honestly, I wish we didn’t have to have insurance. Obamacare has not helped us in this. We aren’t poor enough to get cheap insurance so we’re forced to pay full price or pay a tax fine that is just insane. Ugh.

That’s about it for me today. Thanks for the suggestions for content for subguide PinkPixieGeek. Some of those I’ve done before but I can always rehash them!


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